A/N: Hope you like the outfit!
Part 2: Reassurances That Don't Exist
Song choice for part 2: Me, Myself and I by Beyoncé; listen at your leisure
Scene: Sami is driving and thinking of how she can get out of the big family dinner at the Pub this evening.
Maybe I can tell Rafe I'm not feeling well and that he can go on without me. Yeah, no I can't do that Grandma wanted me there. Damn! What can I do? I know I can hide most of my feelings but not when it's about him…EJ. How did we even get onto that subject? I mean I know how but why?
Oh EJ… what am I supposed to do, I want and need my families love and Rafe is the one for me. I wouldn't have married him not…right? Sami stop questioning your marriage and stop thinking of EJ! But I can't stop I never could stop. I know I just need to be near Rafe and then I will be ok. These thoughts will go away and I won't be doubting my marriage. I think he should be at his office right now. I hope Carrie isn't there so we can talk and I get work through this with my husband.
Rafe has protected me from the moment we met… yeah I know that was his job but he wanted to even when I wasn't in witness protection. He calms me and keeps me grounded, which is the total opposite to EJ. Damn! I said stop thinking of him! I just cannot escape the comparisons, I make them every day. Could it be because fighting the feelings I have for him and us, will never disappear? I see him every day even when he isn't there. I see him in our kids and I see him in there mannerisms and when they call me mummy instead of their usual mommy.
I can't escape EJ DiMera, even if I wanted to… I couldn't.
She pulls up to the SPD and sees his car, but she also spots Carries.
"Damn, well she will just have to leave when I get in there. Rafe and I need some privacy to talk. I have to get through my head that he is the one for me." She tells herself as she parks and gets out of her care. She walks into the building and says hello to a few of the officers and gets some odd looks from a few and wonders why. They've seen her here enough to know who she is. Her father is the commissioner after all. She rounds the corner and is only a few feet away from his office when she sees what makes her world…. Wrong.
No! It can't be…he would never, never…do this to me. Not with her not with Carrie, not like the others… not like Austin not like Lucas.
"EJ would never do this to me." The stray thought catching wind on her lips in a hushed tone.
She sees Rafe walk out if his office and turn almost near her direction when Carrie reached for his hand and bites her lip while he reaches for her waste. They kiss passionately, with more than he ever kissed me, Sami thinks to herself.
A cold resolve comes over her as she turns to leave she also turns the page in her life to soon leave behind… what was to be her ever after.
"I guess I will be going to the family dinner after all. I think it is time the sainted Brady clan know of their own sainted Carrie." She says to herself as she walks with a deadly calm. She get to her car and leaves.
"Carrie? How original Rafe. I knew you liked vanilla but I didn't know you liked that in the form of a woman. They all want her, all but….EJ. I don't know what I can do about us but I will try and fix this with us. I swear, I will." She says to herself and him. Then she texts Rafe to tell him she will meet him there later.
"Now! Time to make myself look the best I have ever looked…the way I looked when see myself with EJ." She tells herself as she turn into the salon. She walks in and spot the owner.
"Sami! Hey I haven't seen you in a while it seems. What's it to be today?" Julie the flamboyant head stylist and owner of the shop asks me.
"The works I have a family dinner tonight and I just got some life altering news. I have a feeling that some of my family knows it already so I want to look my best when I tell them what I think of said news. Do me up gurl!" Sami tells her with a wicked smile.
"You ain't got to tell me twice honey! Take a seat and let momma get you jazzy!"
"It's about damn time!"
"Honey hush when I'm through with you, gurl….. They won't know what hit 'em!" she says then snaps her finger in a circle.
"No, they won't!"
"Fierce!" Julie exclaims.
Scene: EJ is at the mansion and hears the door slam shut and sees the mistake of his life walk in…. with her sister.
"EJ we need to talk." Nikki says.
"Yes I think that is what's best." Taylor says backing her up.
"I would say you both are right." EJ says as he folds the paper he was reading and get up to close the doors to the study.
"Taylor has just informed me that you two are in love and that we are over. Can you explain to her that she is crazy, please?!" Nicole yells at EJ.
"I am not crazy Nicole. We didn't want to hurt anyone it just happened and we didn't want to hurt you, that why I told her EJ. I cannot live like a mistress anymore." Taylor tell EJ looking the part of the angel. When really she is a wolf in sheep's clothing.
"I can end this conversation right now. Yes Nicole we have been having an affair," he says looking at them both seeing Nicole go still and Taylor beam at him, "and I do want a divorce and am willing to compensate you generously for your compliance. You know I don't love you and if you really think about it you don't love me either. As I said I was having an affair with Taylor, but I have decided against perusing anything further." He finishes looking at Taylor's deflated ego. "I had a walk and a talk this afternoon that really made me think about how I have settled for too long and I deserve to be with the woman I love, and that is not either of you." EJ says as he goes to the wet bar thinking on having a scotch but deciding on a mineral water instead.
"I thought you loved me EJ!" Taylor cries aloud.
"Ha! That man doesn't love anyone but his Samantha and their brood! I'm outta here EJ and I except the terms of the settlement. Taylor if I were you I would come with me." Nicole says over her shoulder.
"But… I thought…I was going to be the wife this time and not the mistress again!" Taylor says to herself seeming to be in a meltdown.
"Well you thought wrong, darling. Now if you don't mind…" EJ says and then signals with his right hand for her to leave.
"No! I know you want me-
She almost gets out when Marco comes up behind her and takes her kicking and screaming out of the DiMera mansion for the last time.
"Now I could use a drink." He says to himself while pouring a scotch neat. He thinks of the love of his life and shoots the liquid fire back.
"Oh Samantha… what am I going to do with you." He says aloud with a chuckle.
Scene: The infamous-oops I mean famous Brady Pub, is where the family itself has all congregated for a night they surely will never forget. Caroline is talking with Marlena, John and Roman. While Bo, Hope and Kayla are conversing away and Austin helping in the kitchen Carrie and Rafe are off in a corner talking in hush tones. Sami is outside pulling into a spot in the parking lot. She checks her makeup sighting its magnificence and that of Julies superior talent for hair and Rosalie and Thao's for makeup.
"Heads will roll tonight." She says aloud to herself while walking to the pub door, but before she enters she takes her cell out of her satin black clutch and texts…him..
Hey, you up?
Yeah
Can we meet in a hour, I have to take care of some business and then I want to talk.
About…
Us.
She waits about a minute and feel her phone vibrate.
Fine. I'll be at the mansion.
No here at the Pub, just come in and I will be ready.
Alright.
K see you then.
She stands outside the Brady Pub, takes a deep breath and sykes herself up and opens the door that will lead to her delusions death. As soon as she steps in through the door the air and energy of the room changes. She stomps into the room.
"Samantha is that you?" her grandma asks her. She smiles at her genuinely and walks over to give her a kiss and a hug.
"Of course it's me, who else?" she says as she arches her back slightly and pulls her shoulders back.
"It's just…" Marlena starts.
Is it the black leather pencil skirt hugging her hips and waist almost illegally too tight.
Is it the 7 inch black leather multi strap platform red bottom Louboutin's and blood red polish on both her toes and finger nails?
Is it the platinum and black diamond chandelier earrings she has dangling from her ears or is it the black rhodium diamond incrusted bangles she is wearing?
Is it the damn near paper thin long sleeve black silk shirt with her cleavage almost busting the seams through the deep v cut?
Or could it be the dark smoky eye and infinite black lashes with her nude lip.
Or would it have anything to do with her long, big blond hair full of curls cascading down her back and over her shoulders?
"Sami! My god you look…"Austin sputters which gets Carrie and then Rafe's attention.
"If that's the makings of a compliment thank you Austin." Sami tells him with a wicked grin.
"Sami you look… different." Carrie says with a fake smile.
"Babe you look great!" Rafe tells her as he comes to kiss her and before he can get the chance she turns her head and gives him cheek instead.
"Thank you Rafe and Carrie yes I thought it was time for a change and I have always been a fan of black. No pun John." She tells him with a grin.
"None taken Sami, I must say I like this new look of yours." He tells her.
"Thank you John, all I can say is it was time, just time!" she says with a chuckle.
"Time to eat… Sami what the hell! You look great!" Bo tells her.
"Thank you Uncle Bo. Ooh that sounds good, for some reason I feel as though I could eat something alive! Oops that sounds harsh." Sami says then walks dramatically to sit. Her mother and John sit on opposite sides of her before Rafe can get the chance and Carrie sits next to Austin playing up the charade. And all other sit where they can.
The dinner is going smoothly with small talk.
"So kid what is this new look really about?" John asks her with his infamous raised brow.
"Oh John, wait and see." Sami tells him coyly.
"I would like to know as well Samantha." Marlena asks her.
"Oh mother, don't you know, patience is a virtue, (shout out to Lou!)" she tells her innocently.
They all are conversing and Sami now feels the time is right.
"If I can have everyone's attention, please?" Sami says as she stands in front of the Brady's.
"What is it peanut?" Her father asks her assuming the worst if her as always.
"I have made a decision, one I believe that will make me the happiest I have ever been." Sami says cryptically.
"Sami this isn't about you getting a job is it? I thought we decided you should stay home." Rafe says ignorantly.
"No Rafe you decided that for us, but no it is not that." she rolls her eyes.
"Well what is it Samantha, your worrying us." Marlena buts in.
"Oh hush everyone and let her speak! Samantha tell us sweetheart." Her grandma Caroline sets her up.
Sami smiles and turns to look directly at Rafe, "I came to see you today because I needed you, I needed you to comfort me and tell me everything was going to be okay and that we were real and that you loved me. What I got instead was the knowledge that my husband is cheating on me with my beloved big sister Carrie." Sami finished and the room exploded with silence. "I knew then that we could never have been real, never could have been truly in love. I picked you over a man that has loved me for me and nothing else, but everything in between. I chose you because I thought you were better and would never hurt me, like the ones before. I chose you and with you I got my most coveted possession, well what was my most coveted possession. My family's love, and now I know that I never really had that either. I knew from the moment I felt like everyone at the SPD knew about this which meant I knew you knew Dad and I know you told Bo ad I know Bo told Hope and I know someone told mom, the good doctor." She says.
"He said it was over and I believed him peanut I am sorry." Her father tells her.
"Yes I knew Sami but he said he would end it." Bo tells her while Hope nods as well.
"Yes Carrie told me, I'm sorry baby girl." Marlena apologizes.
"Doc, you knew and didn't warn her?!" John bellows.
"Its ok John, she did what she does best, she chose her chosen daughter over her true daughter, as usual." She says to her mother then looks out the window and like always her prince charming is right on time.
"To you Carrie I simply have no words, but to you Rafe, we are over, done. You are nothing, and no one to me. I want a divorce, and do me a favor, if you ever cared don't contest It." she finishes as the bell above the door rings signaling a new customer. They all turn to look and see EJ in an all-black suit and his patented Italian leather loafers. He stands there and says.
"My, my, my a family dinner I see, what no invite for your favorite ex in-law? Shame really. Darling you wanted me, here I am and can I say you look utterly eatable." EJ tells Sami with a lustful look that should have made her faint but she was too determined for all that.
"Yes, I wanted you EJ." She tells him as she walks over to him slowly and raps her arms around his neck then kissing him with all the passion and love she could muster, and it was a lot. They part and take a deep breath.
"Mmm, I think I can tell…now." he tells her with a smirk.
"Lets get out of here…" She lets the request trail and takes his hand in hers.
"Never has there been a better idea, darling." He says as they walk out and get into his prized black Maserati. Before he push starts the powerful sports car, he turns to her and stares.
"What?" she asks as she squirms under his stare.
"Are you going to tell me what that was all about?"
_~_ Next time the conclusion, part 3