Clary POV

The front door slamming sent a shock of reality through my nerves. What if he didn't come back this time? Was he really that angry? I recalled on the fight we just had...

Jace: You could have gotten yourself killed!

Me: Jace, I was doing just fine by myself.

Jace: You stupid, stupid girl. What don't you understand? When I say I don't want you fighting I mean it. I don't command you just to hear myself speak!

Me: That's just it Jace. You command me, you never ask!

Jace: What do you want me to do Clary? I asked you not to fight and you didn't listen, now I'm telling you!

I didn't understand how Jace could make feel so much but feel so little. He had taken everything from me, stolen it. I knew he hadn't wanted me to fight the ravener that attacked on my way to the institute that night, but it's not like anyone who could help me was there, I was alone. I had done it before I could do it again. Jace didn't have a right to be mad at me, but then again he was just looking out for me. Instantly a song came to mind, a song I couldn't help sing...

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you i suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could
Learn how to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel

It wouldn't change how you feel? The lyrics were oddly depressing, yet rang pure and true. Jace would always be angry with me, for different reasons and no matter what I did it wouldn't change how he felt. How he should feel.