A.N: In response to a prompt at the Glee Angst Meme:
PROMPT: Sam rapes Mercedes but not everyone believes her when she accuses him. Kurt/Finn/Tina/Brittany/Quinn definitely do, up to anon about the others.
Warnings: A.U.
Mercedes was sitting thinking, she recalled walking through the school with Puck at her side, they were holding hands and were at a six inch distance from each other. At first she couldn't stand to be in the same room as him, or any other guy, that was her denial phase. Then she rebelled against him, they fought more times than not which led to lots of angry sex, which she half used to try and forget the rape, and half used to get excess frustration out. She tried to reason and bargain with herself and Sam, begged him to just leave her alone, pleaded with her mind to stop assaulting her with memories of that night but it never stopped, not his torment or the flashbacks, that was the time period she was jumpiest and sex ceased completely, as did any physical contact with anyone, it was too hard and made her physically sick. That was when her fear that Puck would leave her was at an all time high, but he didn't and she just loved him even more for it, he was there for her as much as he could despite not knowing where the hell her sudden behavioral change came from. Then came the crippling sadness, during her stage of depression, she didn't let anyone other than him, Kurt and the glee girls touch her, she clung to Puck like he was a second skin, angry sex turned to comfort sex and she cried every time through the anger and pain, she cried. The general thought is a woman who was raped wouldn't want anything to do with sexual activity but she found out that some tried to have sex as much as possible so they could try and compensate with the feeling in them that felt like their ability to do IT, their right had been violated, taken away, to feel like they had control of their body and sex life.
Puck, her ever loving boyfriend, was ridiculously worried. At first he thought she was pregnant and she did too, but that wasn't the case thank Jesus. She clung to him partly because, he was her boyfriend and even if he didn't know the problem would still be there for her and partly because he looked nothing like Sam, and that was a godsend. Dark brown hair in a mohawk, light brown eyes a big contrast to fake bleach blonde hair and moss green eyes. She was currently in the stage of acceptance, not yet fully accepting what happened to her, she would never accept that but rather, she was ready to talk about it and get help so she could move on, that's why she decided to begin revealing to the glee members one by one the reason behind her sudden mood swings. She wanted to tell Puck, so he had answers as to why he was watching his beloved go through so much pain, hurt and sadness but she knew he was on probation and the hurt she felt because of the rape only intensified with Puck not being there (he was gone during her depression stage), she can't risk him killing or seriously injuring Sam in his rage and being sent back there, so she was saving him for last, her plan was to tell him with Brittany in the room so he wouldn't lose his cool to much and risk scaring the girl, who at most times was as silent as church mice yet her vacant goldfish stare had disappeared for the most part and she was very aware of her surroundings and was easily frightened. But that plan flew out the window when she was sitting by a window during study hall, and Matt, Mike, Brittany and Santana sauntered up to her.