The blonde paced her bedroom, hitting the stick on her hand as she tried to work through the insane thoughts pushing their way around her racked brain. The bars on the little screen meant she was pregnant. And that's exactly what was appearing on the screen.

Pregnant. How the fuck can I be pregnant? I can't be pregnant… Oh fuckin' hell. There's only one person this thing can belong to…. Happy fuckin' Lowman. Shit… I don't even have his number. I don't even fuckin' know where he is. I don't know how to get in touch with him. Fuck him… I don't want to talk to him. He thinks he's fuckin' God or something… I'm supposed to be lucky to even have a conversation with him? Fuck that shit.

I walked into the living room of my apartment where my roommate, Jessie was sitting. "Hey, where's Benji?" I sat down on the couch, watching her flip through television channels on the TV.

"On the balcony. You wanna watch a movie?" She pulled her legs up to her chest, looking directly at me.

Jessie had black hair that came down past her shoulders; she always kept it up though… Only wearing it down on special occasions. She was short, shorter than me at least. She was about 5 foot, 2… Like a little pixie. She was a dancer and a damn good one, she was the one who got me into drawing and all the art classes here on campus. Jessie was Charming too, we'd be friends since we were eleven. She knew all about the Sons… well not all about them; she didn't know their secrets, like their true business venture or anything like that but she knew they existed, she knew they were totally badass and that I was affiliated because of my dad. Jessie was really outgoing and fun to be around but today, I just wanted to talk to Benji.

Benjamin Reeves was my other roommate; he was the sweetest thing ever too. Me and Jessie met him at freshman orientation when we were just looking around at all the clubs. We all became pretty close pretty fast but for some reason, me and Benji formed a closer friendship than him and Jessie had. Benji was gay but that didn't matter to us, hell if anything, it made us just a bit closer. I told him about SAMCRO, about how my dad, Piney, was a founding member and my brother, Opie, was now a Son. I told him about my brother's best friend, Jax and all the history we had together. Benji even knew about Happy Lowman and our brief history together. Of course Benji was going to hear about the latest bullshit that decided to join me in my life.

I shook my head no and stood up. "Maybe later, babe." I opened the sliding glass door and walked out onto the balcony. Taking a seat beside Benji, I sighed before laying my head on his shoulder. "Got a minute?"

"For you? I've got a million minutes. What's wrong?" He wrapped an arm around me and put his cigarette out, flicking it over the black fence in front of us.

"Remember that lovely one night stand between me and Grumpy, one of the seven dwarves?" I sat up and pulled my legs to my chest.

"How could I forget? We had to shop for hours buying you new stuff that he completely ripped to pieces… Bet it was some great sex though." Benji shot me one of his joking smiles, making me him in the chest for his last comment.

"That's the one… Before I say anything else, would you wanna take a road trip with me?" I grinned at him, hoping- no praying he'd agree to take the road trip with me.

"Just tell me where we're going and when we're leaving and I'll be there. Deal?" He jumped up, excitement fueling his voice.

"Tacoma, Washington… Hell, we can leave today if you want." I slowly stood up and passed him the pregnancy test. "I called the shop up there and they said he was working today and tomorrow. I'm going to tell him about it before I make any other decisions. I just don't want to go up there alone."

"You already packed, didn't ya?" I nodded my head and he smiled. "For me, too?" I shook my head and Benji crossed him arms. "If he doesn't want anything to do with it but you do, I've got your back, ok?" He pulled me into his arms before I could even get a sound out of my mouth.

"Go pack so we can hit the road and I'll go talk to Jess about all this." I pulled away from him and he nodded his head.

"Is she coming too?" I shook my head before we both walked back inside. We saw her asleep on the couch. Perfection… we don't have to explain anything. We can leave her a note and just go. "I'll be back. Grab some snacks or something. We'll take my car, ok?" I nodded my head.

I grabbed the stack of post-it notes we had sitting on the coffee table and the pen beside the stack and started the note.

Me and Ben decided to take a road trip to Washington, we'll be back sometime late tomorrow. Call us if you need us; we love you. Smooches.

I stuck the note on the coffee table beside her cell phone and got up to grab my bags. Grabbing Ben's keys of the coffee table, we started loading stuff into the car. He grabbed the bag full of snacks and I grabbed two pillows and a blanket from my room.

The ride to Tacoma was about 12 hours long so me and Benji decided to split the drive, him driving 6 hours and me driving the other 6 hours. He decided the drive the first 6 hours up there and he ended up making it halfway there in 5 hours.

I don't know how we did it but we ended up beating time and making to Tacoma in only 10 hours. It was about 8 at night when we pulled into the parking lot of the hotel. We checked into a room and got settled in before doing anything else.

I walked out of the bathroom in a pair of black shorts, strapless white and blue floral print shirt and the same color blue sandals. My hair was pulled up in a top knot and I was ready for a SAMTAC party. I always heard SAMTAC knew how to throw a good ass party so I definitely going to enjoy this.

"Maybe you oughta sleep with him one more time before you give him the news. You are hot shit, Hanna Michelle!" I stood by the door as he put on his black converse.

"Well thank you, darling. I'm glad someone approves." I winked at him, glad he actually liked my outfit. "I'm so fucking nervous I don't know what to do."

"You'll be fine now get your hot ass in that car and lead the way!" He swatted at me and we walked out the hotel room. Pulling into the lot, I spotted all the motorcycles lined up and I swear this damn place mirrored Teller-Morrow.

SAMTAC used an automotive shop as their front, too, except they called the business Tacoma Automotive Repair Shop. I parked the car and we both got out of the car.

The first person I spotted was Lee Hill, SAMTAC's president. I hadn't seen him since my graduation party that Opie and Jax insisted on throwing. Lee was a nice guy, he was a lot like Chibs: very nice and calm until you threaten his safety, his brother's safety or his family's safety.

Me and Benji walked up to him and I hugged him. "Hi Uncle Lee. I'm looking for one of your Sons."

"How ya doin', baby girl? What'd he do to my sweet baby girl?" He looked between me and Benji, making me laugh.

"I'm good, doing good. This is my friend Ben, from school. I just needed to talk to him, only he can help me out with my current problem." I looked at Benji and noticed he was looking at the boxing ring behind Lee. I spotted Happy in the ring and nodded my head toward him. "There he is now… Thanks Uncle Lee."

Before he could say anything else, me and Benji walked off toward to the ring. "Maybe you should do this by yourself, I'm gonna mingle with them." He pointed toward a group of sweetbutts.

"Gee thanks, jerk. Tell them you're close with all the Sons and you might actually get a conversation out of them." I smirked at him; he gave me a confused look but still left me to fend for myself.

I saw Happy get out of the ring and get swarmed by sweetbutts and I just wanted to throw up. He walked into the clubhouse with no one, leaving all the little sweetbutts by the ring as he gathered his stuff. Now was my chance, I had to do this. I couldn't back out now.

I walked into the clubhouse and spotted Happy sitting at the bar so here it was, my chance. I had to talk to him , no matter what his opinion might be. So I walked up to him, pushing fear aside.

"I've been trying to get in touch with you… can we talk or something?" I stood beside Happy as he nursed a beer. I looked around the Tacoma clubhouse and saw a few patched members playing pool. I recognized a spiky, blonde-haired man but she chose not to address him. He'd been at the SAMCRO clubhouse a lot with Happy.

He looked at me in shock, almost falling off the stool he was sitting on. "What the fuck are you doing here? Did you come up here by yourself?" I shrugged and crossed my arms.

"Look, it's important. Can we just talk somewhere private?" Happy groaned and stood up, leading me toward his dorm room in the SAMTAC clubhouse. He reached his room and unlocked the door, he kicked the door closed with his boot and I could feel his dark eyes boring into me. I turned around to look at him and I swear he knew something was wrong. He looked me over a few times before his dark eyes met my eyes. "I'm sorry, I don't know how this happened… I mean I know but I thought we were at least smart about this."

"What is it, little girl?" I could hear the annoyance in his voice. Fuck…

I looked down at her hands and felt the tears I'd been trying to keep at bay roll down my cheeks. I looked back up at the tattooed man standing in front of me. "I'm pregnant…"

Happy felt a rush of anger wash through him. He felt like a dumbass, he was angry… but only at himself. He tried to read her emotions but she mostly looked remorseful and sad.

"Look, it was just a onetime thing…right? From what I know, I like you a lot and all, but I felt wrong keeping this from you." I just bowed my head again and waited for the yelling to begin.

I had heard plenty of things about Happy Lowman from Jax and Opie when we were growing up. He was a stone-cold killer, he didn't care about anything and he'd hurt you in an instance. I almost found that all amusing but only because I didn't want to believe that he was just so cold. We all admired Happy growing up; anyone that dedicated to protecting his friends had to be respected. I especially respected him, apart from the school girl crush I always had for him, I considered him a pretty genuine person. Every time he came around the SAMCRO clubhouse, he didn't have much to say but he'd always speak to me, he'd always keep his attention on me if I was at a party. And while it was kind of strange, I didn't mind. But those feelings were years old and now I'm stuck in a totally different place that I ever imagined with this man. We're trying to figure out what to do about the baby we conceived and I can't help but wonder how the hell we even got this far with each other.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck! Goddamn it, little girl." I watched Happy run a hand over his face; he sat down on his bed and put his head in his hands. "Goddamn it… I knew you'd be the death of me. Fuck. What do you want to do about it?" Happy looked up at me after taking a few deep breathes and I watched his entire demeanor change in an instant. "This was not a onetime thing and you know it…"

Confusion washed through my mind but I still stepped toward this man, still trying to stop my tears. I knelt down in front of him and pulled his hands into mine. "I'm sorry, Happy… I'm really sorry. I don't know… I just don't… I don't know." We stared at each other for a few minutes. "We can't keep it, it's a bad idea. Right? I mean I've heard about you and being a dad definitely doesn't sound like something you'd do." He stood up and walked over to one of his drawers and opened the top drawer. He grabbed the envelope and walked back toward me, handing me the envelope. I felt him watching me as I pulled a stack of cash out. "Uh what the hell? Are you sure this is what you want to do? If you want to do something else, you're free to speak up." I looked up at him and he shrugged his shoulders.

"I want you, kid. If it's mutual and some shit happens between us then our time will come again. This is right, Hanna. We don't know how to take care of a fuckin' kid. What the hell are we gonna do with a kid? Just fuck it up, ya know? This is the best solution I got for ya." I watched Happy take another deep breath before grabbing a pack of cigarettes out of his cut pocket, taking one out, instantly putting it between his lips, he lit it.

I nodded my head and stuck the envelope in my purse. "What do you mean it wasn't a onetime thing?"

He looked up at me and smirked. "You know damn good and well that you can't get me out of your mind, just like I can't get you out of mine. I came up here to try to push all that shit away but it only made shit worse."

I nodded my head again. "I guess so. I better go, don't want Lee to think I'm fucking you back here. I'll see ya around, right?"

"Yeah, kid, you will. I'll be back in the city on Saturday, maybe I'll come by." He stood up and jerked me toward him. "Stay out of trouble, kid."