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"Aah" I groaned.
I had a splitting headache
"Hear take these" a voice says.
I stiffen that wasn't Jake.
It takes me a second to recognize Edward's voice and another second to remember what had happened last night.
"Isabella? Are you alright?" he asks concerned.
"Yeah" I say in hoarse voice
I open my eyes and saw him standing in front of me.
I took the cup of water and the pills he offered.
He chuckled
"Good you had me worried for a second there"
It was awkwardly quiet for a second.
What had happened after I blacked out? Had he? Surely not right? That would be practically rape! But I had wanted to….
"What happened after….? Did we?" I couldn't bring myself to say it but I had to know.
"Yes" he responds in a cold emotionless voice.
Oh god! Oh my god Jake I'm sorry for betraying you like this!
"I figured it was better this way. The first time is always painful and this way…you won't have that memory. Besides since you don't remember you can always pretend the next time is your first time" he says
"No I can't pretend because I will always know it's not and besides since I'm going out with you everyone will know I slept with you. You have a certain reputation of always sleeping with your girlfriends."
"You're right I do"
Things go quiet again.
"So now that I'm in your gang"
"No" he says laughing "you applied for the "girlfriend" position not for a place in my gang you would have to sleep with 4 other guys to be in the gang"
I gulp
Whatever I don't care I had Edward now.
"Ok so I'm your girlfriend now what are we going to do? What's going to be our story?"
"I thought you had everything planned out?" he asks a bit confused
"Just the general idea not the fine details"
"What exactly do you have?"
"Well we would show up on Monday together and you would kiss me, and I mean a REAL kiss, we would continue the charade until Jake realized he loved me"
"So we would act all lovey dovey huh? I don't do lovey dovey"
"Maybe if you did Tanya would've stayed" I mumble
"Hey!"
"Sorry" I mumble
He comes and sits at the edge of the bed I bring up my knees and hug them.
"We have to make people believe we're in love though so could you maybe…"
"You're right…we'll probably have to kiss a lot….I guess I can agree to hold your hand"
"Gee thanks" I mutter dryly
Was it really that much of a chore?
He chuckles.
"BUT I refuse to be one of those idoits who take their girl to every class oh and before you even think about it my name is 'Edward' not 'Eddie' or any other stupid nickname you can think of"
I nod
"Umm while we're on the subject of names can you not call me Isabella I hate it"
"What should I call you then? Because I refuse to call you 'Izzy' it's childish and idiotic and all my friends know that I think it's stupid so they would know something was up"
It's quiet for a couple of minutes while we both think of a new nickname.
"Got it" he says "'Bella' how about that?"
"Bella" I repeat
It does sound good I actually kinda prefer it to 'Izzy' already.
"Yeah it's ok" I say
"So how exactly are we going to make people believe we're in LOVE. It's going to seem like it was just out of nowhere"
"Well everyone believes we're heartbroken right?"
I nod
"And I'll say that about half the people at the party saw us together, talking sharing a beer and us leaving together"
Oookay?
"Now that half will convert to the entire school by Monday morning"
He did have a point there were a lot of gossipers at our school and the fact that he took me home people will assume we had sex; again Edward's reputation would work in our favor but…
"Ok so people will know we slept together so what? They'll think we're fuck buddies at most" I say
This will seriously damage my image…I hope Jake isn't too disappointed and that he forgives me and takes me back.
"Didn't you say we would kiss in front of the school, in front of everybody? We'll 'demonstrate our love' with that kiss" he says laughing
"It seems like too much pressure to put on a kiss" I say
"Bella are you doubting my kissing expertise?" he smiles wickedly "maybe we should practice?"
I quickly scoot away and clear my throat.
"That won't be necessary. Besides that wasn't the point"
"Yeah I know" he interrupts sounding serious all of a sudden.
"And don't worry there's no way they'll believe us right off the bat but we'll give them a good show and they'll believe us eventually. If we do it right it won't take long"
"Ok so outsiders don't really matter but what about your friends? Won't they be suspicious?"
"Bella they'll believe what I tell them to because I'm their boss."
"Oh wait their boss?"
He clears his throat.
"Let's just say I'm not one of those rebels without a cause"
"Is it dangerous?"
"Being with me?" he pauses and contemplates it for a second "maybe but if you still want to continue on with the plan don't worry I'll protect you. I'll keep you from dangerous people"
I gulp
"Do you wanna back out?" he asks when I don't respond.
"No" I say shaking my head "I already sl…came all this way I won't back out now. I need to get Jacob back"
"Wow Jacob must be some guy if you're willing to do all this just to get him back"
"He is"
"Alright then I guess that's that it right?"
"Yeah oh wait no actually…uh well you see um…"
"Just spit it out Bella" he says impatiently
"I uh have noticed that uh the girls in your group uh dress a certain way so I uh"
"Dress how you normally do. If you change too suddenly it might backfire besides I'm supposed to have fallen in love with you right? Well that was the girl I was talking to on Friday and that includes the clothes"
"But what about Jacob? How is he going to see me differently if"
"It has to be slow or you're going to look like a rebellious little girl. If you want you can dress a BIT more sexily and I mean a BIT Bella alright?"
"Mhm"
"Ok then I'm leaving and don't worry I'll keep a low profile so people will believe I'm still with you it'll make our story more believable if we spend the whole weekend together you know"
After he leaves I'm finally able to breakdown. I sob for hours and then when I have no more tears left to cry I try to wash away the filth I feel by taking a shower but after 3 hours I give up.
You have to pull yourself together Isabella this is what you wanted! You knew it was going to happen!
YES I answer the voice in my head but not like this! This feels like….RAPE!
At least you don't have the memory of it. This way is better. He actually did you a favor.
A FAVOR?! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME! HE SHOULDN'T HAVE
YOU WANTED TO SLEEP WITH HIM REMEMBER? YOU WERE THE ONE WHO PRACTICALLY BEGGED HIM TO SLEEP WITH YOU!
I had to stop arguing with myself. I had to get over this I would be hugging him and kissing him and touching him and he would have to do the same he would have his hands all over me