Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't written anything I a while but I was a little bit distracted on the fact that I got to meet Rebecca Mader, Sean McGuire Lee Arenberg and… Lana Parrilla! How cool is that. They were all so sweet; I have been on cloud nine ever since.

I'll try to post more now that my once in a lifetime trip has been completed.

Hope you all like this chapter.

Nothing is mine except for the mistakes, sorry.

For four days, Regina felt like she was on Auto Pilot. True the only time she felt anything was when Henry was around her but even then she still felt the constant pain of her heartbreak.

After the fifth day of wallowing in her home, avoiding every call from the unchaining's, she decided she needed to get some fresh air and show her face to the people of Storybrooke. True there was a chance of her running into the happy family but she was still the queen and she had to show that no man could ever truly break her down, even though that's exactly what he did. She got changed, putting on a black dress with matching heels, did her makeup and hair perfectly and to finish it off put on a medium length pea coat since it was getting quite cold out as of late. But she shook that off and took her keys from her bag and drove out of her driveway to Granny's for a coffee before she would head to her office. True nothing major happened while she was away from her workplace but that meant that she would have a lot of paperwork backed up. Maybe if she drowned in work it could help her situation.

After a quick drive to Granny's she walked cautiously to the door feeling a little more afraid at every step. She really didn't think she could see them yet, but she had to do this. With a deep breath in she reached for the handle and opened the door. When she walked in everyone stopped their conversations and looked at the Queen.

Well at least there not here. I can handle these idiots any day.

She gave the whole diner an eye roll before she walked up to the stools to order her coffee to go. Ruby gave her a sympathetic glance before she walked away with Regina's order. She could still feel lingering eyes lingering around her which made her feel very awkward but it was nothing new. They used to do this all the time but the only difference this time it was a personal mater, her love life was on display, she was surprised that the newspaper hadn't put in on the front page by now.

When she finally got her coffee she was o ready to leave. Her armor was strong but with everyone pocking wholes with their stairs and their whispers that even a deft man could hear she walked straight and tall out of Granny's . The worst of aver since now she just had to get into her car and drive to her office. Her office was another sanctuary in her life; she had control of everything, what got done, who worked for her and who she saw every day. But life was just about to throw her another curve ball.

"Ginaaaaaa!" she knew that voice anywhere. The voice was growing louder and louder from behind her, so she placed her coffee on roof of her car and just in time too because not a second later she felt two little arms tackle her lower half. She was conflicted, on one hand she felt so relieved, she did miss the little boy in between her agony of missing his father and on the other hand she knew he wouldn't be here alone which meant within a minute there would be one of two people would be approaching her forcing a conversation she might not be ready for.

"Hello my little night." She put on a smile before she was able to turn around to see Roland's bright shining face looking up at her. His little dimples actually got her to laugh slightly, he was just too cute in her opinion and he did remind her of henry a little at that age.

"R'gina where have you been? I've missed you." He said innocently. What could she truly say to this little boy? When she was first introduced to Roland he immediately took a liking to her to everyone's surprise especially his father since he was always a shy child with new people but with Regina it was the opposite.

She took the little boy's hands way from her legs so she could get down on her knees to talk to him. "Well Roland you've been so busy with your momma right?" She kept her smile in tack even though just talking about his mother made her inside turn.

His face fell a little Regina noticed and when she brought his face back to her she was interrupted by not one of them but both father and mother. O great the worst possible scenario filling this conversation with awkward small talk.

"Roland what did I say about running off like that?" his smooth husky voice could melt her if they were still together, but they weren't she had to remember that.

"I'm sorry papa." Roland said turning to his father but not leaving Regina's vicinity. Here was the awkwardness coming. All three adults fell silent until Roland interrupted them. "Papa why is R'gina so sad?" She actually forgot how perceptive children can be, he saw right though her the entire time. She sighed slowly before she began to stand. Instinctively Robin extended his hand to help her up but she didn't take it.

"I'm fine." She said almost flatly. She dusted her knees off once she was standing up straight. She put her hand on Roland's head ruffling his hair slightly and addressed him again.

"Roland I'm not sad, I'm actually happy I've missed you too." She said with a smile. She brought him into a tight hug after that looking down at him instead of his parents who here in front of her. He whispered into her which she almost missed but he didn't want his parents to hear him. "I miss you being my momma."

And that's was broke her, well if she was alone, she would die if she let them see her slip. But his little confession pulled at her heart, he actually though her his new mother? She did love him like her own but she didn't think it was reciprocated but…

"Roland I think we should go, the Queen probably has many things to do." It was Marian's turn to speak up even though you could hear the venom though every word.

"I prefer Regina." she informed Marian with very little expression.

"Ok. By Gina." He said to her as he reluctantly took his mother and father's hand. Before the loving family left her sight to walk into Granny's Robin too said goodbye.

"Have a good Day Madame Mayor. "She nodded feeling her mask beginning to slip. Having him saying nothing was almost as bad as him talking to her.

"Mr. Locksley." She said before turning away. She took her coffee now luke warm off the top of her car but before she got in her car she turned once more. He didn't turn around but Roland had. Now his little face was sad. And it wasn't really her fault be she still felt responsible. She brought her hand up so her face blowing a kiss to her little night which made him smile. She smiled a genuine smile his way before she waved taking her leave in her car. A single tear fell from her face before she even stated her car so before she completely broke down she stared the car and raced into the streets of Storybrooke to her office. Just hoping that she can lock herself in her office maybe she wasn't strong as she thought, if a child could see through her what about his father, what would he say about her now?