Title: The past is never forgotten
Author: Tempus Meum
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Disclaimer: The characters and premise used in this story are unfortunately not owned by me. If JAG was mine…the possibilities.
Spoilers: Season Five
Summary: Mac married Mic and headed to Australia for a new life, but things didn't work out as she had planned.
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Mac,
You don't know how happy it has made me to finally hear from you after all these years. When I received your last letter eight years ago, I wrote back to you once every two weeks for six months. Each time the letter was returned, in the end I gave up, I didn't want to, but it was taking such a toll on my life that I had to. I thought that maybe you were moving on, that you didn't want to hear from me anymore. Now that I know this is not the case…well lets just say I feel so much better.
I don't believe I should be receiving all the credit for you becoming who you are, and becoming a General, CONGRATULATIONS! That is great news, I always knew that you would achieve great things. Your kids are right, you are strong and it is because of that, that you are where you are. But if you want to bestow some credit on me then I must give you credit for the influence that you had on my life. There were times when you stopped me from making huge mistakes; you followed me even when you didn't agree with what it was that I was doing. In doing so you have helped me become who I am today.
I guess that is something you might want to know, who I am today. Well I'm a single father of two. Charlotte is five and Jack is three. Their mother was killed in a car accident two years ago and since then I have been raising them, with a little help from mum and Frank and Julia's parents, Julia was my wife, she was amazing, she was a paediatrician at Cedar's in LA. I miss her so much but I think I have finally accepted her death, I guess I had to, Charlie and Jack needed me.
I remember when you sent me Caitlyn's picture, it was the last letter that I ever got from you, she was a beautiful baby and she is even more beautiful now. Samantha is gorgeous too, she looks so much like you. You have a beautiful family Mac. I hope I have the chance to meet them one day.
I must admit that when my letters began to come back to me, I became quite angry with you. Bud and Harriet and even AJ stopped telling me about you in the end, in an effort to stop me from biting their heads off, so I didn't know that you had had any more children or that you and Mic got a divorce. So I do not know the full story behind it. But I do hope that my suspicions are not correct, I could be wrong in how I have interpreted the words in your letter, so I won't voice them, and I hope that I am wrong.
I want you to know that you do not have to justify yourself to me; I would not believe that any time you would pull your children away from their father. Asking them what they wanted to do is exactly what I would have expected you to do. The fact that they wanted to go where you went tells me just how much they must love you and what sort of mother you are to them.
How are you liking Melbourne, I have heard that it is a beautiful city, a city that I one day wish to visit.
As I look back at what I have written I see that I have not told you yet what it is that I do. I retired after Julia died, I decided it would be best for my children if I didn't work. I don't regret it, seeing them grow up, seeing Jack take his first steps, hearing his first word, was the best feeling in the world, as you are most likely fully aware.
We moved to California last year so we could be closer to my parents, you can imagine just how hard it was for me, trying to look after a one year old and a three year old alone.
I guess what I am trying to say is, that I would really like to bring my children to see you. I would love for them to meet you, and I would love to meet your children. But most of all I want to see you again.
The only thing that has stopped me from getting on a plane everyday since I got your letter is not knowing where you live and not knowing how you would feel about seeing me again.
I have enclosed a card with my cell phone number and my home number on it, please call me and let me know if I can see you again.
Love always,
Harm