Penname: taloolahp

Original or Derivative (fanfiction): DERIVATIVE

Rating/Warning(s)/Note(s): M rated (adult content), This is based on Twilight and is told in Edward's point of view.

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Prompt: ROOTS

The dark sky is laden with hatred above me but I know I'm doing the right thing. I look around at the desolate hills and I know that my decision is the right one. As I trudge along the track in front of me I think about the events that have led me to this point.

"I never want to see you again!" Bella had screamed so loudly at me that everyone in the room had turned to stare. "You have ruined my life!" she spat the words as if even talking to me would cause her to vomit. I tried to make her forgive me but all in vain. One silly mistake had destroyed her love for me. I had known at the time that it was wrong but I hadn't been able to stop myself.

Although that hadn't been the last time I had seen Bella, it was the last time that she had acknowledged my existence. I had tried to apologise to her many times but she wanted nothing to do with me. She ignored me whenever I approached her. It was as though I was dead to her. Everyday she seemed to mourn the love that she had lost but under the surface it was obvious that the anger she had was eating away at her.

Over the following months I had almost given up trying to make amends. I still loved her but she wouldn't accept it. Her forgiveness was locked away in the part of her heart that held her love for me.

A shiver runs through my already cold body as the truly painful memories begin to form images in my head. The roots of my pain entwine themselves around my still heart, a torture that I deserve for the terrible things that I have done. I stop and look ahead of me into the distance. I can make out the shadows of a building on the horizon, a suitable solitary fortress for me to spend an eternity of repenting.

I start walking again as the wind blows and swirls around me. I know that I could be there in a second if I want to but I don't feel like running right now. This time is part of my punishment. I need to think about her and what I did. Another image forms in my head as I think back to what I did.

Victoria had always been fascinating to me yet I know not why. Her allure had been almost hypnotic the first time I laid eyes on her. It was as if I couldn't let her go. When I was alone it was Victoria's image that filled my thoughts. It consumed me and replaced the image I had of Bella. I didn't want that to be the case but it was, no matter how much I tried to stop it. Victoria had a hold on me and I seemed helpless against it.

My new obsession with the nomad came to a head one day when she appeared at my window. I was supposed to go and meet Bella but something stopped me. Victoria's magic captivated me and I was at her mercy. I knew that it was safe to do with her all the things that Bella's human body was too fragile for. She didn't need to say anything, I could hear what she was thinking and I liked it!

There was another voice screaming out in my head. It was telling me get the hell out of that fucked up situation but I pushed it into a dark corner of my mind and locked it away. That was my first big mistake.

Victoria approached me slowly and steadily while I stared at her hungrily. In a split second we were in a passionate embrace. My desires took over and I was unable to stop myself. I kissed her hungrily and she responded with equal passion. We were lost in each other and our desires. I nipped and teased at her flesh while she bit and nibbled at mine. Clothes were torn from bodies and discarded in shreds.

Our passion was unstoppable and soon I had Victoria's legs wrapped around my back as I fucked her up against the wall. Our moans filled the room and I was thankful that my family were out hunting. I pounded into Victoria with wild abandon and she thrust her hips against my cock as her heels dug into the small of my back.

I had been so wrapped up in what I was doing that it was too late by the time I realised we were not alone. I turned to look at the door as Bella's gasp had reached my ears. She stood and stared, unable to divert her eyes from the scene in front of her.

I blink as the image of Bella is etched permanently in my mind. The hurt I caused her with one major mistake. That was 6 months ago now and still I can never forgive myself. I deserve to suffer but my actions have led to a chain of events that have ruined the lives of everyone who knew her. My redemption will never come not in a million years of repenting.

I reach the building where I am to spend the rest of forever. I walk inside and look at the bare room in front of me. It will represent the desolate nature of what I have become. The stone walls are leaning and the roots of a tree are forcing their way up through the flagged floor, pulling and breaking all in their way. The pain tears at me again as I think about today and what everyone will be doing now.

I imagine them sitting round talking about how wonderful she was and how young she was. I lean against the wall and allow myself to slide to the floor. The pain is overbearing and I feel like I am about to fall apart. I curl my knees up to my chest in an attempt to stop that from happening but there is no escape. I am broken and I will be broken forever.

She is gone because of me. I wasn't there to save her from his clutches. She didn't want me in her life and I allowed my own self pity to end my watch over her. I am destined to feel the roots of the love I once had strangling and suffocating me for ever and it is what I deserve. I am the one that should be gone, not her!