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A Great Lost

Recap:

I miss her so much. I wish she would come back and take me and Hope with her so that Charlie won't beat me anymore and so her, Hope, and I could be happy again.

But that not is happening any time soon.

I heard Hope start crying and I wiped away the tears I never knew were falling.

Now I begin my day of hell.

I walked to my room and put on my clothes. Today I just wore my black tank, a black and white jacket, some black baggy pants, and my black and white Air Forces.

I made my way over to Hope's Room and picked her up. She was crying because she was hungry, as usual. I grabbed a bottle out of the mini fridge in her room and sat in the rocking chair and fed her.

She is about to be 2 years old now. She reminds me so much of my mom. She has light brown eyes like my mother, wavy brown hair, and a heart shape face.

Most people think she's my daughter when they see her. But I know she's not, she's my sister even though she calls me mommy.

She doesn't like Charlie, but he is never home of take care of her or even watches her.

So it really doesn't matter any way because when I graduate this year Hope and I are going to live with my mother…. Where I will never have to see Charlie again.

I love Hope like my own daughter and I never will let her go.

I don't think she will ever stop calling me mommy even if we do go live with my mother.

But its okay I will always love her no matter what.

I looked down at Hope and saw that she was sleeping. She looked so peaceful and happy.

I walked to my room and placed her on my bed.

I looked in my closet and grabbed her a cute little dress to wear. It was brown and pink, it was my favorite dress on her.

"Hope baby wake up time to put on your clothes for school" I said I picked her up.

She rubbed her little eyes and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"Good mornin' mommy" she said sweetly.

"Good Morning sweetie. Put Your arms up so mommy can put on your pretty dress."

She did as I said and put her arms up so I could put on her dress.

I put on her little sandals and grabbed her hand.

"Mommy I want Fruit Woops for breakfast." she said.

"Okay sweetie lets go to the kitchen and get some." I smiled at her.

I sat her in her seat and grabbed her bowl and spoon. I grabbed the cereal and poured it in the bowl with some milk.

"Here you go sweetie. Do you want some orange juice?"

"No mommy I want grappie juice."

I got her some grape juice and poured it in her sipppy cup. I handed her the cup.

"Thank you mommy."

I made myself some cereal as well and ate and watched her eat.

"Alright Hope its time to go. Go get your book bag so we can go."

She ran out of the kitchen and wobbled up the stairs.

I grabbed my keys, purse, and book bag and walked to the front door.

A minute later Hope was behind me.

She put up her little hands for me to hold her. I grabbed her and we walked out to the car.

I was dropping Hope of at her day care and I saw that guy again.

"Hey Bella you look good today."

"What ever Heath I'm trying to take Hope to school so can you please leave us alone?"

"Okay but I'll see you later mommy dearest."

Ugh. I hated him. He was always trying to get me to go out with him. He was really annoying me lately and I am about ready to beat his ass.

Hope walked into her day care and waved.

"Bye mommy I wove you."

"I love you to sweetie see you this afternoon."

I got in my car and drove to school.

""Hey Bella you look hot. Want to go make another daughter." Mike asked.

"Hell No! Damn Mike why won't you leave me the hell alone. I don't like you okay and I will never have sex with you!!" I yelled at him.

"What ever Bella I'm going to get some from you soon. Shit I know your not a virgin."I so fucking hate him so much.

So I kicked him in the balls.

"Ahhh shit Bella what the fuck is wrong with you!"

"Nothing is wrong with me dick! And yes dick I am a virgin."I walked away.

I went to first period and all eyes were on me but I didn't care. I sat in my seat and listened to the teacher but I didn't care I had already learned this stuff in 9th grade at another school.

My morning periods were boring and I wasn't really paying attention. All of my grades where up to part and If I didn't pay attention in class for a day wouldn't bring down my 4.0 average.

I walked in the lunch line and grabbed an apple and a bottle of water and walked over to my normal table.

"Hey Angela was up?"

"Nothing just wondering why you kicked Mike in the balls?"

"I did it because he asked me to have sex with him again and he said we would make another daughter oh and that I wasn't a virgin."

"I'm so sorry Bella. He is always wearing his dick for a hat.(my saying!!) Ugh! I just hate him." Angela went with him one and he tried to get her to have sex with him and she said no so he had sex with her ex best friend Jessica.

"I know and Jessica and Lauren act like nobody knows about them having sex with every guy on the football team." Lauren was Jessica's follower they were both on the cheerleading team but neither of them was the captain.

"Yeah. There both just a bunch of hoes without leeches." (my saying. No stealing!!)

"It doesn't matter anymore Jessica's pregnant and is afraid to tell Mike anyway." I sad so nonchalantly.

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah.. I umm fell the other day and had to go to the hospital and I saw her there and she was all scared and stuff because the doctor had just told her she was pregnant while she was getting a check up."

"Wow. Wonder what Mike is going to do when he finds out"

"The same thing he has always did. Not care and still have sex."

The bell rang and I said goodbye to Angela and went to Biology.

My afternoon classes were a drag and I just kind of dozed off in my thoughts about Hope and I when we left Forks.

I really want to leave Forks and go live with my mother. I can't wait until I see her again. I haven't seen my mom in 2years and I love her. I not only want to leave because I want to see her but I need to get away from Charlie.

I would call the cops on him but..

He is the cops and calling his office just to tell them he is beating me wouldn't work.

They would probably just say I'm crazy and that Charlie puts people in jail like that not them putting him in jail.

But it doesn't matter anymore I am going to get away from him someday.

My last class was over and I went out to my Ford to go pick up Hope.

Charlie bought me a Ford F-150 last year for my birthday- Which was the day before he started beating me.

I made my way over to the truck and drove off to pick hope. I pulled up to her day care and walked to the door.

"Mommy!!" She ran and jumped in my arms.

"Hey baby. How was your day at school?" she kissed me on the cheek.

"It was good. We pwayed outside today mommy." I sat her in her seat and buckled her up.

I got in the driver's seat and turned on the car.

"Mommy can you pway Veggie Twales on TB."

"Okay sweetie"

"Thank you mommy" I turned on Veggie Tales and hope started singing the theme song.

I love Hope so much and no matter how I try she always ends up calling me mommy.

Even though I love it when she calls me that I don't ever want to takes my mother's place.

I got home and brought hope in the house.

She ran upstairs to go put her book bag up and I went in the kitchen to make her a snack.

I cut up her favorite snack which was green apples.

I handed her snack.

"Thank you mommy."I picked her up and placed her in her seat.

I walked off into the living room where I found to beer cans sitting on the floor.

Ugh. Sometimes I wish I could just kill Charlie he leaves beer cans in the living room knowing that Hope could get hurt.

Hope walked in the living room and I put in the Veggie Tales DVD and she jumped up and my lap and cuddle to me.

After about an hour of watching Veggie Tales she fell asleep.

I walked upstairs and laid her in her bed and watched her fall asleep so peacefully.

I walked into my room and my cell phone started ringing.

"Hello"

"Hi is this Isabella Swan?"

"Yes this is her may I ask who is speaking?"

"Yes this is Dr. Cullen from the Seattle Hospital. I have something important to tell you are you sitting down?"

"Yes Sir I am now. What is so important?"

"I'm sorry mam' but your mother is in fatal condition."

"Wh-what she can't be hu-hurt she just called me 3days ago."

"I'm sorry but she has been in a fatal car accident."

"No no no, this can't be happening. She can't be."

"I'm sorry mam' but she is. Could you please come out to the hospital she would like to see you."

"I'm on my way thank you Dr. Cullen"

I hurried up and I grabbed my purse and keys I picked up Hope she squirmed but stayed asleep.

I put her in her car seat and jumped in the front seat I drove as fast as I could to the hospital.

I grabbed my things and Hope and ran into the Emergency Room.

"Hello I am here to see Renee Swan."

"Thank you nurse I will take it from here" I man said from behind me.

"Hello I am Dr. Cullen the man who called you. If you will follow me I will take you to your mother."

"Okay."

I followed the man with Hope in my arms and we came to a stop in front of a room.

"This is your mother's room you may go inside now."

I walked inside and there I saw my mother lying in the hospital bed with all these bruises.

I wanted to kiss away every one of her pains.

"Bella come here sweetie."

I walked over to my mother with Hope in my arms and sat in the seat next to her bed.

"Sweetie you've grown up so much you're a woman now. I love you sweetie. You and Hope are so beautiful and I love you both so much."

Hope started to wake up and she saw my mother. She immediately wanted her mother to hold her.

I carefully placed Hope in my mother's arms.

"Hi Hope do you remember me I'm your mommy."

"Hi mommy you're pretty."

"Your pretty to Hope. Always know this sweetie I love you and I don't want anything to happen to you okay."

"Okay mommy."She kissed my mother on the cheek and my mother kissed her on hers.

I picked Hope back up and placed her in my arms.

"Bella what is that on your arm?"

Oh No. She saw my bruise. "Oh nothing mom I just fell and hurt myself it's not that bad."

"Let me see it sweetie."

I slowly removed my jacket off my arm and showed my mother.

"Oh no he's beating you. Something told me her wasn't going to stop. How could I leave you with that monster? I am so sorry sweetie."

"What are you talking about mom?" I started crying without my awareness.

"Baby the reason I left is because Charlie was beating me but I would never think he would do it to his own child. I am so sorry sweetie. I wish I could have taken you with me. Did he hit hope?"

I looked down to see a sleeping Hope with her thumb in her mouth. "No he never associated with him. I don't even think she knows who he is."

"Oh that is so good. Sweetie I have something to tell you."

"What mom?"

"I love you sweetie and I always will. I have never forgotten about you and I never will."

"What are you talking about mom?"

Her eyes closed and a smile appeared on her face and the heart monitor made one last beep and she was gone.

"No no no this can't be happening. Why me Lord why he. I love her so much god why did you have to take one of the last good things in my life. God why do you hate me I thought I was one of your children Lord. I'll repent I won't curse anymore I'll do anything but please just bring back my mother."

That was all it took I put hope in the chair and I fell to the floor. I started crying. I cried for me I cried for my mother. I cried for Charlie beating me I cried for everything. I cried for Hope I cried for life.

I felt a hand place itself on my back and I just kept crying.

"I'm so sorry sweet heart your mother told me to tell if she did die that all her money goes to you and that she wanted you to come live with me."

I turned my head to look into the strangers eyes and it was Dr. Cullen.

I am so confused how she could leave me with a stranger.

I followed the stranger in his car to his house.

When we arrived the house was so beautiful.

"Come on Isabella come inside and meet my family."

I followed Dr. Cullen inside of his house.

"Isabella this is my wife Esme."

"Hello Isabella and who is this child in your arms?"

"Its Bella and this is my little sister Hope."

"May I hold her. I can take her upstairs and she can lay in my bed and sleep?"

"Thank you Esme that would be very kind of you." I handed her my life ever so carefully so that she wouldn't wake.

"Hi my name is Alice were going to be the best of sisters Bella."

I looked at the short pixie girl odly. She was beautiful but not in a beauty like Esme but in her own beauty.

"Don't scare her away Alice she just got here."

"Its okay Dr. Cullen I'm not afraid. Hello Alice I hope that we do." She ran up to me and gave me a hug.

Then from behind me i felt someone pick me up in a bear hug.

"I can't breath."

"Emmet put her down." I looked over and saw a beautiful blonde girl. I turned my head to see who she was scowling at and there behind me was the huge guy who was very muscular.

"I'm sorry Bella I got a little carried away. But I'm Emmet and its nice to meet you"

"Its okay my name is Bella."

"Hello Bella my name is Jasper."

I turned around and saw Jasper he was nicely built but not like Emmet.

"Hello Jasper it is nice to meet you."

I turned my head and faced the stairs and I saw the most beautiful man on earth.

"Hello Bella my name is Edward."

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