Chapter 2
Uncertain
Emma was speeding down the highway trying to lose the swam of motorcycles closing in behind had nothing to say to any of them and wanting to be alone to grieve for esai on her on. She couldn't believe her family would do something like that and for esai on father to sit by and watched what was she to do,she couldn't go to the police no matter how mad at them she couldn't do that. Her thought went to juice, her best friend she needed him now but he was one of them. Crying uncontrollable she pulled over hoping they didn't see where she went,she heard the roar of their engines as they passed the parking lot she was hiding cell phone rung and she seen her fathers name, apparently they noticed she wasn't on the road answered and didn't give him time to speak:Leave me alone and let me think! she slammed the phone down and turned it off. Clay looked up at the guys and told them lets go back to the club house,she needs time so we will allow guys all looked at each other and nodded,jax asked clay if she was okay and clay looked at them and said i don't know how to fix this we screwed up in a big way but it had to be done.
Emma checked herself in to a room for the night,she called esai mom and her mom told her what happen,Emma wanted to tell her the truth but she listen as she told emma about them finding esai in a ally with a knife to his told emma she would call her with the funeral arrangements when they were hung the phone up and fell to the ground crying wishing someone was there to help her but there was no of curiosity she dialed juice number,he answered on the first ring,Emma where are you? ,come on talk to me plz!he could hear her crying and felt i will come and not tell the guys if u need me plz ,let me help!you have helped enough don't you think!why did you not tell me!he listened and try to answer her Emma it was a groups decision he tired to kill ur father and i couldn't tell you because i didn't know he was your boyfriend. She was pissed he would never hurt my dad or anyone i love she shouted,Juice told her well he did if you don't believe me ask his dad emma.
She hung her phone off and decide that she was going to call him when the man answered she asked for Alvarez and he got on the phone,emma asked him if there was a hit on her dad that night and was esai behind it. He told her that yes it was true and because he messed the hit up he had to pay with his on couldn't believe it,he really did try to kill my she hung the phone up she felt madder then anything he was a trader not her family Esai started this,but why?.
She cried herself to sleep that night and had a nightmare re living the accident but instead of it being Esai it was woke up screaming and having night sweats,she picked her phone up and dialed a familar the voice answered she simply said i need you,she told him where she was and she hung up.
It seemed like forever but when she heard the knock on her door she ran to open it and there stood clasped in his arms crying and he just held her rubbing her head and back reassuring her everything was going to be okay. He gently pushed her back so he could close the door and he walked her over to the sat there hanging on for dear life he asked her what made her change her mind and before she thought about it she told him the dream and she looked at him and said i can't lose you !He brushed her cheek and told her he wasn't going no finally fell asleep laying in his arms no nightmare just a peaceful she woke up the next morning,she decided to go talk with the followed her on the bike so in case she ran for were all in the chapel when she arrived,juice went in and told them she wanted to talk to waited for juice to come get her,while waiting her phone rung it was Esai mother oh damn!now what am i to do so she listened as Mrs. Alvarez told Emma bout the arrangements and begged Emma to come. Emma told her she would do her best,when she turned juice was standing against the wall shaking his head and told her they were ready.
She walked in and expected them to be mad but instead they all apologized and wished things were understood and told them that and even though it hurt she would deal with it but she wasn't ready to forgive not told them she was going to the funeral and even though they didn't like it they respected her and Clay said you will take someone with you.I will call Alvarez and you decide who going huh she knew who was going and she looked at juice.
As they drove to the funeral home she couldn't help but be sad after all she knew a side of esai that no one loved him and was ready to live with him forever,She looked in the mirror and noticed juice watching her and she smiled at him. Jax insisted he drive and she still couldn't understand how she ended up with both of them but it was fine she loved her brother and when she thought of juice she couldn't help being grateful for him being came in the back but when Maria Alvarez saw Emma she went to her and grabbed her hand and pulled her to the and Jax stayed in the back not wanting to cause a .Alvarez introduce Emma to Esai family and friends and everyone was veery glanced at her two bodyguards in the back they were a lil out of place but their eyes never left the funeral they followed the line to the grave yard,Mrs,Alvarez hanging on to her for support,Marcos Alvarez stood near as he watched the women grief for the lost of his son and for a moment he regretted putting them through this pain. Emma couldn't do it she held her emotions in for as long as she could and she just lost it Mrs Alvarez clung to emma for support but emma wanted to run,run as fact as she could but she wouldn't not said her goodbyes and ass he started to walk away Mrs,Alvarez handed emma a rosery that esai wore all the time even when he was killed,he would want you to have stared at the necklace and said thank you,she noticed marcos looking at her he nodded and she nodded back and then turned and walked heart was aching as she walked toward her brother and he could lookin her eyes knowing she couldn't handle this kinda pain he walked meeting her and grabbed her in for a hug he whispered im sorry,she looked and nodded but her heart was breaking and there was nothing they could do to fix told jax to take her home and she got on the bike she glanced over to see juice watching her,he smiled and she smiled back.