Dear Carlisle

You were a father to me in ever sense of the word, You picked me up when I was down and bandaged my bruises making sure they were okay after yet another accident. Your compassion showed me what it was to care for someone and to let them feel safe. I think of you as my father even though Edward told me exactly what you all thought of me, I was just a pet to you all and you wished me to be dead really, glad to have someone to play with because of your abstinence from blood. I think that hurt me more than having one of you drain my blood or torture me. To know all the care I thought you felt for me was a sick joke and that really no-one did care.

As I said when I wrote to Esme I don't blame any of you for leaving me, I knew I would get left eventually I guess. I just didn't expect it to happen so soon... Fates a bit of a back-stabber I figure. Even thought I feel that way I know that you would still expect me to be able to carry on and live to see what the pain did to me. So I did. I was a adrenaline junkie while I waited to see if any of you would come back and see how I was or if Alice would still get visions of my stupidity. I guess she just laughs at them know.

I don't know why but I thought out of all of your family you would be the one to say goodbye to me. I think it is because of your compassion I guess.. But you didn't. You didn't care that Edward left me in the woods to die or be found by shape-shifters as the case may be. I remember the night of my birthday I told you you weren't soulless like you believed. Your too kind for that, and even after everything I still believe that, you and your whole family are too kind to have no soul.

You are probably the only person I will tell this too, if you want to laugh feel free. I would rather you laugh than act like you care like you used too. But since you left I have been self harming, It was the only way I could feel something other than numbness. I did it to feel something again, I did it in the hope that my blood would slowly run out and I would bleed to death on my mattress or in the shower. It was hard to even think any of your names for a long time. But when I did cut myself or burn myself I could imagine any of you trying to stop me but stopping. In my subconscious state I understood the hate you felt for me.

I want to thank you for the chance you gave me to get to know you and for saving me so many times, I may not understand why you did it now but you seemed to care enough to want to be sure I was safe at some point. You showed me the way a parent should treat this daughter, I know I wasn't a perfect daughter like Alice or Rosalie. But I finally understood the way a parent should be, I know if you had biological children you would have been a perfect father to them because you were to me. I am sorry if I cause any of your family further upset by sending these letters but I feel that you need to know exactly how you left me.

I faintly remember Edward telling me Esme died by falling off a cliff and you saved her, I remember at the time I thought how romantic it was for you to do that. How perfect your love was and still is. Please I know you do not feel for me but look after Esme, she deserves to be happy as do you. I once thought you were the meaning of the song 'You can let go now daddy' because you were the perfect father to me. I know realize it wasn't meant to be but thank you for the opportunity.

Thank you daddy, I know you probably wont read this but Thank you. When I'm dead I hope you finally understand how much I loved you all.

I love you daddy.

Love Always

Isabella Marie

Bella signed the letter with a flourish barely only now noticing the tears that had now formed on the cheeks. They were for the one real dad she knew. Of course she loved Charlie too but he was not Carlisle, he didn't care for her well-being the way Carlisle appeared to. Maybe that's what hurt her the most.

She posted the letter later that night, and didn't notice the sign attached to the mail box. It said:
NO POST TO BE DELIEVED FOR 5 DAYS DUE TO WEATHER CONDITIONS.

AN: Hey guys I hope you like my letter to Carlisle, I might but a twist in a the end and have the Cullens not make it in time to get back or something like that, or maybe there will be a romantic you will have to wait to see :3 If I get 5 more review I will post a new chapter again :3

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