Chapter 2 - No butterflies, fireworks or peaceful comforting silences.

"Babe, there's something lonesome about you"

Scorpius

'So... What's up with you and Rose?' Albus asked when he and Scorpius finally seat alone in a compartment.

'I thought you were telling me something?'

'I am, but I want to know about you and her first. Did you talked to her in the summer?'

'No, I didn't. I didn't thought she would like' Scorpius answered not really caring, Albus was too insubordinate when he wanted to know something about Scorpius and Rose.

'I think she would have. Did you saw the way she blushed over there?' The boy point to the window 'That, my friend, is the palace of love being build!'

Scorpius could help a laugh and were soon followed by his best friend. In the last years Albus became Rose and Scorpius biggest fangirl.

'I honestly hope so' The blond boy gave a deep breath 'Don't be mad, but sometimes is exhausting being in love with Rose. I don't really know what else to do, I feel like I have tried everything! Flirt with her, became her friend...'

'If I am being honest I think becoming her friend and stoping being weird was the best choice you could make... You know, showing her your nice side and everything.'

'Didn't stop her to date Davies last year.'

'But they are not together anymore.'

'And that supposed to mean that she likes me now?' Scorpius raised an eyebrow.

'I have no idea, mate.'

'Yeah, asking you for dating advice is not the best choice.'

'You are so wrong' he answered with a grin.

'What do you mean?'

'I been exchanging letters with someone over the summer.'

'Someone you mean a boy?'

'Do you think it would be a girl?'

'Albus Severus Potter do you have a bae?'

'Merlin, Scorpius! That's too gay!'

'Aren't you one?'

'Yeah, but... No one in Hogwarts know it except you and my family'

'And this boy I suppose?'

'He just guessed. I didn't had the guts to deny'

'I told you! Gaydar are totally a thing!'

'Scorpius! NO!'

'And who is it?'

'Do you promise not to tell anyone?'

'And who would I tell? My very long list of friends? You mean... Oh, yeah! Just you!'

'Okay, Mister Sarcasm... Is Logan Stuart.'

'Logan Stuart as the Ravenclaw's Quidditch capitain, prefect and probably this year Head Boy Logan Stuart?'

'Yes.'

'Wow... Aren't he is like the most disputed boy in school?'

Scorpius didn't knew too much about Logan, but he was quite sure that he liked both boys and girls.

'Yes' Albus answered smiling.

'And you happen to just start to exchange letters with him over the summer out of nowhere?'

'Rose introduce us in the end of last year, he flirt a little with me but you know me, I am too sly.'

'And he contact you?'

'Rose made me write him, and he write back and we didn't stoped since then.'

'That's great, Albus! You totally deserve someone!'

'Yeah, well... I am trying not stay really excited about it.'

'Why?'

'I don't want to spend all year thinking that maybe he will start to like only to he break my heart in the end.'

'Like I do with Rose every year?'

'That's different'

'Is it really?'

Scorpius toke a deep breath. That's was the feeling he tried to run every night, the feeling that the day that Rose Granger-Weasley finally like him never come. He knew he would never give up on her, the crush he had a few years ago grow totally out of his control and he was so deeply in love with her that he knew he could never stop.

'Come on, Malfoy. Don't be so dramatic'

'We are such girls, aren't we?'

'Yes, we are' Albus laugh and tried to change the subject to not make his friend more uncomfortable 'So, do you have any chocolate? I just miss sweets so much.'

'More than you missed me?'

'Scorpius, when you gonna find out that I am just friends with you because of your sweets?'

Rose

Rose couldn't help her happiness when she recived her Head Girl's badge in the summer. She made it: she was top of her classes (only behind Scorpius Malfoy), Quidditch capitain, Head Girl and had straight O's. Everything that she wanted when she began her Hogwarts studies. The problem was: she had no clue on what to do with it.

The red haired girl could be anything she wanted: a Quidditch professional player, an Auror, work for the Ministry... It was so many options and still she couldn't pick one.

Rose aways knew who she was. A daughter of 2/3 of the Golden Trio, a Weasley, a Gryffindor... and she grabbed those feelings strong.

When she started Hogwarts she thought she would find out there what she wanted to do with her life, only now she found herself more confuse than ever.

She wanted to be excited to be doing rounds on the train with her fellow classmate Logan Stuart, but Rose didn't knew anymore if that's what she really wanted to do.

Maybe all her assurance on who she was were fake. Maybe she was living a lie. Rose knew she was sounding like those teenagers who were so desperately trying to find there place in the world. And maybe that's what she was.

'You know, I thought you would be fulling me with questions this time' Logan said as they made their way out of one lasted compartments in their route.

He, as she, were wearing the school uniform with the Head badge in his chest.

Logan was probably the most charming guy in the intere castle. He had bright light brown hair, deep blue eyes and an athletic body with an smart brain.

'I'm sorry?' She questioned stoping the walk before they could open the last compartment to check inside even if they could see through the glass.

'You know... About a certain cousin of yours...'

'Oh, Right!' She gave him forced smile 'Albus. Do you want to talk about him?'

'I want to talk with him' he clarified 'In person'

'So do that after we finish' The girl said like it was the most reasonable thing in the world to do.

'You know, I was specking a big quiz about my intentions with one of the Weasley's clan member from you'

Rose could help a laugh and questioned 'Well, who said you won't get one when you ask him to go to Hogsmead with you?'

'Are you saying that he would yes if I ask?' Logan seemed almost surprised.

'I am not denying it'

'Great, then I'll do it now!'

'What?!' She almost screamed.

Before Rose could do anything, Logan opened the door compartment reveling Albus Potter playing with a white Persian cat and Scorpius Malfoy lying in the other seat reading a Bathilda Bagshot book and eating chocolate. Both boys looked to then, and Rose felt the butterflies back when the blond boy gave a smile closing the book and sitting straight.

Of course she didn't saw who were inside.

'Hullo, Potter' Logan said giving the boy such a strong smile that Rose felt her cheeks hot.

'Hi, Stuart' Albus said not daring to move a muscle, not even when the cat - obviously not liking the visitors, jumped from the seat to hid behind it.

Logan moved like he owned the place, made his way close to Scorpius and give his hand to shake the boy's. 'I don't believe we ever properly met. I'm Logan Stuart.'

'I know, I'm Scorpius Malfoy' He gave the other boy a strange smile, one Rose never saw before, making her shiver 'Albus's best mate and very good with hexes.'

Was he threatening him?

Logan raise his eyebrows and smile back.

'Scorpius!' Albus complained looming his eyes.

'What? Just giving my fellow classmate information about myself'

'Actually, Potter' Logan looked back to the boy 'I was hoping that I could talk to you in private.'

'Aren't you and Rose suppose to patrol?'

'This is the last compartment we supposed to check, so I'm afraid I am all yours.'

'Okay...' Rose saw his cheeks begin to blush 'Let's...'

Rose almost choked with laughter and exchange a knowing look with Scorpius, making the boy get up.

'Oh, don't worry' Logan said taking Albus's hand with his making the boy bush harder then before 'We will leave you too here. Don't mind us.'

Like that, they let Rose And Scorpius alone.

'Did he just...' Rose began to say but stopped shaking her head.

'He is...' Scorpius started but couldn't finish, trying to find an word.

'Too much?' She asked with a grin.

'Yeah...' The blond boy smiled back 'Do you think he really cares for him?'

The girl took a deep breath and decided to sit next to Scorpius - it wasn't like the two boys were probably coming back soon. 'Well, we'll see... he is actually asking Albus to go with him in the next Hogsmead visit, as a date'

'Really? The year didn't even started yet, how can he even know when...' Scorpius began an gave a knowing look 'Oh, right. Head Boy'

'Yes... It will be in the end of September if you're curious'

Would you like to go with me?, Rose almost let the words scape from her lips.

'And he is already asking Albus?' ignoring the date information.

'I believe that he don't want to lose time. They did spend the hole summer exchanging letters'

'Then, I'm happy for Albus. The coming out were difficult for him'

Rose just found out the complete history in the summer even if Albus coming out happened in December on Christmas at the Burrow. Albus realized that he didn't liked girls in the end of fifth year when he perceived that he didn't find any girl hot and kept looking to the boys body's at Quidditch games. After that, he spend the intere summer trying to figure out how he would tell his family, and that's when Scorpius asked him to visit Malfoy Manor and he come out to his best friend, who gave him all the support that was needed.

Albus just had the bravery to say the truth about himself to the Weasleys when Uncle George teased him about not bringing any "birds" to introduce to the family. He had talked about it with his father and mother in separate conversations lately the day and the revelation didn't came as a big surprise to Rose as the others.

Not that her cousin "acted gay" and she could see it since their were kids. Not at all! Albus were the complete inverse of a gay stereotype - not that Rose thought that should be any, he was deeply shy about relationships and was an introvert - except when he was with Scorpius. Rose actually found out when she realized the way that Albus looked to other boys. Every time that she thought about it she felt strange, she wouldn't be paying these much attention in her cousin if Scorpius wasn't at his site all the time.

'I am too' Rose said looking through the window 'It's good to see people falling in love'

She saw Scorpius bite his lip and look away in the corner of her eye, he aways did that when he didn't know what to say.

They kept themselves in a comfortable silence for the next minutes just looking the landscape listening to each other breaths.

The feeling of having Scorpius so close to her should despond her given to the way she felt for him, but it didn't. The knowing of him there right beside so peaceful made her heart warm and calm, like just his present could make all anxiety go away. And it's scared her.

It was scaring because she never felt like this with her ex boyfriend the year before or any other boy. There was no butterflies, fireworks or peaceful comforting silences.

And that's why she end her last relationship: because se was confuse about her feelings about Scorpius and Daves deserved more than that.

Rose wanted to knew what Scorpius were thinking. What was inside his mind in that minute: so close to her and yet so far away. But she couldn't ask it.

Rose Granger-Weasley were courageous about lots of things, these things didn't included Scorpius Malfoy.

'Guess who's back?' Albus voice brought her back from her thoughts.

'Is that a hickey?' Rose teased grinning to him.

'What?' Albus looked shocked and put his hand in his neck like it would check if there was anything there 'N-no'

'She's just teasing you, mate' Scorpius said laughing to his friend reaction.

'Oh, Right' the dark haired boy deep breathed 'Don't do that, Rose! I almost died of scare!'

'What? Is it that bad that your are snoging someone?' Rose asked crossing her arms.

'No... It's just that the other boys in our dormitory wouldn't stop making fun of me'

'Been there, it's totally horrible' Scorpio's agreed.

Been there.

'Yeah, I remember that' Albus said laughing.

Of course! What she was thinking? That Scorpius were just sit and wait her to return his feelings?

She never saw Scorpius property date someone, but she heard people gossiping and knew he did kissed some girls in post Quidditch matches parties the year before. And she couldn't blame him.

She couldn't blame him.

But she could blame herself.

Blame that she probably lost the best boy she could ever had. Even if her ex boyfriend Elliot Davies were a really nice boyfriend to her the year before.

There was no butterflies, fireworks or peaceful comforting silences.

And still, she didn't even knew she did truly had a deep feeling for Scorpius or was just forcing herself to this. Because she was broken... And lost... And confuse.

Years of pretending that everything was okay just dispersed away.

That's when she felt the tears in her eyes and before any of the boys realized, she quickly said she had to go to do Head Girl's business and runed to found some placewhere she could cry alone.

Hello!

First, sorry for the late update. I was just really having difficulties to write about Rose and her feelings. I hote it doesn't look too forced and weird. Please, say what you think about it!

Again, if there is any grammar or spelling error's please let me know. I been trying to find a beta, but I didn't find one yet.

If you did read the first chapter before I update this one, you realized that I used - instead of ' in the characters speechs. It probably felt strange to read in that way. This is the way we use in Brazil and I forgot about it. So, I correct it in the first one and did it right on the one.

Hope to "see you" in the next one!