Hi guys, thanks for the reviews, it means a lot that already there is interest in it, the more interest in it the more chapters I will add. Again all rights reserved to the talented Suzanne Collins
Chapter 2:
It's been 3 weeks since our massive fight and yet I still feel as if there is this awkward feeling between me and Peeta, as if there is something that we are not addressing. We have those quiet moments but even in those quiet moments, there is so much to be said. Over the past three weeks Peeta has become extra attentive, I don't mind though, from cooking dinner, to bubble baths, to breakfast in bed and I'm definitely not complaining from the extra sex in the bedroom, and the kitchen and the lounge room and even the bakery after work, in fact Peeta has never been so attentive lately, again I don't mind but it's still got me curious. It's not until one night after a really good dinner that our night turns awkward, myself and Peeta are cleaning up after dinner, me clearing the table and he doing the dishes, we are both laughing and talking it feels nice just to relax with him.
"you know who I haven't seen in a while that I thought would be nice to invite over sometime? Delly, in fact we can invite over Rory too, share our stories about when we were getting married and our plans, I'm sure she would like a helping hand it's been a month since I saw her?"
Peeta has gone all quiet and is just staring down at the dishes, he's dazed off into the distance, it takes a few minutes to register before he answers.
"yeah um I think she's busy you know and I know Rory has been too with his new job so I think maybe we should just leave them be".
He starts to put dishes away but is starting to slam them as he puts them away, his demeanour changing to quiet and he's way too focused on washing dishes.
"well, I'm sure she would have time, it has been ages and I could lend her some of our stuff that we still have from our wedding, like maybe table cloths and"
I don't even get to finish my sentence before Peeta is already cutting me off, this doesn't seem like him "you know Kat, it's getting real busy at the bakery and you know sometimes after a long day I just want to come home and be with you, I really don't have the energy to be entertaining people"
He's starting to rush his words and his body is becoming tense, his jaw is tight as he throws the towel over his shoulder, I go over to him to try and ease him and stand behind him and rub his arms, his back on my chest.
"Peeta why are you working yourself up so much? It's just dinner, last week you pulled 6 days straight at the bakery from 5 in the morning till 6 at night and yet you still came home last week and had dinner with me, Haymitch and Greasy Sae?" I ask, a hint of questioning in my voice
"DAMMIT KATNISS I SAID NO!" Peeta turns around dropping a plate a smashing it on the floor, he sees me flinch back I think he is going into an episode but I still see his beautiful blue eyes looking down, his face red and flustered, he knows this is not himself as he looks at the shattered plate on the floor.
"Im…I'm sorry Katniss I didn't mean that, I'm sorry, I've just been so stressed lately, the bakery is getting busier and I really want to just focus on you and me ok, you know I wouldn't hurt you, never" his arms circle me as I feel his head go in the crook of my neck, inhaling my hair and then exhaling . "you know how much I love you, I love you so much it hurts"
I don't know how to feel at this point, Peeta has never lost his temper like that unless he's having an episode, Peeta is known for his calm and collective behaviour, it's me who is known as the one with the hot temper, the quick change in mood, not my Peeta, not my sweet Peeta. I don't know how to act right now so I just stand there holding him, I think Peeta can still feel the apprehension in me as he looks into my eyes "I love you Katniss Mellark, you need to believe that, you're the one thing in my life that has saved me" It's then when I look into his eyes that all feelings of apprehension and doubt melts away and I'm reminded of why I love Peeta, my sweet Peeta.
"It's ok Peeta, let's just go to bed ok and you can show me how much you really love me' I smirk at him with a wink as his smile returns. "You go up stairs and I will follow very very soon" he replies kissing my collarbone, his soft kisses making me weak at the knees, it's this side of him that I'm glad I'm the only person who gets to see it, everyone gets to see the calm, sweet Peeta but it's me who gets to see the animal he becomes when we're in the bedroom, normally I'm the aggressive person in the relationship but in that department it's Peeta who takes control, I like it and he knows it.
Years of experience and growing up in the forest has taught me how quiet I can be. Peeta doesn't even hear me walking up the stairs, but I hear him as he quietly returns to finishing the dishes and quietly sobs away, I leave to walk upstairs before I hear him say "I'm sorry Kat, I'm so sorry"
What do you think? I would love to hear some constructive criticism, again very new at this so please be kind, will be looking for a beta, I'm planning on doing a Katniss and Peeta POV in this so I would like your thoughts, all I will say is that there is a betrayal, one in which you will find out next chapter