Dear Diary,
I've got some exciting new here ! Wel not that exciting, but still. So I went and meet Charlie to ask him about the Sadie Hawkins thing and I was feeling really shy when I really shouldn't, because it's not like Charlie is the most popular kid in the highschool or something, even if I really do like him. He was leaning against the wall outside of the school, smoking with Patrick, and I called out for him. He sounded quite surprised and confused to be honest, as I don't usually talk to him and I think I freak him out a little. I really didn't know how to start so I just went straight to the point 'Will you go to the Sadie Hawkins dance with me ?'. And guess what, he wasn't even aware of what it was. I had to explain the whole concept of girls inviting guys, and that I wanted to go with him as he is a nice guy and we could get to know each other more. His face when I was on about the 'getting to know each other more' part made me wanna run away but I didn't, because I'm not a pussy right ? So I just waiting for his answer, longest seconds of my life. If he had said no I think I'd just had to change my identity/move school. BUT he said 'Yes'. The most flat yes ever if you ask me but still a yes. And he added a little smile to make him look more happy about hanging out with me than he actually was. But I can't complain, I'm going to the dance with the cute guy I like, so I guess I'm happy.
Yesterday Sam came over and she was quite devastated. Her relationship with Craig isn't doing as well as it sounded; apparently some friends of him saw her at the bar the other night, when we hanged out, and she had drunk too much and kissed a guy, but no big deal really. However Craig's friend thought it'd be a good idea to make out a whole story about Sam sleeping with that guy. And now Sam's trying to convince Craig that it isn't true, but it's quite hard from what she's told me. Craig's pretty much a cunt if you ask me; I don't even think that he actually cares about her, but I don't tell her because I don't know about half of the things that happen between them. And Sam seems to really like him, and I want her to be happy and maybe Craig will change for the better.I told her again about my worries about the other night in the club, and she said that if I don't remember anything it's probably because nothing happened. She also said that if I wasn't pregnant there was nothing to worry about. I told her that the idea of a stranger touching me while I wasn't me was sickening me. She really seemed to understand and hugged me. It's weird because Sam and I are so different and have argue so many times, but she's still the greatest friend I have. I love her so fucking much.
Oh, I also asked her about Charlie liking her, and she said that he maybe have a little crush on her but nothing really serious, and that I could easily 'turn his world upside down', all smirking. For some reason, this made me laugh to tears and I'm still laughing remembering it. Oh my god Sam.
That's it for today, more info on miss Mary-Elisabeth (not so) exciting life next time.
xxx