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Bpov
Oh yay, its breakfast time. I'm sitting at my kitchen table with my dull cheerios. Well it's been about two months since my life, officially, began again. Maybe people would tell me that I'm hurting myself and that I should stop before it gets worse but, what no one understands is that I 'm healing myself. Maybe I have scars on my arms but I feel better afterwards. I go into the bathroom whenever I feel depressed, and I cut. It's not like I do it every day, just once or twice a week.
I laugh and smile every once and a while, and at the end of the day it's worth it. There are minimum reminders of him so that definitely helps in dealing with the pain, at least when it's not too unmanageable. When it is….. well that's when my razor comes into the picture.
I still don't really eat anymore but that's only because I'd just puke it right back up again. This, admittedly, might be some sort of a side effect to cutting but it doesn't last long anyways, so it's not really a problem.
I really was stalling in eating my cereal because after I was done it meant I had to go to school. That's one thing I am not interested in doing right now. I had to though because if I didn't someone would start to notice how much school I'm missing. And I have no doubt that that would lead to Charlie getting curious.
Well that was the last Cheerio. I grabbed my coat off the hook and, slowly but surely, walked to my truck. Driving to school was just as it always is. A bore. School will be just as exciting as the ride was, so I might as well get used to it. Getting to school, stares followed me where ever I go. This isn't new though, or the worst part. Some people say I do drugs, some say I drink. No one actually believes I cut though. I don't think anyone expects me doing something this drastic. I didn't think I would…. but I did, so now it's time to face the facts, and move on with my life. That's why I decided to do this in the first place.
I walked through the halls to my first class. English with Mr. Berty. (Sorry if that's the wrong teacher I'm writing this without the books) Today we're going writing an essay on what we would do, if we were in Juliet's position. I know exactly what I would do. I would pick up a knife and cut, when I saw Romeos dead body, lying on top of my live one. I did do that. I don't think writing this would do any good though, so I'll just write something simple and predictable.
Well, as predicted, my classes were dull. I'm now in the lunch room, chewing on a piece of celery, so that no one starts rumors about me being anorexic.
"Hey Bella," an annoying voice sounded. I turned to see who it was and was not pleased with the results. Lauren Mallory. "I was just wondering when you think, you'll just give up trying to hide, and admit to everyone that the only reason you get through the day, is because you're either a drugie or you drink. I mean everyone knows it's one or the other we're just wondering which one it is." She shouted rashly. Just as I was about to defend myself with a rude comment, Angela came to my rescue.
"Lauren just stop, just because Bella is going through a tough time, doesn't mean we should make assumptions and attack her."
"You just wait Angela. She's eventually going to crack." She retorted.
"Even if she does she'll have real friends to help her get through it." Thank you God, for giving me Angela Weber. I couldn't listen to this anymore, so I calmly exited my room. I decided school wasn't worth it today so I went home. Charlie wouldn't be home yet and I wasn't absent for the whole day, so no one would call him.
Life was getting better, but it was still hard.
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