Dear diary
Me, with a diary amazing isn't it? You'll get what I mean soon enough. Who am I talking to? The bindings? The spirit of the diary? Do diaries have spirits? That's nuts! Okay let's just say I'm talking to myself. Ya, that works. This is a lot madder than I thought it would be. So today is my first prison day locked in the school, no skype, no internet! The walls are closing in on me I...I can't breathe, I can't think, what am I going to do how can I survive!?!? Ohhhhhh a sparkley thing. Okay quick up date, it is second year, term two. It is also my first year in Hogwarts, I was in Durmstrang for first year now I was sent to Hogwarts cause my headmaster thinks I should learn the way of the light wizards. I know too much dark stuff. It has been hard over here and a pretty boring start to February, my friends in Durmstrang are hopeless. I am dieing here, I have never known such boredom. What do they want me to do, rot here? I have been here six months, six! Is it just too hard to take up the quill and write, yes Alexandra, you can come over in the next holiday, or are they too busy playing in the field. I wish I could! But no! It's complete and total confinement here for me at Hogwarts. Mainly because I am in time out for blowing up the potion lab...Anyway I guess I shouldnt complain, I have food at least, but still! The least those guys can do is write! I am so bored I am writing letters to myself! I am turning into Remus...oh god no I knew that would happen I must have switched bodies with someone! Oh please dont be my aunt Bellatrix or Snape! Oh please no! *checks face in pocket mirror* okay your still pretty! Yay! Now that's sorted, I can't ignore friends forever they can obviously ignore me but I can't ignore them! It's not right! I guess they are busy or something. Hogwarts second year is coming to and end quickly though which is good only problem is Draco causing trouble for Harry.
Ciao
-Alexandra
Dear diary
Today at dancing was so fun I had a blast, we are starting our new dance of the year so its going to be awesome! I dont believe just this afternoon I was thinking of quitting! Mmm...Ice cream...good! I had spare ribs for dinner and that was interesting. Turns out schools in the muggle world have prefects and heads to! Just like at Hogwarts! I am really bored here still and am having to refer to tell telling myself all about my troubles; really I am talking with myself! I cannot wait for second year to end so I can get much needed rest. Ciao
-Alexandra
Dear diary
Well today we went to swimming class and relearned back stroke it's horrid that woman is cruel! Last night I got to talk to Sandra but she swore in the letter loads and McGoogles saw it. Ah well we can't all be perfect! Especially when I am involved! *evil grin* yup I can't help but cause imperfection to the finishing point! I am extremely trouble-maker-ish! Ok so anyway boredom drowns me here especially with Brown demanding I introduce her to Ronald Weasley.
Ciao
-Alexandra
Dear diary
Ok it's Friday third week in this school with out friends to speak with because they are to busy. I might even well come a visit from Voldemort! Voldemort!!! Evil guy! *sigh* I spoke to Jackie today and all's well there. I am going to talk to her tomorrow maybe but it's doubtful. She is also really bored, it's showing to! I wish we could get together again, but it looks like for Jackie and me to see Sandra would be 3-2 times this year. And the teachers/parents/aliens couldn't care less! I hope I get to see the others soon because if I don't I am officially going to throttle anyone who tries to stop me from seeing my buddies! I miss them! Still think other parents hate me! It's strange I just feel that they loath me with every meaning of their being! They are always hiding their kids from me! As if I would wreak havoc on such tiny kiddies! They make me sound so evil! I mean it's just cause I have an overactive imagination as the other people say. But come on you have to give you kids a chance to grasp a thought to which they can come home from school and think I am going to go play with my best pals! You can't keep your kid thinking that imagination is bad! It's cruel and Denza thinks I was abused as a child and that's why I daydream. As if! I have never been abused! I have been so well taken care of that I have good manners around people I don't even like! Its creepy how many parents keep their kids amused with educational building blocks! I am so hating being the only person with imagination so strong, I can sense if someone is there and see that some one! I guess this being shunned by society is part of being different. A trade mark of myself that is burden and blessing, but to me is the greatest thing in my life it's the thing that keeps me going, being different is all that matters to me. I dont like following the crowd I want to be some one who I can look at in 60 years from now and say I am proud of my choices and I will remain so until I die and beyond! If people dont like me now then it's just their loss as far as I am concerned to meet an incredibly stabile yet misread unique individual! I am really proud of my self for putting up with the criticism that comes with my curse and power. I am also proud of my greatest treasures, my friends Jackie and Sandra who were the only friends who stood with me even though it damaged their lives to be with me, my "parents" who were there for me when I needed them, these people kept me alive they are reasons worth living for and if they didn't exist I don't know what would make life endurable! My other friends didn't stay by me they deserted and left. Sure the rest of my family are with me but 3 quarters of them dont know half a quarter of what I do or how I feel. They still stick with me anyway. I am aware that no one agrees with me about the imagination is a great learning key but I dont care, my true colours shining through my heart and soul are what I am going to show the world one day. It's sort of like a dream...its like being a werewolf people are a bit scared to go near you, and you feel infected. I am proud of who I am today and I dont think anyone can change that fact but me. It's my choice and I will make it! If they can't except that is their problem! And I have nothing to say to them! I know incredibly bold of me to criticise adults I know in a completely easy to read diary isnt it?
Ciao
-Alexandra
Quote of the day: You laugh because I 'm different I laugh because your all the same.
Dear diary
It's awful one of my BFFs is going to Durban on Thursday and leaving me here till Saturday! So I came up with ideas of how to survive with out a pal. I am going paddling at three with Jamie and Mathew Manning, and If she can come Katie. She wrote me earlier today but she couldnt come over she had Quidditch practise. Sandra is the friend I shall lose to Durban, at least I still have Jackie. Sure she's not really the motherly type like Sandra but she is youngest of us all. I think we over shadow her a lot, I guess it is unfair on her that we get all the attention even when we look bad or lose at some thing. She is one of my best friends and I care about her a lot more than I will even confide in you diary. They both mean the world to me I care about them both a lot and often even if it leaves a stain on me. I don't want to lose these friends no matter what! I dont know why but they seem to radiate around me and spread something awfully contagious, they bring out the best in me. I guess I haven't ever really had much time to make many true friends due to the fact that many people only come to me for advice and to see what I am all mysterious about. Mum and Pere already know of course but if they do read this I will bet they are trying to find out when I told them a huge secret ! Well if you are reading this then please dont take it into offence, and DON'T interrogate me!!! Wait! You guys shouldn't even be in here! GET OUT!!! Well now that they are gone, if you aren't then you are in for a surprise! I can continue. I have totally gone haywire I am not seeing my friends at all because they got detention. And I have to hang out with first year ridiculous kids instead! It's humiliating! And down right boring! All they do is have tea parties and eat cookies and play hide and go seek! I really am desperate to be with people my own age and all, but due to the fact that I am locked in and I can't go anywhere, plus not entirely capable of socialising, that's proving to be difficult! Also even if I did get out I am to darn shy! I am often getting more attention than I want cause I am pretty, I am smart, and I am mysterious, and I am convinced that I am part veela or siren!
Ciao
-Alexandra
Dear diary
Yes it is still the same day but I would like to elaborate on what happened at canoeing. You see what happened was this: we went and I got on the water and played for a while with my hands then I went the length of the dam it was scary due to the fact that there were huge waves! I don't know why but I feel like I can do it no matter what! Katie quit canoeing today. I am hopeful that she will come back. It's still really lonely over here. I miss my friends! I want them here, luckily mother might come over tomorrow! Yay! Then she and I can chat with McGoogles, (I got in trouble). Tomorrows the full moon, good luck Remus where ever you are! Ciao
-Alexandra
Dear diary
I haven't been able to talk much not since I didn't do my homework, it's Wednesday mother came on the weekend and she played for a while it was fun! I found out Sandra is going out today to see her grandparents in Durban. So depressing. It's really weird I mean how she is always some where thats not near me at the strangest of times. Dancing was fun on Monday we did not do the dance though. Yesterday at swimming was not very interesting either due to the fact that we did butter fly and my legs were throbbing with pain, or there wasnt anyone to chat with. I swear that womans evil. And last night I paddled in my nelo it was awesome to be moving but then to get your self going you have to struggle to encourage your self. On Sunday there is another race and my mom says I have to do it in the nelo she really is hurrying me to fast for my liking. I am petrified and she does not seem to care. I don't know what to say to her anymore. I am just to stupid around her when she talks like this. More on this later if I can manage it! I have one last subject left!
Ciao
-Alexandra
Dear diary
Ok so I have not spoken in weeks due to being busy and bored and I couldn't bother with you! Sorry! Valentines day was spent with Katie much to my glee! It was awesome and all I am currently waiting for Sandra to finish her school work so she can chat. Ok so I am going to write about my parents! Okay my mum is a kind middle aged woman shes friendly and short. Only thing is that she is incredibly proud! The thing about mum is shes very much her own person, shes very independent and doesn't rely on other people for anything if she can help it. Though she's my foster mum of sorts. My dad is tall and strong he is friendly when he wants to be he is a lot like me in terms of personality and looks. But by my parents standards when it comes to my friends they'd scare the pants off anyone whom received their notorious 'I'm-going-to-kill-you-glare' (that's what I call it anyway), ok me I am the reckless one of the group the rebel! Harry always says I don't know the meaning of the saying 'look before you leap,' I don't think things through, instead, a lot of time I act on impulse. I act first then think of the consequences when they bite me in the arse. Also known for being very sarcastic and cynical, that's just the type of person I am. There are so many different traits to one person it's hard to describe them all, especially with me, I am so erratic: Changeable, inconsistent, variable, capricious, impulsive, and spontaneous.
Ciao -Alexandra