A/N: Ok I know a real writer would not worry about people's thoughts on the things they write as much as I do, but I am going crazy here. I hate to ask people to review because I know I used to hate doing it, but if you enjoy my fic please review I go insane not knowing what people are thinking. It is idiotic I know, but it is something that cannot be helped. Anyway, hope you enjoy this chapter…
Listening to- Eh, Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) by: Lady Gaga
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That night I watched Sirius sleep. Something about our conversation earlier was just bothering me somehow and I could not quite place my finger on it.
He was lucky unlike me that he never talked in his sleep. Even though Sirius enjoyed that about me, I would think that sometimes it could get people into trouble.
I ran my fingertips through his hair and it did not seem to bother him in the least. He was always such a deep sleeper.
I decided to finally go to sleep and that the sickening feeling at the pit of my stomach was nothing. That was until Sirius started to mumble something. I could not quite understand it so I leaned closer until his lips were right beside my ear.
"Ja…m…es" that was it right there. That sickening feeling I had, had. Of course, it was more than just a sickening feeling now; it was as though someone clawed out my heart and filled it with heavy weights.
The rest of the night, I could not sleep, I had not even moved from my spot where I leaned over to hear him better. When the sun finally rose, I was able to move, and I did not just go downstairs, I went out the front door, ran, and ran not stopping for anything.
Hours had passed before I even considered heading back.
When I finally got back, the sun was directly above me and I had sweat dripping down my face onto my already soaked shirt.
I walked in as calmly as I could and hoped no one would ask many questions, but I knew that was not going to happen.
As I came further in I noticed Ron and Hermione in the drawing room as I passed I waved, but did not stop to hear what Ron had to say. I peeked into the kitchen and saw Remus, but no Tonks.
"Harry, you just get back?" Remus asked right before I slipped past him.
"Yeah, just um… felt like a run I guess." I tried to leave again, but he started talking once more.
"Are you okay Harry?"
"I am fine. By the way where is Tonks?" that finally distracted him from as he started explaining that he needed some rest from the missions for awhile so Tonks was taking his place.
When he finally stopped talking, I hurried upstairs, but stopped when I reached the door to Sirius's room. I was not sure if I should go in or not, but I had to act as normal as possible.
When I came in Sirius was getting dressed. I sighed in relief he would be leaving soon.
"Hey love… Where you go?" he looked me up and down which probably should have given it away, but he did not seem satisfied.
"I felt really good this morning so I felt like a run." He smiled brightly and it nearly crushed me, but I had to stay strong.
"Sorry we didn't get to finish what we started last night, love, but I have to go speak to Dumbledore."
"It's alright I was exhausted last night too." He kissed me on the lips gently and then walked out the door, but right before I shut it behind him Sirius popped his head back in and said, "You have another letter from Draco. I left it on the bed." He pointed to it and left once again
I sat down on the bed and opened Draco's letter.
Harry,
I know I have been asking you all summer and you always give me the same answer, but I was wondering if you had heard from Hermione. Or any news about her?
By the way, I will be coming back to Hogwarts this year, but I will not be able to have any contact with any of you unless it is through the post or everyone else is at Hogsmede.
Draco M.
I was not sure if I should tell him about Ron and Hermione yet, but I figured I could at least tell him she was here. Maybe that way the letters would come less frequently… hopefully.
I got out some parchment and a quill and started writing Draco back.
Draco,
Hermione is actually here. She will be staying until we can go back to Hogwarts. I have not spoken to her yet so I am not sure how she is, but she seems fine.
Harry P.
I gave it to Hedwig and she left right away. I was not sure what I was going to do about Hermione yet, but I figured I could give her a little more time before I hounded her with questions.
What was with her being with Ron anyway? I told Hermione that Draco did in fact love her so what was she thinking?
I was about to go back downstairs when someone knocked at the door.
"Come in." Remus stepped through the door and looked around suspiciously as if I was hiding someone in here.
"Nymphadora told me that you two were supposed to get your books today?"
"Yeah, but I am kind of tired… didn't get much sleep last night." He looked relieved and worried. I knew a ton of more questions were about to come up.
Remus sat down beside me on the bed and seemed like he felt very awkward even being in this room.
"Have you still been having the dreams, Harry?"
"No I haven't actually. Just didn't get much sleep that's all."
"If you didn't get much sleep than why did you go out running this morning instead of staying in?" he knew something was going on, but I hoped he would not catch on.
"Just needed to run." He nodded and then stared at me for a long moment before he started talking again.
"If you need anything please come to us. Sirius really worries about you when you are acting like this so at least go to him if you don't feel you can come to any of us." I nodded in response and tried to pull off the best fake smile I could. He could see straight through it.
He finally sighed and got up.
"You should get some sleep Harry." As he started to leave, I jumped up and he turned around to see what was wrong.
"What was your relationship with my mother?" I was not sure where that question came from because I really wanted to ask about my father and Sirius.
"Well…" he sighed again and leaned against the doorframe. I just stood there watching him.
"Your mother had been my only other serious girlfriend before Nymphadora. However after we met James and Sirius we started to drift apart and that's when she fell in love with your father." We stood there for a very long moment trying to decide what to say next.
"Is that all Harry?" I nodded and he left as quickly as he could.
I had not been expecting that answer in the least. I could not believe that Remus and my mother had actually been in a relationship and what exactly did that mean about my father and Sirius? They could not have been in a relationship as well… could they of?
I tried to get it all out of my mind so I took a hot shower and laid down with my knees curled up to my chest.
Without knowing it, I had fallen asleep and when I woke up it was to a loud bang outside the bathroom door. It took me awhile to remember where I was and then even longer why I was there, but when it all came back to me the impact of it all was much, much worse.
I wasn't sure what the bang had been, but I didn't really care. I finally got out of the now freezing water and pulled on my boxers.
When I got out of the bathroom, I saw Sirius laying there in bed fast asleep in nothing but his boxers. The rest of his clothes were in a pile beside the bed. I picked them up to put them away, but when I did, I felt something wet. I turned the shirt over and saw a huge blood stain on the side that dripped all the way down to the edge. His pants had an identical bloodstain on the same side.
I went over to look at Sirius more clearly and sure enough there was a huge gash down his right side. Even though I still wasn't sure why he had been calling out my father's name in his sleep, I wanted to be as close to him as I could now.
I crawled into bed and stared at Sirius's sleepy face for a while.
"Sirius?" it took awhile, but he finally opened his eyes and smiled at me.
"Nice shower?" I nodded and he scooted over so he could lay his head on my chest. Soon after, he fell asleep again. I however, could not sleep at all now.
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A/N: PLEASE, PLEASE REVIEW! Anyway, I hoped everyone enjoyed this chapter. I got distracted during the middle of this because of this incredibly hot guy sitting down in front of me in the library… Lol anyway see you next chapter.