Recap: They nodded then went off and started doing shots; the time flied & soon everyone was here. The last person to arrive was Mike, when he walked in; he saw me and looked down.
Mike: Yo, what up?
He yelled and started asking who he was rooming with; as soon as everyone said he was with himself he jumped for joy. Ugh, he makes me sick. He stared at me for a long time before going upstairs, Vinny came over and hugged me as Ron got up; Vin kissed my forehead and said
Vin: Are you okay being here?
I stood up & got pissed everyone asked me that; I yelled
Alessandria: Everyone living room now!
Everyone filed in but Mike, of course. They all sat down and looked at me, Deena looked at me with concern.
Deena: Are you okay?
That's when I got beyond pissed, oh I was about to stab someone.
Alessandria: Jesus Christ! You know what? I'm motherfucking fine, I am good being here. I don't give a shit if Mike is here anymore. Stop fucking asking me.
I yelled more like screamed and went outside then walked to the upper deck; this is why I hated this house. I wish people would stop repeating themselves, ugh. I pulled out a cigarette and started smoking; you could say I strand myself away from the house a lot. I heard a door close as I stood against the railing of the deck, I took a hit off of my cigarette and blew out the smoke as I turned around; Pauly stood there with a jacket in his hand. I looked at him, for it being Jersey it was cold out at night; he walked over to me without words he put the jacket around me and we walked over to the outside upper deck couch. He put his arm around me and I cuddled up to him, I sighed and said
Alessandria: It's never gonna be the same.
Pauly: What you mean girl?
I looked him in the eyes, and said
Alessandria: Pauly, Me & Mike aren't on even ground together. Everyone thinks I'm too unstable to be here. None of us will be the same.
He just hugged me, and we stayed like that for a little bit; little did I know. I had ended up falling asleep on him, but the next morning I woke up; his arm was strung across my side and I was facing toward him. He acted like this when I was on the verge of things; 2 summers ago when I first came here it was bad. We did this little group thing to tell each other about ourselves, I told them my WHOLE story. The depression, suicide, cutting, binge drinking, anorexia; all of it. I started to shake Pauly; I closed my eyes real quick then started shaking him harder
Alessandria: Pauly wake up.
I said I got frustrated so I did something I would never do to anyone at all unless we are dating. I kissed him, when I opened my eyes he was staring at me; smiling. I went to pull away until he deepened the kiss, I got into it; I put my hands in his ungelled hair. They got knotted in his hair and we were just kissing, I had a thing for him; everyone knew it, even Mike when I was with him. Suddenly we heard Ronnie's voice yell
Ronnie: BUSTED! BIG TIME!
We quickly stopped kissing and looked to see like the whole house standing there, Mike was in front with a pissed look on his face; uh-oh I'm in trouble.