I snapped out of it at the sound of SunShine and MoonShine waking up. That brought back even more memories.
When I was fourteen my mother died. Cancer took her from me. I still needed her. She was my protection, saving me from my father every night. I was sure that with her gone the abuse would only get worse for me. I never would have imagined just how right I was...
...Flashback...
After my mother's funeral I couldn't find my father, probably at a bar someplace, so I went home without him. At first I cried for awhile. But then I stood up and wiped my tears on the way to the bathroom. Once infront of a mirror I used my magic to unbraid my mane and tail. After tons of combing and whole lot of hairspray I had done it. I looked just like mom. It comforted me to see how much I looked like her. By looking at myself like this it's almost like i'm still with her. I didn't know that this was the biggest mistake of my life.
"Hey Good-looking." My father suddenly showed up in the doorway drunker than ever. I shrieked "Dad can't you knock! I'll be out in a sec. ok?" Dad just chuckled "You know Pearl( my mothers name) you look younger and damn hot too. Come on baby, let's have alittle fun, huh?" He said with a drunken slur as he began pulling me towards his bedroom. My eyes went wide as I realized just how drunk he was. "Dad, Dad, Dad stop it, it's StarLight, i'm your DAUGHTER! I'M NOT PEARL, I'M NOT PEARL!"
By this time we were in his room. He was all over me. He was either to drunk to understand my words or maybe just ignoring them, I didn't care, I never stopped yelling, screaming, begging. He came inside me. I thought that he would split me in two. I screamed out in pain. I was crying long before he, thankfully, passed out. When I was sure he would not wake up I pulled away from him. I ran to the bathroom and vomited. I felt dirty, I wanted to wash away the slimy feeling, but I knew that if I turned on the shower he would wake up.
So I went to my room. I made my choice. I was leaving. I called for a cab, packed up what was important to me, put my hair back in it's braid. The last thing I took was the ten thousand bits that Mom kept hidden from Dad for emerginces. I even left behind a note telling my dad why I was leaving and what exactly happened last night.I wanted him to realize exactly what he had done to his only daughter. I wanted him to feel awfull for it, to cry and beg Celestia for forgivness. I hopped in the cab and never looked back. It was morning when I ended up in Ponyville. I paid the driver and started to look for a cheap motel where I could finally take a shower.
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Hey peeps! thx for being patient while I finished. This chapter was painfull for me because, well, It's based off a recuring nightmare I had after my babysitter sexually abused me when I was little. He didn't rape me but he made me touch him in ways that I was to young and innocent to know were wrong. My nightmare was about what could have happened to me if my parents hadn't found out. The nightmare started when I was alittle older it made me relive the whole experience and it was torture. Funny I never talk about this, yet here I am telling people I'll likely never meet. Thank you for listening to me, hopefully without judging me. But still strange... But enough about my sob story! Please review and tell me what you think so far! Next up StarLight meets the mane six! What will happen? (btw she is still rembering when the next chapter starts.)