Thanx for the reviews! I lied, this chapter didnt take as long as I thought it would.
Song is Someday by NiNa.
I still dont own Naruto. :(
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It had been 6 years. Six long, saddened years full of waiting and nighttime desires. Though the strawberry haired 18 year old would never admit them. Not even to herself.
Someday, you're gonna realize. One day you'll see this through my eyes.
Cold. She had become so cold. The Uchiha had rejected her, like always. He had cut her so deep. Too deep. She felt she was beyond fixing. She still thought about him. Actually, she thought about him too much for her own comfort. After he left, she felt the only way to cope and heal was to never let anyone else in that far again. Even Naruto barley knew her anymore. If and when Sasuke ever came back, it was all going to come back to him. She would give him back all of the cold, the hate and the constant rejection. It would be his price to pay for hurting her so badly. She would teach him what he taught her all to well. To shut off. From everyone and everything.
By then I wont even be there, I'll be happy somewhere, even if I cared.
She wouldn't wait any longer. She couldn't. Living a lie of wishing for his return, his touch, his scent, his face, she even missed his cold words. She missed him. Though she tried to tell herself that she didn't care, she did, and she knew it. But when he did ever return, she wouldn't be there congratulating him on a job well done, she wouldn't ask him if he was ok, she wouldn't fall over his every word like before. She did not revolve around him anymore.
I know, you don't really see my worth. You think you're the last guy on earth.
Annoying. How many times had he told her that was all she was to him? A burden, a distraction, a road block to his goal, a nuisance. She was trash to him and she knew it. She was there when he wanted her, but she had to know when to fuck off when he didn't. She was just some doll for him to play with and then throw aside. He was still her everything though. The last thing she thought of at night before she closed her eyes to the world, and the first thing on her mind in the morning. His personality wasn't his downfall. Oh, no. She loved him. It was his arrogance, his ego, his confidence. He always had to do everything by himself. And in that mind of his it was all about him.
Well I've got news for you. And no I'm not that strong. But it won't take long, won't take long.
And she had tried to change him. Show him that his ways would lead to nothing but destruction, loneliness and anger. Isolation. It was his lifestyle choice, and he seemed to like it. She had tried and tried and tried. But continually he'd break whatever they shared and walk away. No matter how far she cracked him open, he didn't change. He never would.
Cuz someday someone's gonna love me the way I wanted you to need me.
She knew she should find someone else. She had other options, being as beautiful as she was. Other men that would love and care for her in ways Sasuke never could. Gentile, kind, romantic, thoughtful. But none of them were him. Not the one that she wanted. She didn't care if life with him was a rocky path, or that she would most likely stumble on her way. It was the only option for her. He was her only option.
Someday, someone's gonna take you're place. One day I'll forget about you. You'll see I won't even miss you. Someday, someday…
He was a double edged sword to her. She would die if he didn't come back but she would still be damaged if he did. She hoped either way that eventually she would forget about him, thought her scars were too deep to ever forget what he'd done to her. But…really, no matter how much she wanted to forget him, she knew she never could. She would die with him on her mind. So much of her being relied upon him. If he really left her so would the majority of her sanity, her emotions, her existence.
Right now, I know you can tell. I'm down and 'im not doing well.
She used to be so weak. So incredibly weak. He ruined her. She was so fragile now. So easily mislead. So easily withdrawn. She was scared of herself. Of how shed react, what her next move was. She was so unpredictable. It was his doing, and it was to be her undoing. She used to be a pushover, and Sasuke knew that also. But she had become stronger since he left, she had to be strong. Build a shell.
But one day these tears they will all run dry, I won't have to cry sweet goodbye.
She really hoped one day shed get over him, stop believing in him, stop crying for him. She thought she didn't need him anymore. Why was it that she was so forgiving? Why couldn't she see that he was never going to act that way that she wanted him to? Why couldn't she see that he wasn't right for her?
Cuz someday someone's gonna love me the way I wanted you to need me.
Someday, someone's gonna take you're place. One day i'll forget about you. You'll see I won't even miss you. Someday, someday…
Maybe because he was. Maybe he was perfect for her. Maybe she could crack him open and get to him. Maybe she could see through him. Maybe she wanted him more that she could ever understand. She was lying to herself, though she'd never admit it.
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