Halloween

Here's the second chapter of this Story.

Thank you all who had reviewed and read the first chapter

Since Brendan had found out the truth about Simon Walker as well as his near death experience, he had changed in more ways than one. He was still the same Brendan Brady but a shadow of his former self which was a good thing in his eyes, he didn't want to become that person again and he didn't want to ever hurt those who meant everything to him.

It was a Halloween fancy dress party in the club, an idea of his business partner Joel Dexter, all the staff including the owners had to dress up for tonight which Brendan was reluctant to do. Cheryl was the one who had persuaded Brendan in getting involved more with the people in the village as well as coming to the club fancy dress. Brendan had finally agreed to it but only if he got to choose what he was going as on the night.

While he was in the town looking for his costume, Brendan knew exactly who he was going dressed up to the event, The Joker. He wasn't going as the 1960's TV series version or even the Jack Nicholson version of the 1980's film version, no he decided he was going as The Joker played by the actor Heath Ledger in the 2008 film. He had his mind-set on it and he wasn't going to let anyone including Joel or Cheryl make him change his mind.

He came back from the town with the things he needed which was a green suit, a blue shirt and black tie. He had also purchased a can of Green spray for his hair, a pot of white foundation, a tube of red paint for his lips and some eye shadow for his eyes, he was fully ready for tomorrow night's party to the point he had to admit that the idea of going out, getting dressed up and socializing with people had grown on him for a bit.

During the night of the event Brendan was in his suit, his hair had product as well as the green spray he had purchased the day before , however the only problem was that he needed some help in putting on the make-up. Cheryl had helped him putting it on his face and specifically told her not to put any of the foundation on his moustache, which had puzzled Cheryl but she knew what her brother was like and continued putting the make up on his face. When she had finished with Brendan, she went upstairs to put on her costume, Brendan had looked at himself in the mirror and knew he was ready for tonight's party, he also wondered who might be coming to the club specifically if Ste was coming out tonight.

Cheryl, Joel and Brendan had left their house and headed to the club, Joel had dressed up as a 1930's gangster and this had amused Brendan because he knew Theresa McQueen had some involvement in choosing Joel's outfit, Joel told Brendan that it was his idea but they both knew that it was far from the truth. Cheryl had informed Brendan that she will be waiting at the entrance for Ste to come when he got to the club. Brendan had nodded, said ok, smiling when no one including Cheryl wasn't looking and walked straight upstairs to order a drink.

He was in the club for a good half an hour, which he found himself mainly in his office and looking to see if everyone was having a good time , as well as checking out some of the people who were in the club which none of caught his eyes. That was until he had seen Ste and Cheryl coming up the stairs and heading straight to the bar, he couldn't help himself looking at Ste dressed up for the party. Part of him had found it funny but also turned him on in equal measures, he looked at the man and kept looking at him until Cheryl had disappeared and that was when he knew he had to talk to the man who he had ever loved in his life.

When he had finished his conversation with Ste he headed straight to the office, he didn't mean to leave in such a hurry but the thought of standing there with Ste another minute, not doing or saying things he wanted to do to Ste had made him nervous as well as made him fear that Ste might turn him down again as he did when Brendan tried to kiss him the day Walker had paid him a visit and started to hurt the people Brendan cared about one by one.

While Brendan was in his office he couldn't stop thinking about Ste in his costume had made Brendan's dick really hard to the point of no return. He had started stroking his member while thinking it was Ste stroking Brendan's dick with that right hand of his while Ste was licking his lips and not breaking away from looking at Brendan . He started to unzip his trousers until he had heard a knocking on his door which prompted him to zip his trousers up fast.

"What do ye want" Brendan had screamed and thinking of giving the person who was interrupting him and his thoughts a good mouthful.

Brendan looked shocked yet a little surprised to see it was the very same person who was in his thoughts coming into his office.

During the time Ste and Brendan had spoken in the office, Brendan had a feeling where this conversation was heading and he knew he was right when Ste had said his confession to him while Brendan headed to his desk for that glass of whiskey to calm his nerves and hesitating where the conversation might lead to. When Brendan had seen Ste answer his question with nodding his head he knew that this would be making or breaking for the two of them.

There was a silence between the two men until Ste had broken it.

"I know what I want and I want you" Ste had said without taking his eyes off from Brendan

"Are you going to say something?" Ste had said thinking that Brendan was going to make him go back to Doug or even worse break his heart again.

Brendan then had nodded to Ste while trying to think of the words he had always wanted to say to his Steven.

"Ye I heard what you said perfectly. Ye better off without me Steven I'm no good for ye, ye better off going back to Douglas or someone else, someone who'll treat you right "said Brendan in a calm tone. The words that came out of his mouth had shocked the pair of them.

"I don't. I don't want Doug Brendan I love you. I've proper tried to make myself love Doug and try to forget about you but I can't and when I couldn't I tried to force myself to love him but…" Ste had said to Brendan while trying to think of the words he had always wanted to say to the man in front of him. He inhaled and exhaled slowly before speaking again.

"… I couldn't do it anymore Bren. You should know what it's like living day in day out pretending you care about someone who you don't, pretending that your over the person you love when you're not and forcing yourself to try harder …" Ste said. He looked away from Brendan for a second, removed his eye mask and wiped away the tear from his eye, when he wiped the tear he placed the eye mask to where it was originally placed.

Seeing Ste like this had crushed Brendan, he wanted to hug him and whisper in his ear telling him everything would be ok for him as well as the two of them.

Ste then inhaled and exhaled again before speaking again.

"… I can't do it anymore Brendan. I never stopped loving you; I love you more each day. There I said what I needed to say "Ste said while standing up from the sofa while not breaking eye contact from Brendan.

"I might as well do us both a favour and leave" Ste said while thinking he had made one stupid mistake again.

Ste had walked towards the door, placed his hand on the door handle ready to open it until Brendan had walled behind him. Placed his hand on where Ste was holding the door handle and closed the door swiftly.

Brendan knew this was his last chance in finally being happy with in himself and being happy with the man he loved by his side. He let go of Ste's hand and placed it on Ste's shoulder before moving closer to him.

Now was the time for Brendan to speak the honest with how he felt about his Steven.

"I never stopped loving you Steven. I've done things to ye that I'm not proud of "Brendan had whispered in Ste's ear.

Brendan felt himself trembling and trying to think of the words he wanted to say to Ste but he felt that this was the time for him

to talk in a

honest way while he was looking him.

"Steven look at me…..Please look at me" Brendan had said in a trembling voice that he could barely recognise it as his own.

Ste turned around to look at Brendan who looked like he was going to break at any given moment.

"I still love ye Steven. I've tried to forget about ye as well moving from one man from the other but I never stopped loving ye. Those other men Eoghan, Walker, that guy who I kissed right in front of ye, they meant nothing to me. They were just a fuck "Brendan had said while looking into Ste's eyes.

"When I wanted ye back that was when I seen ye kiss Douglas in the deli when ye and him…" Brendan had said. The thought of Ste and Doug kissing like they did the day Brendan had seen with his eyes made him physically sick.

"Ye wanna know what it's like seeing someone ye love kiss someone else it's like…" Brendan said while thinking of the words to describe the feeling.

"Seeing the person you love rip your heart out in front of you" Ste said finishing Brendan's sentence.

This had stunned Brendan that Ste knew what that feeling was like.

"Ye… Ye exactly like that" Brendan had said while trying to compose himself in front of Ste which he knew was impossible.

Brendan took his right hand and placed it on the left side of Ste's face and started to stroke Ste's face with his thumb, a habit of his when it came to touching Ste's silky skin.

"Ye a good man Steven." Brendan said while thinking ye more of a man than I am.

"So are you "Ste said while thinking of holding Brendan in his arms.

They were standing in silence until Brendan was shaking his head.

"No I'm not "Brendan had said while his thumb was stroking the top of Ste's lips while thinking of how a man like Ste Hay could ever love a man like Brendan Brady in the first place.

"Yes you are Brendan. Your more of a man than half the men in this village" Ste said knowing that every word he had said was true about Brendan.

"I've hurt the people I love. I lost my boys because I'm a shit dad. I almost lost Cheryl but even she knows what I'm like and I lost ye Steven. I pushed ye away and ye fell in the arms of another man" Brendan said.

He looked away from Ste for a second, he breathed through his nose and exhaled through his mouth and his eyes met Ste's.

"How can I ask those I love to forgive me when I can't forgive myself?" Brendan had said while looking in Ste's eyes.

They were silent for a minute until Ste broke the silence.

He looked into Brendan's eyes and said those words.

"I forgive you".

To be continued.

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