Title: Acceptance.
Author:
Characters/Pairings: Naomi/Emily.
Rating: K.
Category: Romance.
Spoilers: None.
Disclaimer: I do not own Skins, or the characters. I can only wish. The song is So Contagious by Acceptance and I don't own that song or band either.
Summary: Naomi is confused and lies down to think about Emily and Emily does the same.
A/N: I loved writing this, the songs fitted them and their situation so well and I was inspired to write and make something with it and this is what came out with it, it made me smile a lot and it made the songs play counts a lot higher.
I was
young but I wasn't naive
I lay on my bed thinking
about her just like I did everyday. Katie had an obsession with
saying that I was an idiot, that I was sick and making everything up
just because I was jealous of her because I so obviously am. I like
being gay, it's the way I am and now I like it.
I
watched helpless as he turned around to leave
Me
and Naomi have had a lot of time to ourselves and we've had some
really amazing times and some good fun but in the end she always gave
up on me and always had to leave, it was either her that left or it
was me but it was mostly her who walked away.
And
still I have the pain I have to carry
And I have
to face that everyday, the amount of pain that she puts me through is
immense, and yet, I still don't give, I'll probably never learn,
I'm not clever like that, well either that or I'm just too in
love and it's most probably the latter of the two.
A past
so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
We've
known each other for a while and even though she walks away now, our
past had something there and she wasn't going to walk away from
that. When I first kissed her at high school a few years ago, she
enjoyed it, she loved it and she gladly responded and she didn't
walk away until Katie punched her and then I lost her.
After
all this time, I never thought we'd be here, never thought we'd be
here
But then I met her again and I never thought
that we'd be like this, never thought that we'd be friends, I
never thought that we'd be stealing kisses in hidden moments and
spending time in each other's beds on certain days when it had all
been planned out, I never thought of the secret meetings that we
would one day have.
When my love for you was blind, but I couldn't make you see it, couldn't make you see it
I always knew that she was the one that I loved and I tried to make her see that she at least felt the smallest of things for me, it never worked even though I knew that she did feel something but I just never knew how strong she felt, but I knew that something was definitely there.
That
I loved you more than you'll ever know, a part of me died when I let
you go
Naomi doesn't quite realise how much I
love her, how much she means to me and I wish that she would because
it's killing me.
I
would fall asleep only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be
like is was before
I dream about us, I dream
about how life would be if Katie had never walked in on us at high
school and what life would be like if we carried on something from
there, not that it would've happened or anything I don't think
but I do like to think. It's a nice little thought.
But
nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting they disappear as
reality is crashing to the floor
But then I wake
up every morning or after any sleep that I have and I remember that
it's nothing like what's going on in reality, in my dreams
everything is perfect and in reality, she kisses me, she sleeps with
me and then she leaves me.,
After
all this time, I never thought we'd be here, never thought we'd be
here
But at least we're still doing something,
we're still getting somewhere even if it's taking forever.
When my love for you was blind, but I couldn't make you see it, couldn't make you see it
And even though it is taking forever, I still know that I'm slowly making an improvement, she's slowly warming up to the idea of us, of me and her together and I can tell because things are getting more frequent and desperate.
That
I loved you more than you'll ever know, a part of me died when I let
you go
And even if things were different and I
was just a toy, just another experiment to her then I would still
always love her and I don't think anything or anyone would be able
to replace her or the love that I held so high for her.
After
all this time, would you ever wanna leave it, maybe you could not
believe it that my love for you was blind, but I couldn't make you
see it, couldn't make you see it that I loved you more than you will
ever know, a part of me died when I let you go
But maybe it is time that I start to try giving up on her, because it just hurts and even though I try to persuade myself that I'm so strong, I'm breaking at the same time. It's killing me. From this moment on, I'm giving up on Naomi Campbell. The girl of my dreams.
And I loved you more than you'll ever know; a part of me dies when I let you go
I sighed heavily and agreed to myself that I would try and give up and that's when I heard the doorbell sound, I went downstairs and I could see her through the glass, my blonde angel. Great, just when I was trying to give up, she decides to come back for some more.