Riku stared at his sleeping roommate's back, lost in his thoughts. He was pissed, he couldn't lie to himself. Sora teased him endlessly without even realizing. For such an innocent looking kid the boy could be a sadistic bastard; laying there on top of the sheets wearing just his boxers, tempting the older boy with all the unvoiced possibilities. It was pure evil Riku thought. Pure, downright, Ansem-worthy, heartless, evil. Every time Riku made a move Sora would put him down and then do something like this.

Sora had admitted his feelings for Riku when he did but something always kept him holding back. It drove Riku crazy. Anymore it was like the other boy didn't even physically exist. The two of them barely talked and rarely met eyes. All Riku had was his thoughts for company and he didn't like what he found. He needed Sora now. Sora helped him see the light in the dark. No, Sora WAS the light in the dark. Riku had had enough of living in himself, was sick of being so damn numb. If something didn't come from all this soon he was leaving again. He would get out of here and save himself from the pain that he did or didn't deserve and find somewhere else.

He stretched a hand out and shook the other boy's arm hard. At the moment he really didn't care about being nice or polite. It was now or never and he wanted answers. They had gone through too much together to be left alone now. Sora was in this just as much as he was.

"What do you want?" The younger boy didn't sound aggravated, much to Riku's surprise. He had known this was coming. Had he even been asleep?

"You know what I want. I want you to finally give me a straight answer. I'm not putting up with this bull much longer so you better talk and talk fast."

"What do you want me to say Riku? You want me to tell you everything? You want me to hurt you?"

"Yes." He braced himself, this was it. This was exactly what he needed to hear. They were good together, couldn't be denied, but they were losing themselves.

"When we came back….I thought things would go back to the way it used to be. Stupid little kid dream, I know, but I couldn't help but hope. We've grown up Riku; this kind of stuff isn't a game. Finding you was everything to me. Now what do I do? Why am I here huh? No heartless running around. No nobodies. Nothing. I have no reason to be here and you just sit there watching. I keep trying to bring it up to get some advice or something but silent brooding Riku just sits there and stares."

Riku sighed; he never had been a good listener. Action was all he knew. It was good to sit and talk about things but unless you acted on them they remained just empty words.

"Sora….I'm sorry. We're not innocent little kids anymore. It's hard going back to "normal" life, whatever the hell that is. I don't really have a purpose either do I? All I've ever been was a puppet and now that I don't have to follow anyone's orders I don't know what to do with myself. But…..we have each other right? We've always had each other. So maybe….our purpose is to find one together. Damn, sorry. That made no sense."

Sora turned around and looked at him. "It did," he smiled.

Riku decided that hanging around another day or two wasn't such a bad idea after all.