A/N: I decided to add a New Year two parter to this story. They are completely seperate stories. (Sorry I just had to update it because there was a little continuity error that was driving me nuts.)

"Hey Adam." He felt the hair stand up on the back of his neck. "How was your Christmas?"

Awesome, this had just shut down his New Year buzz. If he'd known she was going to be here he would have taken up any other offer that came his way. Why the fuck did he have to accept Atwater's invite? Probably because his begging was borderline pitiful and he felt sorry for him, along with fact that Kev was his best bud.

"Fine Burgess." He grabbed the drinks he had ordered in both hands and gave her a quick nod and returned to their table at the back.

Kim felt like her balloon had just been popped. A few weeks ago they had at least been civil to each other, bordering on friendly even but ever since she had come upstairs he was barely even speaking to her and they had gone back to surnames. It hadn't been the easiest of transitions.

She considered leaving the bar but she had been invited by some of her old Academy Pals and despite knowing that Adam was here Kim was determined to enjoy herself. Throughout the night she spotted him occasionally. He was surrounded by women, and why wouldn't he be, he was drop dead gorgeous and had a beautiful outgoing personality. He attracted people like bees to honey, that's what got her into this mess and now someone else was getting to enjoy him and she hated it.

As the clock headed towards midnight Kim pulled back on the drinking. The more she drank the more likely she was to approach him and that would be both embarrassing and stupid, especially since he had made it quite clear he was not interested in having anything to do with her. She had stopped by their table when Atwater had called her over when she was heading to the bathroom.

"Kim Burgess." He threw his arms around her neck and laid a sloppy kiss on her cheek. "How's my old partner doin'?" From over his shoulder she watched as Adam turned his back on her and leant into the girl beside him and whispered something. When she laughed she sounded so vapid that Kim cringed.

"I'm good Kev, and you?"

"Loving life." He introduced her to the girl next to him but Kim couldn't remember her name. All she wanted to do was get away from this group. "Broken any hearts lately?" Kev was obviously drunk. Adam snapped his head around and Kim just wanted the floor to open up and swallow her. She excused herself and fled to the bathroom.

It wasn't over though because she bumped smack into Adam barely twenty minutes later. "Sorry Burgess."

"You know you can call me Kim."

"Nah, I'm good." He stepped aside and continued to the bar without giving her a second look.

Why the hell he did what he did he would never know? It hurt like all hell, why did he continue to torture himself? As the bar counted down to midnight he weaved through the crowd and just after the clock ticked over he touched her back. "Kim."

She spun around and crashed into him and before she could think he had kissed her, not just a friendly peck, he had grabbed the back of her neck, tangling his hand in her hair and kissed her long and hard. "Happy New Year." The words were soft against her lips.

Just as quickly it was over and she was left staring at his back as he pushed his way through the crowd and out the door. Kim stood speechless for a moment until someone bumping into her jolted her out of her stupor and she took off after him, filled with rage and desire.

"Adam. Stop." She called out, surprised that words actually came out of her mouth but he just kept walking, his hands shoved deep into his pockets and his shoulders hunched against the cold.

"Go on walk away, that's what you are good at." Kim screamed after him, the icy air almost taking her breath away. "Why would you do that and then walk away?"

Adam swung around and almost ran back to face her, his eyes were spitting with fire and it was a look that she had never seen before. "Because I am a coward and I am pathetic, is that what you want to hear. I am pathetic because no matter how many times you break my heart, kick me in the balls and humiliate me I can't stop loving you."

"Adam." That was the last thing she expected him to say.

"I hate that you make me feel like this."

Kim wrapped her arms around herself to try and stay warm. She had come out without her coat and scarf and was starting to feel it. "What did you want me to do?

"Talk to me." His answer was simple and came out almost in a whisper.

"I tried."

"You never tried." Now he was starting to get angry again. "You never tried. You ignored me, you gave me back my ring and cut me out of your life and now you just pretend like it never happened."

"I was hurt, you didn't want to marry me." Kim was spiralling, she was trying to get him to understand but the more he talked, or yelled the more she realised how much he was hurting. How much she had hurt him. All she ever saw was his inaction and took that as a sign that he didn't love her enough.

"No, Kim. That was you and then you walked around all wounded. You wanted to transfer out because you couldn't stand to work with me." Kim had no idea that he even knew about that. She opened her mouth and was about to tell him about the push test but closed it again. That wouldn't help her cause.

Kim was trying to defend herself but she felt like it was a losing battle. "It wasn't that, I didn't want to see you everyday after you broke my heart."

"I did nothing to your heart. You broke your own heart." Shaking his head he added. "And mine."

Kim couldn't stop the bubble of rage rising inside her. "You are right about one thing, you did nothing."

"Nothing? How many times did I try and talk to you, approach you to see if you were alright? Do you know how hard I worked to clear your name? How many hours I put in to help you? Do you?" Kim just stared, he sounded so heartbroken and she had done this to him. "And what did you do? Fucked Roman and let me find out in court, in a courtroom full of our peers, our colleagues and the media. Do you know how humiliating that was?"

He turned away momentarily and she thought he was done but he faced her again. "Then suddenly I was the bad guy, everyone was at me, watching me while your fucking douche of a boyfriend swanned about upstairs like the fucking messiah and I had to shake his fucking hand because if I didn't I would look like a prick."

Adam's breathing was laboured and she could see the cold air circling around his mouth. "And now you just think you can come up and want me to be happy to see you every single fucking day."

"You don't want me in Intelligence."

"Don't even." He held up his hand angrily. "I always wanted you to have whatever you wanted, I supported you everyday. I never told you not to go for your dreams but Roman got in your head" he tapped his forehead with a finger. "and suddenly you are all about Patrol. And you were surprised that people thought you two had something going on?

"There was nothing going on with Roman and I until after we broke up but your little jealous petulant outburst certainly got people talking."

"Yes, I was jealous. I was insanely jealous and I had eaten it for weeks. Seeing you all laughing and happy with him and as soon as I appeared you looked like someone had just shot your dog. You made it patently obvious you had moved on." He ripped off his jacket and almost threw it at her. "Put it on, you're cold."

"I don't want it." Screwing it up in her hands she was just about to throw it back at him but it was his and even the action of throwing it at her had filled her nose with his smell. God, how she loved that smell, it was intoxicating. He seemed to hate her right now but he was concerned that she was cold.

He watched her and was mesmerized, she looked lost and he wanted to hold her and he could still taste her on his lips. "Put the bloody thing on Kim." She slid her arms into it and pulled it tightly around her body, letting the feeling of him cocoon her and Adam shoved his hands in his pockets to stop himself from reaching out to her and stamped his feet to distract himself.

"Adam, I'm sorry."

He tilted his head back and stared at the clear night sky, blowing out a long slow breath he watched the small cloud dissipate along with his anger. "Don't."

Kim took a step towards him and touched his arm. "Adam."

"Don't Kim, please." He turned and walked away and left her standing there battered and bruised.