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If only I knew you.
Chapter 2
-Jason-
Four years later.
I reached up and removed the glasses from my face rubbing away the sleep from my eyes. "Just hit print and send, and go to sleep Jason. You have work in the morning." I advised myself out loud. "Wow, you seriously need a life. It's 1 Am on a Friday night and you're about go to sleep." I laughed as I finished up my term paper. I sighed turning off my laptop and the television, taking my glasses off and placing them on the coffee table. I was on the verge of sleep just as my home phone rang. I fell off the couch grabbing for my glasses and cordless at the same time. "Hello?" I asked looking at the unknown caller I.D.
"I'm going to kill myself." A raspy voice came from the other side.
"No, please don't do that! That's a bad Idea! Really bad! J-J-just d-d-don't do it." I replied panicking, causing the stutter I thought I had left behind back into my normally calm voice.
"Why? No one loves me. Especially since I found out I was gay, not my mom not my dad, No one." He replied.
The gears in my brain began running on overdrive. "You're gay! That's no problem! Don't kill yourself! Research shows that every time someone finds out that's w-w-what they're into s-s-someone else finds the same thing out! P-p-plus you p-p-probably live by yourself anyway! F-f-forget your parents anyway! G-go to an Elton John c-concert or something! B-b-branch out! You'll find someone."
"Thanks Pal, because of you I have a reason to live."
"T-t-that's g-g-great now put the phone d-d-down and go m-meet s-some guys a-a-alright? And have a d-drink for me too." I replied laying down on my sofa/bed.
"Thanks Pal, will do. Good night." Was the last thing they said before hanging up.
"G-g-good f-freaking night." I replied sarcastically before putting the phone and my glasses back on to the coffee table. I let the sensation of sleep take me over again. I was just about to fall into slumber as the phone went off again.
"Hello?" I asked trying to stay calm.
"Hey can I talk to you?" The voice came through scared and young.
"Yeah, yeah go ahead I'm listening." I stated getting up to splash my face with some water.
"My girlfriend just broke up with me, I want to kill myself." The voice came back sounding even younger.
I couldn't help but laugh. "Thanks for caring jerk." The voice replied.
"No, No it's just, what are you like 11? 12?-"
"13." The kid cut me off.
"Alright 13, you know what I was doing back then?"
"What?"
"I was pursuing my dream of being a superhero; I tried saving a cat from a tree. It didn't work out; I fell and broke my arm." I paused as laughter came from the other side. "See the thing I thought I was going to stick with forever just fell right out of a tree along with my dignity. But I didn't decide that I was going to kill myself; I just started running after the next train you know? That's basically what relationships are, one doesn't work out there's always another. Alright and don't stress about relationships, I'm serious I'm like 20 some graduating from college, and I'm honestly not completely hideous but I've still never been in a serious relationship in my life ever. But my brother on the other hand knew he found the girl he was going to marry when he was 17, but that's the thing with love some find it soon some find it later, and some like me decide a dog is less commitment and stick to that. Alright kid?" I sat down on my sofa as I finished up.
"Yeah I think I get it, thanks dude. And don't worry as pathetic as you sound you'll find love." He replied sounding happier this time.
"Alright well take it easy kid, night."
"Good night." He replied hanging up on me.
I sat up awake for an hour or so waiting for any more calls before finally trying my luck at sleeping again.
I cursed as the phone rang just as I had laid my head down.
"Don't tell me you want to kill yourself too?"
"Yeah-" The other person began as I cut him off.
"Don't tell me? You're 11 and your goldfish died? Or are you Gay and lonely too?" I asked angrily.
"No it's just no one loves me, it wouldn't matter if I died." He replied.
"You are right! So right! If you died no one would care, it's my heartfelt request that you kill yourself!" I replied angry towards the fact that I hadn't slept in what felt like months.
"You're wrong man, my mom would miss me! My girlfriend would miss me! My brother, my father, my sister would miss me! And you know what screw you because I'm going to live." The voice replied hanging up the phone.
"Why do you hate me?" I stated falling back onto the sofa after about 5 other "suicide" calls. "I swear when I find whoever is doing this, I'm seriously going to hurt them." I promised to no one in particular, as I closed my eyes, as the first rays of sunshine climbed above the horizon. The phone rang again, as I sat up to pick up the phone. "If you want to kill yourself go right ahead. You have my heartfelt request, heck I'll come down there and I will personally assist you in blowing your brains out." I growled.
"Geez Jason, I guess now isn't a good time?" Sam worried voice came through from the other side.
"Is it some one's time of the month?" Josh asked laughing from the other side of the call.
"No, now is fine it was just kind of a rough night." I sighed.
"Why what's up kiddo?" Josh asked concerned.
"Nothing just slept wrong. It's seriously nothing, what's up with you guys?" I replied rubbing away my sleep.
"Oh nothing we just heard someone's last term at collage ended." Sam replied happily.
"Yeah it did" I answered going to my closet to pick out what I was going to wear today.
"So when can we expect our Jasey Wasey back home again?" Josh joked.
"Well I have some extended classes I have to attend yet, and I have to stay here long enough to renew my lease. And there's something else I need to be here for a bit longer." I answered.
"Jason! You promised you'd be back for prom!" Sam complained.
"Sam I promise I won't miss your senior prom, promise. And I sent extra money so get the most amazing dress you find; don't even worry about what Josh says alright? And I'll send some more so you and your friend can rent a limo, alright?"
"Jason! You seriously are the best, I love you, but I've got to go, it's late here and I'm tired, so good morning" Sam stated her smile evident in her voice.
"Alright night Kiddo, Pass the phone to Josh will you?" I asked.
"You need to stop spoiling them you know that right?" Josh warned.
"Josh, don't worry about it. I'm working on something big, if it comes through our lives will change forever. Trust me Josh."
"Jason I trust you, but if it doesn't work out then-"
"It will Josh, don't worry, but don't worry I have another back up." I replied.
"Look that's what someone else said, alright? And we're still waiting on 'em." Josh was going into bitter mode again.
"I'm not Dad, I keep my promises. And I'm never going to disappear on Sam or Davy."
"I know, I just can't help it sometimes you know? I keep having nightmares about you giving them these amazing dreams and making them happen, and then bam one day you just turn your back on us. It's scary you know?"
"Josh I promise I'm not going anywhere, ever. Anyway how are mom and Emily?"
"They're both good, mom is still upset with you."
"Yeah, I guess she would be, but hey I have to get ready for work alright bro? I'll call you tonight."
"Yeah, yeah no problem Jase. Just come back soon we all miss you."
"I will I promise, and I expect to be invited to the wedding soon. Take it easy bro, good night." I finished.
"Good morning kiddo." He laughed hanging up.