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"Something's not right with Nick lately."

"I know, he's always in his own world, it's like none of us even exist."

"Got any clue?"

"Yeah...I have somewhat of an idea."

"Wanna fill me in, Joe?"

"Kevin, Kevin, Kevin, are you really that oblivious?"

"One word: Miley." I heard Joe finish off and at this point I couldn't care less if they were talking about me because I didn't have the strength to speak up anymore, I was just so tired. I could hear them perfectly clear even though they were trying to whisper, but what they were saying just didn't sink in. It was like listening to the adults speak in the Snoopy cartoons.

You know when you're exhausted and every part of your body aches, your head feels like it's spinning 24/7 and your eyelids feel so heavy that you're afraid if you let them close for one second you'll never be able to open them, but your eyes do flutter shut every few seconds and you have no control over it. And in the same moment it just feels so relaxing, like you're in your sanctuary. That's how I feel right now.

I shifted on the beige, leather couch beneath me and shook my head a little bit trying to wake up. It's hard to believe I haven't slept more than 4 hours total in about 5 days. Lately, I'm not sure if I'm the one stopping myself from sleep because of the visions that pass through my mind behind closed eyes, or if those memories are the things keeping me awake and preventing me from sleep.

My eyes closed once again and I let out a deep sigh as my whole body melted into the couch.

"Yo, Nick!" My head snapped up and my eyes shot open as Joe's voice and a loud clap sounded through out the room. I rubbed my eyes and the blur before me was made clear.

"Mmm yeah?" I said groggily, while shaking my head, trying to wake up. As he sat beside me, his cold leather jacket rubbed against my arm and sent shivers through my spine, fully awaking me.

"Hey, you okay?" He asked quietly. I closed my eyes for about two seconds, nodded, and swallowed, what seemed loudly.

"I'm fine." I opened my eyes and walked into the recording booth.

I hated lying to my family. That's the worst possible thing you could ever do, lie to the people you love and trust most. Truth was, I'm not fine and I haven't been fine. They all knew that, so I don't know why they waste their time asking.

"Why don't you just call her up? Text her or something." He made it sound so simple. Like if I called her, she'd actually pick up.

"Joe, you know I can't do that. I think she made it very clear that she is his now and I lost my chance."

"Why do you give up so easily?"

"Are you serious?" He nodded once and looked at me like he made a perfect point.

"If I gave up easily we wouldn't be having this conversation! If I gave up easily she wouldn't be on my mind 24/7! And if I gave up easily I wouldn't still be madly in love with her and need her as much as I do everyday with more to come. So I didn't give up, I've been fighting to get he back for almost a year now." I breathed out and my head fell into my hands as I the tears pricked my eyes. I felt Joe's presence leave me as someone else's entered my room and sat down next to me.

"Nick, you need some rest. Why don't you take a nap and I'll wake you up for dinner?" My mom's voice sounded, calmly as she rubbed my back. I looked up at her and nodded, I couldn't speak. I was afraid that if I said something I would cry. I don't want to come off as weak. So I said nothing, I hugged my mom and laid back on my bed. She turned the lights off and walked out of my room, closing the door, but not all the way.

Ten minutes passed and I was still in the same position that my mom left me in. Just lying on my bed, looking up at the ceiling. I reached over to my nightstand and grabbed my iPod. I went to 'Artists' and scrolled down until I got to 'M'. I saw her name, clicked it and listened to the first song that came up. I didn't care what it was, or what it was about, but I needed to hear her voice.

As the songs played I felt myself drift more and more off to sleep until finally... my body was relaxed, my sight blackened...and I entered my sanctuary.

That smell. It's...familiar. It's unique, but not disgusting...no, never disgusting. There's only one person I know with this scent. It's her.

A/N: WOW. You guys, I asked for only 10 reviews and I got like 40!!!!!!! holy moly. Just THANK YOU TO THE EXTREME!! You guys have no idea how inspirational the reviews were. Thanks so much to those who take the time.

Take in note that I o not proofread. Sorry. =/ but I usually notice big mistakes while writing, so I don't go back to re-read most of the time.