Life is a book
You have new chapters
Sometimes there happy
Sometimes there sad
Suspenseful,yes
Your heart just sinks from your chest
Even the Ending
So ask yourself
Do I want a happy ending?

Kaymay4ever~Quizilla~Happy Ending?

The thoughts inside my head
Stay exactly where they are
My feelings are never said
I still can't progress that far
Rejection,being misunderstood
Reasons why my mouth is closed
If letting go was easy I would
Yet never are my words exposed
Engulfed in my own misery
I distance myself from the world
Outside with others is a mystery
And it's leaving behind this girl
I need someone,anyone to appear
Please answer my unheard plea
The silent screams you have to hear
Break my cage and set me free

Shamalama9~Quizilla~Unheard plea

The hating games

The love affairs

The hurt and pain

They must share

But they don't say

They're hurt

Besides that will mean they lost

A bet where no one wins

Tell me, are you satisfied with this?

Chapter 1

On the bright side, I see myself Happy.

I want to be there, making them proud.

But how can I when I'm full of doubt?

Sometimes life has a secret, and it doesn't want to let you know what that secret is. So it does everything on it's power to make you look. It plays with you, a game of hide and seek. A hate and love game. Until it's too late, and in the end it was all your fault. Life gave you a door, the door you were looking for, trying to unfold that secret that it hides. But you were blinded to look straight. So you kept walking until you came to a bad sign telling you to stop, but you didn't saw through it. You just looked at it without thinking what it meant. What it was doing there. Why did it made you look. You just shrugged it off and kept on walking until it was too late. Way too late to realize your mistake.

Maybe that is why life is so complicated. Maybe that is why life has it's ups and downs. We're blinded through a fog that makes you do things that you don't want to do. In the end, everything you do, everything that you were fighting for without knowing, everything you were looking for without thinking, came and crashed with the floor, like a diamond making contact with a rock braking into little tiny pieces in front of your eyes.

Now you have to look forward and start a new life, or try and fix the other one you left behind.

January 17

On the bright side

H.T.

I closed my notebook, looking at the cover in the end. As I ask my self why I even bother to walk, or breath the air I take in my lungs every minute. Why is life complicated? I can't stand it. I get, no I am way to sick of life. It hurts to breath. It hurts me and badly. Knowing I have no purpose. But as I wrote on the only thing that has been there through the good and bad, We're blinded through a fog that makes you do things that you don't want to do. I know I'm blinded, in a cage without an exit, a cage inside my own self, looking for an answer that doesn't come and wont come. Ever. It's hard. And it hurts. Sometimes I just want to end it all, but I know, something, someone needs me out there. But who?

So many questions that have no answer. And won't be answered until it's too late. I hate it. Oh by the way, I hate A LOT of things. Like for example, that I'm not a normal teenager, or that I have no pets. I hate it! I hate my family! My house, the place I live in, you name it! But mostly, I hate haters, so must hate myself. That sounds nice actually, because it's true. The number one thing that I hate is; me.

It's pretty simple actually, now before you go and search your brain for an answer that you won't find, I'll waste my time on answering it for you. Yes, you better feel special. Any way; I hate how I look. I'm ugly. My voice is ugly, my body. Now I think I said too much. Mostly; everything about me says I am a monster. That I am an ugly beast. And I admit it. I am an ugly beast. He said it too. Now I totally know I've said too much.

How's the weather? Is it good? Here in Karakura, it's hot. I hate the heat. It's nasty!

You know, I've realized that I really need a life. The problem is that I don't have one...wait, is that why I need to look for one? Gosh, this is so confusing!

"TOUSHIROU! COME DOWN HERE THIS INSTANT!" Yup that's my uncle. He he,scary~ isn't he? "TOUSHIROU! YOU HAVE TWO MORE SECONDS UNTIL I COME UP THERE AND GET YOU MYSELF!" Shoot!

I rapidly took my Ipod, and Ipad downstairs, until I reached the front door. Did I told you I was going to school? After being home schooled almost all my life? Isn't that exciting? Oh, also please note the sarcasm on that sentence.

"Now, you better be back by six, no more late or your grounded. Understood?" If he screams one more time, I swear I will reap his tongue out.

"Yes, Kenpachi. I understood." I took the bag pack, and threw it on my shoulder, soon we were walking towards a big black shiny truck. When I mean big, I mean like those huge scary trucks. I even had to jump to get on the damn seat. Damn my height.

Whilst listening to my Ipod, we came to a stop at Karakura High. I was pushed out of the truck, falling onto my bottom.

'Well, I need to get going now, or else I'll end up on boot camp. Maybe, that will be better than here.' I thought silently, while walking towards the school grounds.

I entered the school. And soon I was spinning around looking at the walls, ceiling, even the floor! It was all so beautiful! Not. It was like walking to my worst nightmare! I found the office, more sooner than I expected. After I took my schedule, I had to go through all the school while looking at all my classes.

1st Period: A.P. Calculus

2nd P: A.P. English (

3rd P: A.

4th P: P.E.

Lunch

6thP: Government

7thP: A.P. Auto

This was going to be a heck of a boring year I bet. As I walked the corridors of the school, I founded where all my classes were, besides of A.P. Auto, wich was the one I was looking for at the moment. It was on the last floor, and the last door on the right side of the hall way.

I took a deep breath to calm my nerves down. I knocked on the door, and the Teacher told me to come in.

"Class, please welcome our new student, Hitsugaya Toushirou." The teacher announced.

Why, oh why, did I have to get attention now? I looked around the room for a few seconds until my eyes stoped to look at deep Violet ones, though soon I was looking at the floor, my bangs hiding most of my face. I was way too ugly, to be looked at. Though, something in those eyes, called me, they invited me. They made me feel this tingly feeling. Oh, but I should have had known better, Looks can be deacieving, and how right was that was. I never knew, that life would hold this against me. Life wanted me to fins this new secret that it hold. Now, my life has a new chapter, new sentences, new adventures. But then again, I was blinded by fog, and if I step on the wrong path; I know everything that I will fight and fought will be for nothing.

Life is like a book

The pages are like the days you live through

The chapters are the new secrets to be told

All you have to do

Is let life take it's course.

I actually was supposed to describe how Toushirou really looked like on this chapter... but for some odd reason this came. Im sorry that I keep on repeating my self! Im really trying to get better at writting! :) Also, the letter, I belive it didn't make sence o.O I mean, seriusly? Anyways, Toushirou's life will make sence later on, and on the prologue, if you remember It was on Rukia's pov. thinking how he really was a 'self sentered' person and stuff. Well that really is a big part that plays on here, so please keep it on your mind :) oh! Everything will start t make sence after some of the chapters are released :D Yesh, sorry for the delay I was just waiting for the right moment...yeah Im weird. Also, if you have any questions please ask. I didn't really like this chapter... but Im way too tired to re-write it. Bye bye! R&R! :3

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