Cosmic Girl Talk
Author's note: Surprised myself, ended up writing a second chapter.
Part 2: Space and time girly talk
Lockheed was now a placated purring dragon, a good double scratching from the both of them had resolved the grumpiness. Illyana had then summoned desert. Two In-and-out shakes, strawberry for Illyana and vanilla for Kitty.
"Ok, watch the fix everything with a wave of my hand routine. Got it." Kitty stated as she sucked on her shake. "What about space and time"?
Illyana squinted and give Kitty a hard stare. "Hmm I see you've already taken at least one journey. My advice is don't'. Little true good comes of it".
'What?! This coming from the girl who traveled I don't' know how many timelines and dimensions setting up the elder god's fall while searching for information about her soul. What is this? Do as I say and not as I do"?
Illyana took a leisurely sip of shake, ahh she loved strawberry. "Yep and how often did you see me voluntarily doing it before I... died".
Opps, Kitty felt a stab of shame and cursed herself (Dummy don't remind of her death). "Umm, well now that I'm thinking about it, never".
"Yep, knew even back then that timeline playing was dangerous".
"So why did you do it after you returned if it was so dangerous"?
Illyana sipped at her shake and took a long time before answering.
"Many reasons".
"I was... well not very sane or rational at the time".
"Two, I was obsessed with regaining what was lost, the me that was missing. Blind to anything else and any other possible solutions".
"Three, the pain of what I was, of what I lost, made me willing to play with reality at any cost to achieve my ends".
"Four, well... Everybody was dead. Killed by the elder gods by the time I learned what I needed, including you I might add. Only then did I traverse the timelines with my plan that I believed would result in not having everybody dead. The obliteration of the elder gods, and the return of my soul".
"So it was worth it" Kitty stated while carefully looking at Illyana.
"Yes, and yet..." Illyana did not finish the sentence. "Kitty do you want to live a happy life"?
"Well yea"?
"Do you want me to show you how to traverse timelines so you can pick your outcomes. Guarantee whatever it is that you desire happens exactly as you want"?
"NO! That would make it fake. There would be no choice, no alternatives except whatever my impulse was. That's not living, that's..."
"Pretend" Illyana finished her statement and then slurped upon a now empty shake cup.
"Walking such paths makes it all become pretend Kitty. Yes I did it and I regained my soul but everybody else, everything else became ephemeral. I had become completely detached and it wasn't just from all the trauma. I actually can't tell you how many variations of my dead I looked over as I traveled the timelines. Don't like the outcome, go back in time and start over. Don't like how things work out, just jump timelines to one where it does. By the end no one was real to me anymore. That's why I stopped, well mostly stopped, after the elder gods were dead".
"Took me a long time to recover from that, suspect I'm still recovering. I'm not saying that you won't tamper, we all do at one point or another if we have the power, it's just that most of us learn that living is not only not knowing the outcomes, but not controlling the outcomes. Kind of sucks if you ask me. Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, certainly not on my best friend".
Kitty looked upon Illyana with both understanding and her new eyes. "I... see what you're trying to tell me. Good advice. Hope I take it".
"Me too ex roomie, me to".