Konnichiwa Mina! I'm sorry it took too long to write but I needed motivation so thank you for those who reviewed! Oh ya and the second thing I want to say is Happy Spirit Day! I hope everyone wore purple today!

Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon but Naoko Takeuchi does!

Setsuna Past

When the Gate Keeper was relieved from her duties she took the time portal to take her back home where she was met by silence for Haruka and Michiru was in their honeymoon and Hotaru was staying over in a friend house but they will all be back tomorrow to watch their princess get marry to the earth prince so Chibiusa can be born and also for the fate of Crystal Tokyo.

So she should feel content that everything is going as planned but instead she's falling apart for she had fallen in love with her princess which is a crime to all senshi for they all had taken an oath to never fall in love with the moon princess for she was betrothed to the earth prince.

And if the other senshi knew about this they would have to strip her out of her title and she would no longer be a senshi but a normal woman with no memories of her previous life of whatsoever.

Though Setsuna didn't care for any of this for as long as she got the woman she loves even if it means giving up her title as a senshi than she'll do so in a heartbeat.

For she wants to marry her, she wants to start a family with her and finally she wants her body to be molded with hers and no one else but alas fate is so cruel for tomorrow she gets to watch her princess get marry to another.

And what is even worse is that the earth prince had to be Mamoru, the bastard that took her virginity away.

As Setsuna tried to block the memories out more and more hit her with such a brute force that she collapse to the floor as she watched the scenes play out.

*Flashback*

Back when Queen Serenity still ruled the moon kingdom she summoned all inner and outer senshi to her palace to meet Endymion, the earth prince.

It was love at first sight or so Setsuna thought.

They would sometimes bump to each other by mistake and at times when they're alone he would ever so gently caress her cheek and murmur sweet nonsense to her ear.

And being the love-sick fool she didn't notice the lust that held in his eyes or how his hands will linger at her expose thighs.

Till one unfortunate night, he entered her chambers without her consort.

She was in her bed asleep, having sweet dreams of her beloved till suddenly she felt two hands exploring her body and heard fabrics being thrown to the floor without realizing that it was her clothes that she been wearing when she got to bed.

And that was when she felt something brush her mid thigh and with such fright she opened her eyes and was astonished to see Endymion hovering above her.

That was when she realized that her body was exposed to him and he too was all bare exposing his muscles that he build up by swordsmanship but all that did was spike fear to her as her heart kept on beating faster and faster.

Endymion knew he was scaring her but he could careless for he came here tonight to ravish her and there was nothing stopping him in doing so not even the tears that Pluto shed or how she struggle against him.

He couldn't help but smile and with that he buried himself deep inside her.

*End of Flashback*

Setsuna cried harder when she remembered how she pleaded Endymion to stop but it fell to death ears.

Oh how she hated him with such passion that she could kill him with her bare hands but yet she was stuck with grief for he had won the love of her princess and she didn't want to hurt her even if it means giving up her love and being a lone senshi forever.

"Why!"

"Why!"

"Why Selene must you abandon one of your children? Don't I deserve love too or am I too tainted? I don't want to be alone anymore! God dammit, answer me!" yelled the heartbroken girl who didn't notice that in the shadows was the rest of the Outers who was watching her this whole time with such sadness to watch their comrade had fallen.

A/N: So did you guys liked it? If you did please review! So I know that you guys liked it which means I get to continue the story.