The Fight
I can barely remember Friday night. I remember drinking beer and maybe falling asleep on the floor of the guest bedroom. But I guess I woke up in the middle of the night because I was half way on the bed. I get up and see that Eric is asleep on the couch. I walk into the bathroom to take a shower. I still think what happened last night hasn't sent in yet I haven't cried like I need too and my chest isn't hurting as much as it was yesterday.
When I start to feel the water getting cooler I step out. I put a towel around my hair and a towel around my body and walk to the bedroom. I wasn't paying attention and walked in on Eric pulling up his jeans with a shirt held in his mouth.
"Oh I'm sorry." I got to walk out the door
"Tris, it's okay. It's not like I haven't seen you naked 800 times." Eric says grabbing the shirt out of his mouth and putting it over his head.
"I understand that but I am not entirely comfortable with you seeing me naked when we are not together." I look at him and see him hang his head low.
"Okay well than I guess I will see you later. I am just going to head to the Canteen and probably hang around the pit today." He gives me a small smile and walks out.
I let out the breath I was holding when I hear the front door close. I decide that today I am not trying to impress anybody and I am just going to be in the apartment cleaning all my stuff out. I put on a pair of black sweatpants, black flip flops and a black and red tight sweatshirt. I let my hair air dry and walk out the door heading to the Canteen.
I walk into the Canteen looking at my table and see that Eric is with our friends. I go up to the food line and grab some peaches, oatmeal, and chocolate milk. I walk to our table and sit at the far end away from Eric and grab Harper from Christina and put her in my lap snuggling against her neck making her giggle. Christina looks at me and I give a small frown and she returns it.
"So I take it you 2 are fighting?" Uriah says and pointing to myself and then Eric.
I look up and look at Eric who looks back at me.
"Actually we have decided to break up." Eric says shoving another piece of bacon in his mouth.
I look back down at Harper who is twirling my hair around your fingers. Christina puts her hand on my knee and squeezes. The whole group is looking back and forth between Eric and I.
"So I'm gonna ask … What happened?" Uriah asks. No one says anything about his being nosey cause I am sure they are all curious themselves.
"We both wanted different things." I say sighing. "We decided to end it so we can both live our lives the way we wanted to." I make a small smile and take a couple of bites of my oatmeal.
"Okay well than that settles it. We are having a girl's day and you boys can go do whatever you boys do." Shauna says reaching over the table and squeezing my hand.
"YES! Train Jumping! Let's get some beers and ride the train all day!" Uriah stands up with his son and starts hopping around making Quinn and everybody at the table laugh.
"Then it's settled. The boys and Quinn will be taking the train and we girls will be going to the roof. Let's go grab some blankets and I will take them in the elevator with me so you girls don't have to carry them up the stairs." Shauna says.
After it is decided everyone separates. I see Eric look back and give me a small smile when Four comes up and puts his arm around his shoulders. Us girls go and grab blankets from various apartments and some games for Harper and Zoey. Uriah said he would take Quinn and not drink. I am happy for Uriah if he does not at least have a child with him he looks lost.
The girls and I spent all day on the roof. We only went back down to the Pit once to grab food for lunch and bathroom breaks. I told them why Eric and I broke up and like the best girlfriends they are they took my side and said they were proud of me for sticking to my guts. Around 6 we decide to head back in. I am not hungry for dinner so I head straight for the apartment. I walk in a thank god that Eric is not back yet. I grab a beer and head into the bedroom. I grab a couple of totes that we just used for storage and start throwing things in there. I grab all my toiletries, books, and clothes leaving some out for tomorrow and Monday.
I sit on the bedroom floor take a swig of the beer and look around to see if there is anything else I need to grab. I hear the front door open and close and see that it in only 8 pm. Eric walks to the doorway and leans against it.
"I am not going to lie. I was kind of hoping that when I got back tonight you would be on the couch in your pajama's and everything would be back to normal." He sighed.
"Well I am sorry but unless you are willing to change your mind this is something I have to do for myself." I look up at him.
"I guess I can't even call you stiff anymore. This is pretty selfish of yourself you know that?" Eric said with a deep voice.
I look back at the ground. He knows how long it took me to overcome my Abnegation thinking and for him to play on it is such a low blow. He must be a little drunk because even broken up I wouldn't guess he would be this mean.
"Eric please, I do not want to fight tonight. If it'll make it easier for you I will leave and go stay with someone." I stand up and pick up the last box and put it in the corner of the room. I look at him and he just smirks.
"Nah, your fine Tris. I am actually going to head down the Pit and enjoy the rest of my weekend drinking and having fun." He is trying to get under my skin.
"Have fun. Try not to bring home a slut until I'm gone. I would appreciate that." He smirk back at him and his smile drops. He turns around and walks out the door. And just than it's like I remembered how to cry.