BPOV

As I walked into lunch I was so pissed that Alice had invited Edward to sit with us. It's always been just the 6 of us, but since Em wasn't here, it became just the 5 of us. It was nice. I didn't want to deal with anyone else's bullshit. Edward walked in and Alice tried to wave him over, but thankfully he sat with the bitch Tanya and her undercover sluts. None of them liked me because I just don't give a fuck how I act. I do what I want no matter what others think. There have been many times they've walked in on me and Jake going at it in the bathroom, they always acting like I should be ashamed about what I was doing. The only difference between them and me is that I do it when I want to and where I want to, not just in the back seat of the car like them.

I knew the whole table he was with was going on about me being a slut and I thought it is funny. I called Em to bitch about Alice inviting his dick of a friend to sit with us. He told me how Edward said I was a bitch and he told him to beware because I wasn't easy and could play the game just as well as him. I guess he is a player that got any girl he went after. I couldn't believe it. I knew after that Edward would try just like all the rest to get with me. This is going to be fun. He can try all he wants, but it won't get him anywhere.

Jacob pulled me from my thoughts when he leaned over, bite my ear and said, "Want to go to the Bio room to have some fun before we got class?" Rubbing my hands up his arm, I leaned over him to tell Alice.

"Hey we'll see you in bio. Try not to walk in early unless you want an eye full," I laughed.

"Bella, Bella, Bella what are we going to do about you?" She laughed out load, Jasper just nodded, and Rose said, "Don't do anything I wouldn't do!"

"You know Rose that's a very short list. From what I heard, you'll try anything once." She knew I was joking so she added, "Twice if I like it," with a wink. We all laughed about the conversation. We've all talked about this far too much.

"Hey Alice got to show the new guy there's fact behind the rumors we both know he's getting an ear full there." I told her leaning my head towards Edward. Then Jake and I headed out to the bio room. It was the place we used the most since it was our next class.

The lights were still off once in the Bio room. Glancing up at the clock, I noticed that we only had about 15 minutes before the bell rings, and Jake was just standing by the door. Walking backwards to the tables, I started to unzip my hoodie then slid it off, dropping it to the floor, and then I hopped on my table. Jacob walked over to me, placed his hands on the table on each side of me, leaning in until his lips were barely touching mine. Knowing we were wasting what little time we had, I wrapped my arms and legs around him rolling my hips on his dick. I could feel him go hard and smirked a little, knowing that I got him hard. Just then a low moan came from his mouth before his arm wrapped around me and pulled me into a kiss that was so full of lust. He brought his other hand up my hips, across my stomach, then to my breast, brushing his thumb over my hard nipple making me arch into him.

Knowing we didn't have much time, I ran my hand down his arm then over to his jean button, undoing them pushing them down just a little to release him. He got the hint that I wasn't in the mood for foreplay. He laid me down on the table, undoing my jeans and pulling them down to my knees. Lifting my legs to his chest he entered me slowly at first then in hard long thrusts. Just as I started to feel my whole body tingle, I heard his low growl coming from his lips, knowing we were both about to get off. I heard the door open, I tried to crane my neck to see who it was, but couldn't. Then I heard that velvet voice.

"Well I guess the rumors are true." That's all it took for me to push Jake off. He looked pissed when I did that. We never stop when people walk in when we're so close. He stepped back to pull his pants up and I hopped off of the table to do the same. Once I had my pants up, I pushed pass Jake grabbed, my hoodie putting it back on, glaring at Edward.

I said, "Well if you heard we were in here why are you?" God I really can't stand this jackass!

"Well I just wanted to see what kind of girl I was up against. Plus this is my next class anyway," my eyes went wide.

"Well you might as well stick with the undercover sluts, you'll get more from them because you won't be getting it me" was all I said as I pushed passed him. I felt Jacob's arm around me and we walked out of the room, heading toward Jake's care.

Once we got to Jacob's car, I lit a cigarette, jumped in the passenger seat then it hit me I would have to sit with him for the next hour. Alice, Jake, and I are all in that class, but the only empty seat is next to me since Mr. Banner never puts anyone with me. Alice and I talk too much and he thinks Jake and I will fuck in the middle of class, so that leaves the rest of the class that I just can't work with. Most of the guys just stare and the girls just don't like me. Jacob then pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Bells what the hell was that all about?" I don't want to deal with this crap so I just say,

"Well from what Em has said he is a player. Gets what he want and Em warned him he couldn't get me so now I'm the prey, so to speak." I could tell Jacob didn't like that even if he says it's just a 'no strings' sex relationship and that we only have a friendship. He still gets jealous when I'm with someone else so I added, "but trust me he won't get me. I think he's a jackass. Who needs a little boy like him when I got a big strong man like you?" that brought a smile to his face so I knew it was over. I knew it was a bit of a lie cause I get bored at times and had other people, but oh well.

Putting out my cigarette, we headed back to class, knowing we were going to be late. I saw Edward sitting at the table ignoring what Mr. Banner was saying. I sat at my table and put my feet on the desk. Just then Edward leaned over to say "You know I always get what I want. Might as well make it easy. Give up now and then we both can have some real fun." I can't believe this guy!

"Well I hate to tell you, but I'm already having fun and I'm sure you've already heard I'm a tease. I guess you can try all you want, but you're going to fail" I said to him. He chuckled a little. God he must have a set of brass balls on him.

Now I really can't wait for the weekend. I can tell it's going to be a long week. We're all planning on partying in La Push at First Beach with all of Jacob's friends. I know I'm going to need to drink to forget about it all. Being up there always helps. We have a bonfire, drinks everywhere, and I'm sure some weed, if I'm lucky, that is. I had my head down thinking about the fun when I felt a cool hand touch my lower back. I jerked away. It felt like something shocked me, looking around I saw it was Edward touching me. With that dazzling smile on his face, he leaned over again so his lips was only centimeters from my ear and said, "That's a nice tattoo." He was tracing the stars and bubbles I had there. I slapped his hand off my back, scowling him.

"You know what, keep you're hands off me and yes it is nice. I might as well have a tramp stamp since that's what the girls call me," just as I said it the bell rang. I got out of my seat and walked up to Alice and Jacob to head to gym.

Great I can't wait.

I actually like gym unlike the rest of the girls. I like playing sports with the guys. I guess growing up and hanging out with three guys and a dad that are all into them, I learned to love them too. Plus it's the only class the five of us are in, it makes for a great laugh after a long day here. Jasper and Jake are good at just about everything, Alice and Rose are too girly to want to play anything but football, which is odd since Rose loves to get greasy while working on cars, but not sweaty playing sports.

After we all changed we walked out and I noticed Edward had this class too.

Great now I have to deal with him in three classes.

After watching the undercover slut try to get to sit out, we all warmed up, then headed to the track to run laps. Thank god it's always warm here. We get to spend the last hour outside most days.

Alice all of a sudden said, "So what's up with you and the new guy?"

"What are you talking about? I can't even stand him!" I told her then Rose piped in.

"So did he walk in on you and Jacob because I saw you guys in his car and that never happens."

"Oh shut up. He walked in on us, thinking that he's going get me in his bed, and it won't happen. Oh yeah, can I get a ride home since Em drove me here?"

Alice said yeah then the bell rang to signal the final end of this day. Thankfully the rest of Monday went by without any problems.

I wake up to another bright sunny day and hoped in the shower. I think I'm going play with Edward today. A little game of 'look, but don't touch.' I get out and throw my towel around me. Making my way to my closet, I pulled a denim mini skirt and black tank top that has a deep v neck and tight fitting, and shows off my belly just a little, as well as the baby blue stars and bubbles along my lower back. Sliding them on, I choose just a simple flip-flop that way it doesn't look like I'm trying. I brush my hair, put a little gel in, and scrunch it so that it's curly. I brush my teeth, do my normal make-up: eyeliner, mascara, and lip-gloss.

Heading down the stairs, I notice Charlie sitting in the kitchen. He's normally gone before I get up.

"Hey dad what's up?" Not that I really care, but whatever. I plopped down in my chair lighting a cigarette, Charlie frowning at me. I know he hates that I smoke, but oh well. "Well Bella I got a call from Renee yesterday at work." Wonderful. I know where this is going.

"She still thinks that you should go stay with her." After a minute, I stand up look him right in the eyes.

"I will not go live with her. My life is here and its not like she'll stop my money if I don't go." I love my mom, don't get me wrong, but when she left four years ago to be with a 24 year old baseball player I choose not to go, all she wants me for is so they can look like the picture prefect family. I will not be a part of that. Hell, she bought me my car and I get 3,000 a month from her, plus three credit cards. I can have anything I want, and she thinks that will make me want to live with her, but we all know that's not going to happen. Charlie pulled me from my thoughts.

"Bella, honey, I know she won't stop your money but I think you should think about it." I can't believe he just said that to me!

"No Charlie, I will not go. Hell, I don't even want to hear about it again so next time she calls tell her I'm very happy where I am and I will not be going." After saying that, I walk out the door to my 2009 Honda s2000 CR. I didn't feel like going to school just yet so I just drove around a while.

Thinking why does she always have to start this moving shit when things are going good, I mean I'm a junior in high school I have a 4.0. Yeah I drink a lot, do drugs and party, but I want out of this town so I stay straight at school. I may have sex, but I make sure to use protection. I don't what to have a baby before college. I have great friends. It's not like I'm out getting arrested, I mean even if Charlie is the chief of police, he would still arrest me if what I did was major. I think Renee and Phil should just have their own kid so then they have the picture perfect family and leave me out of it.

I didn't even realize I was stopped until I looked around, hell I didn't even realize I was headed any where until I heard:

"Well are you just gonna sit there all day or bring your ass in?" It was Em. He knew why I was there and it had nothing to do with him. I jumped out of the car, stalked up to the door right passed him up the stairs. I was headed to see James, Emmett's cousin, who is 20. I went to him whenever shit got tough since it was never any questions asked. If Jake could be like that I would be pulling his ass from school right now, but he always knows when something is wrong and wants to talk about it to make me feel better, not just fuck me and be done with it. At the top of the stairs once again I heard Em

"He's not here, he won't be back for a few days." That stopped me dead in my tracks.

"Well where is he then? I need him." I knew I didn't have to explain anything to Emmett. He knew what was going on anytime I headed right to James's room without so much as a hello to him. He doesn't like this little game that James and I play, but will never say anything about it.

"He just isn't here. Told me to tell you that you can call him." Well god dammit. I'm not going to get anywhere here.

I stomped back down the stairs right back out the door "What? I don't get a hello or a hug, anything?" Em said acting like he was hurt by it but I know what he's trying to do. The three of us have been playing this song and dance for a year now. "Sorry Em," was all I said as I walked back over to him into a bone-crushing hug. After he put me down he said,

"You wanna talk about it?" He knew I didn't, I never do. When I didn't say anything he went on "I know its about your mom so I won't push," he said seriously then he got the big goofy smile on his face and said "but guess what? Edward is trying to get some dirt so he can break you down."

That's when I got a great idea. I knew Em would be all for "Hey Em want to make some fast cash on a bet?" I knew I had him. He was always up for bets.

"Hell yeah Bells, you know I'm always up for a good bet."

"Ok, is Edward a betting man too?" the grin on his face got even bigger so I knew my answer and went on, "Ok then. Bet how ever much he can't break me down?"

"Well Bells I don't know about that one I might lose my money he's a slick mother. If he wants it, he'll get it. No offence but I think I'll lose that one," he told me.

"Fine but I know he won't." I said as I turned around and went to my car and sped off.

I drove around a little more sipping my buddy Jack Daniels straight from the bottle. After I had a good buzz I pulled into school. I walk in to see Edward sitting with everyone. What the fuck? Jake is even talking to him. Ok this should be good. I walk over to them sit down and all eyes were on me like I had two heads.

"What the fuck is up?" I blurted out. Jake was the first to say something. "You know Charlie isn't gonna like you missing half of the second day of school. Where the hell have you been?" Fuck. I couldn't tell him where I went. He would know something was up. So I just shrugged. "So Alice what'd I miss today?" I said turning to her.

She scrunched her nose as she smelt my breath. "Um why the heck have you been drinking?" she said with that damn worried look she always gives me.

"Damn. Why is everyone one on my ass today? First Charlie, then Em, now you guys?" Right after I said it I knew I was fucked. I looked around and everyone's eyes were wide staring at me. The only one to talk was Rose.

"You went to see James this morning, didn't you?" She was mad. God can this get any worst? Jake looked confused, Edward looked amused, Alice looked more worried and Jasper was the only one that looked calm.

"Rose If you must know, yes I did. He wasn't there so no big deal, but I guess you already know that. Now lay off." I looked at Jake again. I could tell it was all starting to click in place in his head. He knew why I would go see James. He stood up grabbed me by the arm trying to drag me from my chair but I'm not having that shit today. I pulled my arm away.

Thankfully the bell rang right then, so I don't have to deal with him. I went to class, put up with sexual comments from Edward, which I blew off. Dealt with the same bull shit from my friends in gym, and then tried to head home. But when I walked out to my car, Edward was leaning on it.

"Get off my car bitch." I knew it was harsh, but I'm tried of all the bullshit from today. He didn't get off so I walked right in front of his face. "I swear to God if you don't get your ass off my car I'll break that pretty nose of yours." I had my fist balled up ready to do it when I notice Tanya standing by the bumper of my car.

What the hell does she want? Before I could ask, she was pushing me out of her way and kissed Edward against my car. That's all it took to set me off. She knew it would too. She turned around with a smug smile on her face. Hell she didn't even see me swinging until my fist made contact with her eye.

She stumbled back into Edward, his eyes wide. "Now listen here Tanya, you think your tough shit and would get away with making out against my car, you got another thing coming. You know I'm not the one to fuck with." I seethed at her. As I went to swing around, someone caught my arm. I turned around to see Mrs. Victoria holding my arm.

Right then I knew I was out of school for the week. "Yeah, yeah, I know three days. I'll see you Monday." She didn't look happy but nodded after telling me there better not be a next time. With that I pushed Tanya out my way then Edward jumped in his car and headed home. Jake was there by the time I pulled in, waiting on the steps. I swear I could see steam coming out of his ears, he was so mad.

After telling him about Renee and James he wasn't as upset, just hurt that I didn't come to him. But oh well, he knew me well enough that I needed some distance for myself. Then I told him about what I did to Tanya, which got a laugh out of him. So I knew all was forgiven.

Jake POV

I sat here waiting for Bella to get home, hoping she would come straight here, not anywhere else. With that girl you never know. She is so hot and cold all the time. I know she thinks I'm okay with the 'no strings attached' relationship we have, but I'm not. She's my best friend. She knows everything about me, all my faults and she still loves me, just not in the way I want. Even knowing that I can't stop this I know its never going to turn out the way I want, but I guess no one really gets what they want with Bells. She puts this wall around herself, but she wasn't always this way. There's things about her people just don't know and will never know. There are only three of us that do and that's her, James and myself. Every time she runs to James that night replays in my head and all the rage comes back.

Flashback 3 years earlier

"James, Where's Bella?" I had been looking for Bella for awhile and couldn't find her. She was nowhere. He shook his head no. "Hey then do you know how much she's had to drink?" I mean I knew we were all pretty gone but I didn't know when she started

"I'm not sure. I know she started right after school so I know more then the rest of us." Fuck. I should have known the first year her mom left things were ok, but in the last six months things have not been good. She'd been drinking all day every day for the last four days, sleeping long enough to sober up a little, eat and go right back to drinking. She's even doing it at school. I think she's been blacking out too since she didn't remember shit she had done the night before.

"Alright if you see her tell her I'm looking for her, ok man?" He sat as I kept walking. "Yeah ok."

I know he doesn't think anything's wrong, so I just kept walking up the stairs. I found Alice and she told me she saw her head to the bathroom. The doors are closed so she must be right. I was getting ready to knock when I heard grunting behind the door, some thing is not right. Bella is a virgin I know she wouldn't just give it up to anyone. I barge in the room to find Bella pass out on the floor naked from the waist down and Alec on top of her with his pants around his ankles.

"Get the fuck off of her. What the hell is your problem-" was all I got out before he cut me off.

"Dude she wanted it." When he said that I grabbed him around the neck and slammed him into the wall. He was trying to plead with me as my first blow hit him in the mouth. All I could see was red. How could someone treat Bella like that? She's sweet, selfless, caring and innocent. All I could see was him on top of her. I don't know how long I stood there beating the fuck out of him until I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders pulling me back, Alec slide down the wall then pulled his pants up and tried to run out of there, but it was more like limping out. Good, motherfucker.

I turned around to see James standing there. "What the hell did you do to my boy?" he looked at me like I had six eyes and two heads and I couldn't believe he was defending him. I pushed past him to get Bella while pulling her pants back on. I could see the hand marks starting to form on her legs. That's when James realized what happened. He went off after Alec beat the living day lights out of him while I got Bells out of there and into her bed.

Taking care of her for almost a week because she was so hurt. Bruises all over her body and she could barely walk. She made me swear to not tell Charlie since she couldn't remember what happened and she knew he would send her to live with Renee.

Flashback ends.

That's the night that she changed. She's never been the same since. Last summer she started going to James when things got bad, but for all the wrong reasons. She didn't want to talk just wanted to forget, and she thinks the only way to do that is with sex. She knows he won't ask any questions. He gives her what she wants. I know something was said about Renee this morning that's the only reason she would go to him and not find me. It hurts every time she does and she knows it does. Maybe if I just give in and not ask what's wrong she would stop going there, or maybe she does it so she can keep me an arms length away. I don't know.

All I really know is that I'm completely in love with her. That I'll take whatever she is willing to give me. Right then I noticed Bella pull in "Hey Jake I know you're mad but Renee is starting with the moving bullshit again and I just needed to feel better and James wasn't home so nothing happened anyway. Are we good?" I wanted to say no we're not, I love you, but instead:

"Yeah we're ok." I couldn't say great cause I didn't feel great.

"Oh yeah guess what happened as I left school?" I nodded for her to keep going. "Tanya decided she was bad ass, made out against my car, and I punched her. Now I'm out 'til Monday." After she told me, I had to laugh. That sounded like Tanya to me. She can't stand Bella, not that I really know why and would do anything to make her mad.

"So why don't you skip Friday? We'll spend all day at your house and just chill out on the beach until the party?" She looked at me with those big brown eyes and I knew I couldn't tell her no.

"Yeah Bells that sounds great. I'll come get you Thursday night and you can stay over, then we can spend the day together Friday." She nodded, gave me a big hug and a kiss. "Love you Jake. See you Thursday." She turned and walked into the house.

I know I should tell her--no I should have told her-- I loved her. I don't know! I should have just done something so she would understand, but I know I would lose her if I told her I wanted a relationship and loved her even if I think she feels the same for me, just doesn't know it. I can only hope that she figures it out soon so we can both be happy.