"Did you sleep well?" Beck asked her kissing her nose.
"Yeah I guess-" Jade stopped randomly and threw herself out of bed and bolted to his bathroom. She moved so fast it scared Beck half to death. Beck slowly waddled out of bed to her and knocked on the bathroom door. "You alright babe?" he asked cracking the door open just a tad bit to see what she was doing. He honestly had no clue about what was going on. Probably because he was really tired from staying up all last night because he was thinking through everything, about the baby and all the crazy stuff that just happened. As he peeked his head into the bathroom, he say Jade leaning over the toilet throwing up. He walked in and knelt down next to her. Jade looked miserable, and felt even worse. Beck put his hand on her back and slowly rubbed it. Jade sighed.
"I don't want to have to deal with this every morning!" Jade shouted bitterly. " It will be fine" Beck said trying to cheer her up but it didn't work. Jade knew that this baby is probably going to throw her life away, she didn't want it, not at all! But she needed it. Jade knew that if she got an abortion she would regret it for the rest of her life. It was then she reliezed she wanted the baby, she just didn't want to deal with all the problems. Jade whipped her mouth and leaned on Beck's shoulder. She moaned and touched her stomach. Confused and pondering on her decisions,she stood up and walked out of the bathroom without another word spoken. Jade grabbed a pair of extra clothes she keeps at Beck's place and got dressed. Beck got ready and waited for her to finish her hair and make-up. They headed off to Hollywood Arts just in time.
It was still very early in the morning and Jade was still sick to her stomach. Both Beck and Jade knew it was morning sickness, but Jade didn't want to accept that fact. She was being stubborn about this whole situation, maybe even more stubborn than usual. Jade was not in the mood to talk to anyone, the only thing she had said to Beck the whole car ride to Hollywood Arts was
"Please don't tell anyone about all of this, I dont want to deal with anything at the moment. I have too much on my mind." Beck agreed to what she said understandingly and said nothing more. As soon as the car stopped Jade rushed out of the passanger door and into the empty school. It was about a half hour early, they are always at school early, just in case. Jade nearly ran to the bathroom because she had to pee.
"God damn it! I'm starting to get a bladder like Cat's!" Jade shouted to herself as she swung open a dirty bathroom stall door. After she was done in the bathroom, she walked over to her locker, which Beck hapened to be standing right next to waiting for her.
"Are you alright?" he asked putting his hand on her shoulder. Jade quickly pushed it off.
"Never better!" she screamed at him in a devilish, sarcastic voice getting her books and heading off to Sikowitz's class.
Beck knew he was going to have a hard time getting used to all of this, and that she was going to be worse than ever. He expected her to be moody and grumpy and just a pain in the ass for 8 more months, he wasn't sure if he could handle it. Beck was willing to try though, hoping she will give him some mercy.
Meanwhile, Jade sat alone in Sikowitz's class with a cup of juice in one hand and the pregnancy test in the other. She starred at it with a blank expression, no emotions being shown what so ever. Much was going threw her mind "How are we going to pay for this? How am I going to get a job with this baby? How am I going to tell everyone? How am I going to explain this to my parents?" she thought to herself. Too much was going on in her mind at once, she had to let it all out before she were to let it out in front of people. She took the pregnancy test and threw it as hard as she could across the room. It somehow managed to break on the corner of the wall. Jade broke down in an instant crying, and Jade never cried, not when she was in public, or even if she were alone, she would stop herself from crying before she did. Even when her father beat her or called her a "disrespectful slut", she never cried.
"How can this happen?" she said to herself, "Why did I let this happen!" Jade sat on the floor, crouched over her knees with her face buried in her hands. She had mix feelings about this whole thing. Getting rid of the baby would make her feel terrible, but keeping it would make her and Beck both suffer mentally. The decision was very hard for her. She didn't exactly know what Beck wanted either. Jade was overwhelmed with all of this. She eventually got up off the floor and stopped crying. Not knowing what she was going to do about it, Jade went on the rest of the day acting like nothing was wrong.
Through out the day, Beck and Jade talked every once in a while, less than usual of corse. Both of them tried really hard not to mention it at all, and they did a good job at hiding it. They weren't going to be able to hide it much longer. Sooner or later someone would get the hint and relize this. They both hoped this "someday" and "someone" would never come, but it would have to eventually.