Yes I am alive.
I feel like I do this like all the time. I am sorry it has taken me so long, I am a horrible person.
This is not beta I don't have one. If someone wants to help a poor girl out let me know. they don't sell them at target.
Thanks to all the positive feed back from chapter one.
I cant tell you when I'll post again. real life hates me
warning there is sex in this, If you are under the age of 18 please don't read it, I'm almost scared to post all of it on here because of the crap that happened a few months ago.
Umm none of the name Edward calls Bella is meant to be mean.
And uhhh yeah..
I do not own Edward and bell, S.m does. I how ever own the words that have been written.
Chapter 2-
"Mama" I called as I entered the house I grew up in. My mom was a stay at home mom, she did the stereotypical things like took Emmett to football practice and jasper to soccer, me however sucked at all sports. I did however get into baking so she would teach me how to bake and cook when I was little.
"Bells, I'm up stairs "she called. I followed her voice into her and my father's room. She sat on the bed days of our life's was on their small TV set and she was folding laundry. Her glasses sat low on her nose and her hair was in a messy bun.
"Hi lady" I plopped down next to her. She smiled and turned back to her soap. She has been watching this since she was little; I mean it's been on forever. It's funny because now the people from my favorite soap Passions are now on days.
I have been calling my mom lady since I was little and seen that one cartoon on acme hour call her mom lady, she would say what ya doin' lady? Ok lady, then end up on some weird adventure and the dog would save her all before her mom noticed.
"Do you have the cupcake stuff for the baby shower?" I nodded. Esme was throwing a baby shower for rose. Rose and Emmett had one drunken night and forgot that rose's medication for her UTI made her birth control not work and now the crazy bitch was pregnant.
"I am too young to be a grandma" she sighed and put the laundry basket on the floor. Her and my dad had an old bedroom set. It was from my grandmother, my mom hated it but she wasn't about to tell her that. The bed is a little high off the ground when I was little I use to have to run and jump to get on it.
I laid my head in her lap and she played with my hair. Swearing at the TV as one of the characters did something scandalous. Her fingers running threw my hair rendered me off to sleep.
I woke up to the smell of lemon and chicken. I almost forgot I was ten and fell asleep on my parent's bed. I stretched and headed down stairs. Seemed like everyone was here for dinner. The living rooms grandfather clock read five thirty.
Emmett sat on the couch watching TV and my dad was in his chair. I gave my dad a kiss on his cheek and waved to my brother.
Rose looked really uncomfortable as she sat in the kitchen chair; she rubbed her huge belly and winked at me as I sat next to her.
"Hi honey" Esme kissed my forehead as she walked back into the kitchen. Esme had her hair up in a bun and was cutting some carrots for whatever my mom was making.
"Is Edward coming for dinner" I looked at Esme. She knew the answer, probably not it was Thursday and that meant he had to go somewhere for some big who knows I tended to not ask. I just kiss him and tell him ill see him when he gets home. The less I know the better my father taught me that.
Alice and jasper showed up soon and I sat a table next to Esme who's spouse was too absence. I looked at the kitchen table it was small but we fit around it. The dining room was for holidays and Sunday dinners.
Emmett was on dish duty for saying stupid shit during dinner. Rose was eating tums like they were candy. Alice and jasper left for the bar.
My mom and Esme sat on the couch drinking white wine. I knew it was to kill time before she had to be home.
When I was about eleven, Billy and Carlisle were arrested. Nothing that could hold them in prison but for a few nights in jail before Carlisle dad bailed them out and paid off the judge to get it wiped from the records.
When I was nineteen, Edward was caught in a bust. He was dropped because we don't deal with the drugs but him being a Cullen was known and it wasn't in forks he was at a part in Seattle and was charged there. It was out of my father's hands. Carlisle stepped in and paid everyone off but Edward was in jail for a week.
I went crazy, I didn't eat and I cried. I thought I lost him. I broke up with him when he got out. I screamed at my family calling them all fucking crazy and just packed a bag. Esme came to get me when I was stranded in California.
She explained to me that a women needs to stand up for her man her family. We are the strongest of the family we keep everything together.
Now when Edward has jobs I stay out of it. I wait at home for him and if he doesn't come home I know where money is and who to call.
Not that it will happen I overheard my dad telling Billy the other night that most of the trades Cullen Inc. was done with outsiders and was never put in the hands of the people who were getting the money.
I have no idea what really goes on, and well honest truth I like it that way because I don't have to lie if I ever was questioned.
Although, I would go to bat for my family.
I knew when I got home I would be alone. Part of me hoped he would be home. Sighing I got out of my car and headed up to my door. I wish he had a normal nine for fiver job, but then he wouldn't be the man I grew to love.
I gave Lucifer some of the left overs and put the rest in the fridge. Edward usually will come how and heat it up or eat it cold, he is strange.
I turned on the flat screen in the bedroom and kicked off my jeans and slid into bed. It was Thursday greys anatomy was on. One show I have been addicted to since the start. Edward won't watch it with me. Fine by me, he would like to watch those dumb pawn shows if it was up to him about what's on TV.
When Edwards gone Luna sleeps right next to me. Lucifer sleeps on the ground. Not that either of them would protect my ass from someone, big old softies. Edward gave me a gun one year as an anniversary gift, he had the handle made pink, and I however keep it in its case, and go for the butter knife under my pillow. I knew that if it was needed it's under the bed right for reach but I pray like hell I'll never need it. When I was about fifteen my dad took me and Alice down to the shooting range so we could learn to shoot guns, then at sixteen we had to take self-defense classes.
I don't remember falling asleep threw the Show but I woke up during the middle of the night with his fresh sent around me, Arms tight around my waist one hand almost groping my boob, and his snore in my ear. I wiggled myself closer to him and sighed, He had showered before he got in bed. He looked peaceful and happy. Kind of makes my heart melt with goo when I look at him like this.
I guess I try to be one of those girls whose like eh I got a boyfriend, we aren't public affectionate but when you see us together we look together. He has this asshole side to him and I just wanna punch him in his throat when he gets like that, but then again I'm a complete bitch a lot of the times. Then there is that funny, loving amazing side, which he is around his mom and my mom. I loved him it was pretty annoying.
"Babe, sleep" his voice was raspy and his emerald eyes were blood shot.
"You sleep, then you wouldn't notice I'm awake" I smirked.
"Ha" his eyes opened again. His lips pressed to mine and he pulled me closer, I threw my leg over his hip. I don't know why we have a big king size bed if we sleep like a twisted pretzel together.
"What time is it?" I looked over his shoulder it was a little after 2:30 am.
"Night time" his hand pinched my side.
"Smartass" he gave my ass a smack.
"Did you eat?" he nodded. His fingers were drawing circles on my back. I shivered.
He rolled us to where he was on top of me. His lips very close to mine.
"Take tomorrow off" His breath hit my lips sending my body to react to him. His eyes flashed to mine.
"Cant, your slutty sister is having her baby shower" I brought my hand to his neck but his hand caught my wrist and pinned it above me.
"She'll have another baby" his lips assaulted my neck.
"Edward, I can't" it came out more in a moan. He stopped what he was doing and lifted himself up so we were eye to eye.
"Guess I'll ask my other girlfriend" he smirked. I smacked his shoulder with the hand that wasn't pinned.
"Well, make sure she's hot so, I can do her too" I winked. His lips turned into a side smile.
"Three some?" I shake my head at him and his perverted 15 year old boy mind.
"Oh, no mister, just me and her, but if you are good you can watch" I wink, his hand land on my thigh with a loud smack.
His lips brushed against mine, teasing me. "I can watch huh?" He smirks licking his bottom lip. I hate when he does that because then my body betrays me and causes me to flush.
"Yes, because I don't share" I whispered. I don't know why but talking was getting hard as he pressed himself into my hips.
"Good girl, I don't either" his lips crashed to mine.
His hand let go of my wrist and my hands tangled in his hair Deeping the kiss. His hand roamed my body pushing up the t-shirt I was sleeping in.
His thumb rubbed a soft circle right about my panties. They were not lace or sexy, just plain cotton white boy shorts, but they were his favorite, he liked the way my butt looked in them.
"I think I owe you, from last time, miss swan" he smirked looking from my eyes and to where his thumb was teasing me.
"Ah, Mr. Cullen if you wish" I bit my lip so I didn't smile.
"Oh I do" he moved himself lower on my body. Both his thumbs hooked in the band of my shorts pulling them down. His breath was close to my sex.
"Does the idea of a three some make you wet Bella" his fingers sliding inside me. I arched my back.
"Oh why I think it does my little slut" he pumped his fingers in me roughly. He looked up at me and I watched him as his tongue licked over my pussy.
"Fuck" I breathed. He added a third finger stretching me.
" Does the idea of me fucking you while another girl is touching you, playing with your tits, turn you on" it wasn't a question he knew all the shit was turning me on. While I knew it would never happen, it was still something fucking hot to think about.
His tongue mimicked his fingers, in and out. My hand weaved in his hair tugging lightly at his hair. Hearing him ground and mumble about how I taste and smelled so good was exciting me more. He had a way of bring out my inner porn star. My own personal James dean.
"Fuck, Edward" he pulled out his fingers and I whimpered. "No" I whined.
He chuckled and made his way up to my body" suck" he put his fingers to my lips. Oh I'll suck alright. I looked at him and I put each one of his fingers in my mouth and sucked my juice off of them.
"Such a dirty little girl" he smirked.
He wasn't at all slow when he entered me. I lost my breath and he filled me up. "Fuck" he moaned. I wrapped me legs around his waist and my finger nails scraped his scalp.
His lips attacked mine moaning in my mouth as he pounded into me. Nothing sweet about it.
"Feel me, baby" his hands on my hips pushing me down hard onto him. "Shit"
"Give it to me" I breathed. His eyes where a deep green with lust as they looked down at me. I was not going to last much longer as he keep up his hard thrust.
"Yes, Edward" I squeezed around him as I came. A few more thrusts and he was coming.
He laid his head on my chest. Still inside of me. I ran my hands threw his hair and his breathing slowed, I knew the fucker was about to fall asleep on me just like this.
"I'm still not playing hooky" I smiled and drifted off to sleep.
I knocked on the door to rose and Emmett's condo. It was open so I gave it a push. I was going to pick up rose for her baby shower.
"Emmett you drive me fucking crazy" rose yelled she was somewhere in the back. I stood in the kitchen she had some eggs in the pan. The looked gross and runny and her toast was burnt.
"Rosie, please all I said was it tasted great" I heard the plea in his voice like he would say just about anything to get her crazy pregnant ass to calm down
" ya know what this is all your mother fucking fault asshole, sorry if my taste buds are whack and I can't cook, you wanted eggs, eggs make me want to vomit" I could hear them walking to the kitchen.
"I never said you had to cook them baby" his voice is so sweet it makes me want to vomit.
"Bella?" I looked up as rose came waddling into the kitchen. She was in a cute tank top dress. She looked like she may blow babies all over at any minute, but her hair was looking good.
"Sorry, I knocked" Emmett looked tired and he may pull out his hair. I giggled. My dad once told Emmett and jasper that once they got women pregnant they would suck their life force out of them. When my mom found out she made him sleep on the couch.
"I came to pick you up, ready?" Rose kissed Emmett's check and grabbed her bag. Emmett gave her a quick kiss and she told me she would see me at the car, she needed a head start.
"Bells, she's been in a mood and having some pain, just watch out for her please" I smiled at my brother. He was tall and muscular and was more of a teddy bear then a fighter. His hair was short rose must have cut it. Today his face aged a few years worried about rose, or it was the eggs and he might hurl.
"I got this" I gave him a little hug and walked out to help rose into the car.
My mom and Esme where dotting over rose. I made her thirty cupcakes with pink roses on top. They were gushing over all the super cute baby clothes and I wait till she got my gift.
I got her the book, go the fuck to sleep, and a t-shirt that says daddy said I can't date till I'm thirty. Alice got the baby a bunch of clothes.
Rose was older than me and Alice; she was a cheerleader in high school, so she was last of the girls to get pregnant. Her friends got her some crap like nipple cream so when her nipples crack it will help heal.
This whole baby shit made me want to reconsider sex, but then I think of last night and never seeing Edward naked and I am ok with birth control.
"I am positive that if I have to hear about mucus plugs and bleeding nipples any more, I may tell jasper to just put it in my butt" I laughed
"I don't want to hear about my bothers putting it anywhere in you slutty bitches, but I'm here aren't I" Alice flipped me off. My mom saw it and told us to knock it off.
"Can you two be supportive" my mom pushed some hair from my face.
" we are being supportive, but I mean is any of this nessiary to talk about, I am trying to eat" she shook her head at me.
"Bella, it will come in handy when you start giving me grandchildren" she had that glossy look in her eyes like she might cry again.
"ma" she shook her head at me and went back by roses side. I am twenty-four years old, I will have children one day, and Edward is only twenty-seven. We have a few years. Maybe when im not so scared of him getting arrested or shot then we will have babies.
Me and Alice where on clean up duty. Esme's house was big and could probably fit like three big families in it and still have room for more. Alice was loading the dish washer according to her mom's diagram. Esme was a lovely lady like my second mom, but holy fuck if she wasn't anal about cleaning. She hated crumbs and had one of those little dirt devils in every room.
I was picking up tissue paper and cleaning the living room. Rose was laying on the couch with her feet up eating a cup cake.
"Missed one" she smirked as she dropped the wrapper on the ground.
"Fuck you, when that baby comes out I will be so glad" She was so bossy and annoying.
"Oh you love me" I rolled my eyes and picked up the paper.
"Ouch" I looked over as rose sat up.
"What?" rose held her stomach and her face went pale.
"Oh my god" she screamed and I dropped my bag of trash.
"What is it, are you ok?" she shook her head.
"Mom!"
"I don't know what's going on Emmett, the doctor is back there with rose and Esme, just sit down" we sat in the waiting room at the hospital. Rose was having contractions or some shit.
She blamed me on the way here saying I'd be glad when the baby came out like I have magical powers. Fuck if I did I would be playing the ponies not guessing when she was going to push out a mini Emmett.
"Well what happened?"
"She was eating a cup cake and then her stomach hurt; do you want me to write it down?" Emmett sat down.
Emmett was late getting here and the nurse told him to just wait. Which cause him to yell, and when he yells it's loud and scary. The nurse walked down the hall to where rose was and has yet to return.
She wasn't due yet, the baby couldn't come yet.
A few minutes later the nurse came out and told Emmett he could go back. I was ok sitting here; I didn't need to see anything that was going in there.
Rose had eaten too much sugar and it upset the baby. She gave her baby a sugar rush. The doctor told her to also get more rest, her blood pressure and the babies heart rate where a little high.
My car was at esme's so I rode back with her and Emmett took rose home.
Edward's car was in the drive way when we pulled up.
"do you want to stay for dinner?" I smiled at her and said sure. She spent most of her day in a big house lonely since all her children moved out. She owns a design party planning company she runs from her office, but it was September, not many parties where happening. October to march was a busy month for her.
"I'll order Chinese" I told her. She gave me a quick kiss on the cheek and headed down the hall to Carlisle's office.
I was looking for the good Chinese place in forks in binder of take-out menus. Esme had them all alphabetized and had written down favorites. I could feel him behind me before I seen him, like the smell of his old spice body wash and faint smell of cigar and musk. I took a deep breath and his wrapped his arms around my waist.
"What ya doin?" I turned around to face him.
"Ordering food, do you want chicken pot stickers?" he smiled and kissed me
"You take such good care of me" Edward put his head in the crook of my neck giving me small kisses.
"Well someone has too, otherwise you would die of starvation and your other girlfriend would just have to get herself a new boy toy" He chuckled.
"Why would I want another chick, you drive me crazy for the both of us" I pushed him.
"Can I order now, or you just going to smother me" Edward handed me the cordless behind us and dialed the number.
"Both" I rolled my eyes as he held the phone to my ear and pinning me to the counter.
I ordered the usual family dinner and extra pot stickers for Edward. They told me the total and that it be about ten minutes. Which meant thirty.
Edward picked me up and sat me on the counter. His hand on each side of my thighs, his thumbs made light circles on them.
"How's rose?"
"She had an upset stomach; she needs to stop eating so much sugar." I wrapped myself around him. He smiled and kissed my forehead.
"Am I interrupting?" we broke free to see Esme and Carlisle smiling at us. Esme had that aww look on her face she gets when people are in love.
"it said about ten" Esme nodded "Help me set the table?"
Edward helped me down and I went to help his mom.
We sat in the small dinner table in the nook. I made Edwards plate and then mine. His dad was talking about football or some junk. Esme was smiling as she piled on food for him. Carlisle was not bed looking, his hair was getting a little grey but he looked good for his age. I've seen ladies look at him when we are out places.
Dinner was good, I love watching Edward interact with his parents. His hand was on my knee the whole time. I want a big family. I watch him as he's polite to his mom and him and his dad bullshit.
I just don't know if I could handle raising a family, not knowing if my husband would come home or where he was at.