A/N:

Chapter 2 is finally re written! Yet again who ever is bothering to read this thank you. Sorry if my grammar is terrible, if you find anything major feel free to point it out(just don't be blunt about it I know way too many people who do that to me :P) I am also looking for a Beta so I you love reading loveless fanficts then I would be really grateful if you would edit my work. I also apologies if this seems rushed or too dragged out or lame. I haven't written a loveless fanfiction for ages and I only recently started reading the manga again as it is finally started to continue. Yay for viz media!

Anyways I hope you continue reading. Enjoy!

Ritsuka slumped down onto the couch and let out a sigh. "It's been a while hasn't"

Soubi nodded. "Too long."

"Only God knows what Yuiko is going to do, come Monday I'll be the talk of the school everyone will think I'm gay." Ritsuka worried.

"Don't worry I will make sure she doesn't do anything."

Ritsuka frowned he had a feeling Soubi meant violence. Ritsuka hated violence one of Soubi's traits he did not approve of primarily why they parted. "Thanks, but I doubt you could Yuiko spreads gossip like wildfire so by the time you got to her it would be too late."

"Why is it that it matters who you're in love with." Ritsuka sighed thinking of Soubi.

"Who is this your talking about?" Soubi smirked having an idea Ritsuka was talking about him well he hoped he was.

Ritsuka's averted his gaze from Soubi. "Some one…" Ritsuka pondered on the thought of getting together with Soubi, it would certainly fill what he had been missing "I guess it could work." Ritsuka mused.

"Guess what could work?" Soubi repeated what Ritsuka said, eager to know what he was thinking about.

"Hey Soubi did you ever date anyone after we parted ways, you dated Kio right?"

"What of course not!" Soubi immediately dismissed the question, he never dated Kio nor would he ever consider dating neither him nor anyone for that matter.

"I only belong to one person."

Ritsuka threw his arms up with irritation "Ugh here we go again, it's the I love you Ritsuka crap again." Ritsuka let out an irritated sigh. "I thought we discussed this Seimei has no control over you anymore you're not forced to love me!"

"But I do." he insisted "I never wanted to part with you, you don't know how difficult it was to betray Seimei and then you tell me you never want to see me again!" He said with emotion in his voice, very unlike Soubi.

Ritsuka felt guilty he was never aware of the extent that Soubi loved him. Ritsuka always had a crush on Soubi but he never thought Soubi would feel the same way he thought that it would always stay one sided. Soubi leaned over and pressed his lips softly against Ritsuka's. Nostalgia Ritsuka thought. It felt just like the old days when Soubi kissed him except now he wanted it.

"I guess… um i. Well" Ritsuka stuttered as he blushed again he was having a difficult time controlling his emotions.

"Want what?" Soubi asked.

"I want you!" Ritsuka exclaimed. "I always have!"

Soubi smirked. "Well that is something that I comply with" he kissed Ritsuka again, Ritsuka moving into the kiss.

Soubi began lightly rubbing Ritsuka's cat ears. Ritsuka quickly grabbed his hand.

"Not yet!"

Soubi chuckled. "What did you think I was going to do, take your ears?"

"What! Of course not." Ritsuka shook his head, desperately trying to get rid of those dirty thoughts. Ritsuka yawned.

"I'm surprised you still have them, but glad." He smiled. "Tired?" He asked Ritsuka.

"Of course not!" Ritsuka responded sarcastically. "Of course I'm tired my day has been entirely messed up!" He paused as he let out another yawn. "The past four years have been extremely messed up to tell you the truth."

Soubi wrapped his arms gently around Ritsuka who was now much taller almost as tall as him. Ritsuka rested his head on Soubi's chest. "It's going to be easier. I don't have to reach up you anymore."

"Much easier, i won't have to bend down either" He kissed Ritsuka's forehead.

Ritsuka rolled his eyes. "You never did, I always had to jump up to kiss you." He said sleepily drifting off into a deep sleep.

Ritsuka walked through the school gates, it was a day like any other day. As usual the first person he saw was Yuiko. "Hello Yuiko!" He waved happily at her she glared at him coldly.

"Betrayer." She pushed him into the iron gates and walked off.

"Yuiko?" Ritsuka was confused why did she do that was she pre-menstrual or something like that? He would never understand women.

Ritsuka got his books out of his locker and begin walking to class. Today had different vibe and he couldn't put his finger on it. He sat down and opened his books like normal he wasn't the most social kid in school but he hung out with Yuiko and Yayoi at recess and lunch like the good old days in grade school. But today no one was sitting near him. It was like he had a contagious disease. "Why is love so complicated?" He thought to himself while he chewed on his pen attempting to finish this essay he was assigned to.

The day had gone past no one had looked at him, not even a glimpse. He got the occasionally bumping into while he was walking down the corridors but that was all.

"Oi! Watch where you're going I'm not invisible you know!" he yelled but they just ignored him, they didn't even look back and snicker at him. Just as Ritsuka was grabbing his English textbook from his locker a boy passing slammed Ritsuka's head against the locker. He briefly turned around to see it was Takashi Ibuko a boy who frequently bullied him for a number of things for still having his ears, for bringing home made lunch to school and for being.

"We don't want a homo like you in our school." He continuously bashed Ritsuka's head against his locker then pushing him onto ground he kicked him hard in the stomach. Ritsuka winced looking up to see a group of people gathering around him.

"Who wants to spend lunch with a boy whose gay you're not right" Another boy threw his set of heavy textbooks on to Ritsuka bruising his cheek.

His homeroom teacher came round and began to lecture him on why he was wrong "Why would I want a child in my class who is gay, I want to be teaching fine young men and women not dirty things like you." Ritsuka curled up into a ball and cried. His name reflected him he definitely felt loveless.

"What's wrong with it." He yelled hot tears rolling down his cheeks. "What's wrong with being in love!" His scream echoed throughout the school.

Ritsuka woke up in a cold sweat, panting, shaken and most of all he felt extremely scared. He looked around he realised he wasn't snuggled up to Soubi anymore he was on a bed alone. Ritsuka quickly got up and ran around the house still frightened from his dream. The one he wanted most now was Soubi and he couldn't find him. He ran outside into the pouring rain, he ran and ran until he fell down from exhaustion. He looked up at the dark clouds and screamed as he ran the blade of a pocketknife down his arm. "What's wrong with being in love!" he screamed, with each new cut he dug further into his skin that had already been riddled with cuts of the similar kind.

Soubi yawned and reluctantly got out of bed, he walked down the hallway to check on Ritsuka, he didn't want to sleep in the same bed as Ritsuka as he wasn't sure whether he would be appreciative of it, so he put him to bed in the spare room

"Ritsuka!" Soubi called out into an empty room. Maybe he had gone to the bathroom or was having a shower. Soubi walked up the hallway and saw that the bathroom door was open and nor one was anyone using it. "Ritsuka?" he called out again and when he didn't respond he started to become a little worried. He thought of other possibilities where Ritsuka may be, maybe he went for a walk or walked back home. Soubi decided to go out and look for Ritsuka.

"Oh my god it's a dead body!" a woman screamed, her hand shaking pointing towards the ally way. Soubi stopped and took a quick glimpse. It was a young male with short black hair and ears he had several slits to his arm and looked like. "Ritsuka!"

Ritsuka yawned and went to rub his eyes but stopped when he felt something tugging. He glanced down at his left wrist that was hooked up to an IV. He panicked desperately trying to pull out the IV "No, no, I can't have this!"

"Ritsuka!" Soubi tightly grabbed hold of his hand.

"No I don't want this I don't want this!" he yelled still struggling to pull it off. Soubi tightened his grip around both of his hands, he knew it was painful for Ritsuka but he had to do it.

Ritsuka panted, as his vision started to get clearer he realised it was Soubi who had grabbed hold of his hand not the nurse or the psychologist it was Soubi. "Soubi?"

"Ritsuka why did you it?" Soubi asked gently looking at Ritsuka's arm that was now bandaged securely. He sighed. "it wasn't the first time you did it either." He remembered the state Ritsuka was in the night before lying in the ally way with multiple cuts to his left arm.

"I-it was terrifying Soubi they all hate me my school hates me I don't want to go back… I just don't want to go back." He stuttered. "I cut myself everyday I created a new cut to represent how many people didn't want me in their lives."

"Ritsuka that's not true, they are only nightmares they won't hurt you, everyone loves you just have an unfortunate name."

"It's true I'm loveless, no one likes me the last normal person who did now hates me!" he panted. "Why can't I be loved like Seimei?"

Soubi bit his lip "That's not true no one loved Seimei."

"How come mother didn't beat Seimei, how come no one ever teased Seimei everyone loved him!" Ritsuka continued scratching at his IV desperate to get himself out of the hospital. He stopped when he saw his Psychologist. Ritsuka hated his new Psychologist a man in his late forties named Yasumoto Hideki. He clearly remembered when he first met his new psychologist was when he was fifteen years old a few months after Ritsuka left Soubi. The first thing he asked of him was to become good friends. He definitely preferred Katsuko Sensei, this man was creepy creepier then Ritsu Sensei.

"Ritsuka how are we feeling today?" the old man smiled a pen in hand ready to write down his response.

"Fine." He replied bluntly. Soubi frowned at Ritsuka.

Hideki sighed. He pushed up his glasses. "Ritsuka we're not going to get anywhere if you keep it up with the one word answers."

"I don't care I just want to get out of here!" he slammed his fist against the bed angrily.

"Ritsuka you're going to have to say something more then 'I'm fine' you don't seem fine don't you remember what you just told me?"

Ritsuka shot a glare at Soubi. "Don't say a thing or they'll keep me here forever." He mumbled to him.

Ritsuka groaned. "Look I'm telling the truth I feel fine, not happy not sad just fine!"

Hideki looked at Soubi hoping he could get some answers from him. "And what relation do you have with Ritsuka you're obviously not a relative."

Ritsuka blushed; this would be the first time he would refer to Soubi as his…..

"Boyfriend." Soubi replied before Ritsuka could he smiled feeling proud that he could refer to Ritsuka as his boyfriend.

"Hmm I see." Hideki wrote down his answer. "You never mentioned to me before that you were in a relationship, Ritsuka."

Ritsuka blushed. "It's only recent."

"How long have you known each other for?" he asked

"Since he was 12." Soubi replied

"So you went to school together, childhood friends turned to lovers?" he chuckled to himself, he assumed Soubi was not much older then Ritsuka, maybe one or two years older.

"No, he's eight years younger then me."

Hideki nodded, Soubi soon realised what a dumb move he made in saying that. "I see and this relationship was it sexual? Hideki asked.

"Hell no! I told you it was just recent I still have my ears!" Ritsuka snapped at Hideki.

"Yes but these days a lot of people are wearing fake ears." Hideki got up and walked out of the room.

Ritsuka groaned glaring at Soubi. "Now look what you've done, now he's going to tell the authorities about us and who knows what else." He face palmed. "They are probably going to think you're some creeper."

"I could sneak you out, they won't find us then" Soubi suggested.

"Great in theory not so much in practice." "Hey what are you doing?" Ritsuka looked over to see Soubi attempting to take out Ritsuka's IV

"Getting you out of here."