A/N: This is a revised chapter...Music Lyrics added...chp.5 will be updated in a similar fashion also

Song is Knowing me, Knowing you by ABBA

Lyrics are bold, italics

Chapter 2: Nightmares

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As Remus wrote the letter, he felt his heart breaking in two. Every word he wrote, every time is quill touched the paper, he felt a little more of himself die. He had lain awake since the nightmare. It was, in fact, the nightmare that made him feel he had to leave...for that was the only way he could protect his family.

No more carefree laughter
Silence ever after

He replayed the dream over in his head for the hundredth time:

Remus walked into the small flat that he and Tonks had bought. Tonks was holding a baby in her arms. After putting the baby to bed, Remus began to prepare himself for the full moon that night. However, his wife stopped him.

Smiling, Tonks handed him a small vile. "Severus dropped off your Wolfsbane potion today. I am going to head off to bed while the baby sleeps." She kissed his cheek before walking down the hall.

"Yeah, I'm pretty tired too," He drank the entire contents of the vile and followed Tonks to their bedroom.

Somehow, though it had been only seconds, Tonks was asleep when Remus entered the room. He changed into pajamas and looked outside. For some reason, even though he had consumed the entire potion, he could feel himself start to take his werewolf form. 'Severus had brewed the wrong potion! (A/N: We all know that the all-powerful Severus Snape would never ever brew the wrong potion. What do you think he is...a dunderhead? It fit the dream...) He screamed out in pain. Tonks, who was asleep mere feet away, didn't move.

Remus ran out of the room, his thoughts on keeping his family safe. He had to get out of the house. He ran to the door, but it was locked. As he desperately tried to open it, the handle had disappeared. He went around to all of the windows, trying to break them, but again he failed. He fell into the wall, beginning to change physically now, making it hard for him to stand.

Remus began to feel the effects of the transformation even more. He ran to the bathroom, barricading himself in. He backed into the wall, hoping that his family would be safe if he remained inside the bathroom.

As he began to think again about why the potion had faltered, the walls began to shake, and after a moment, they were gone. It was as if they had dissinigrated right in front of his eyes. However, by the time the walls were completely gone, he was fully transformed.

The werewolf walked down the hallway, sniffing the air that was full of the sent of fresh flesh. He walked over to where Tonks slept, and climbed onto the bed. He positioned himself over her, growling. Tonks was awoken by the sound, and screamed as she was bitten by the man she trusted...the man she loved.

Just thinking about the dream made Remus feel nauseous. He would never, ever forgive himself if something like that happened.

After packing his belongings, Remus placed is note on the table next to her. He briefly placed his hand on her stomach and kissed her cheek, he whispered, "I love you...both of you." With one last kiss on the cheek, Remus turned and left, not knowing the amount of damage and hurt this would cause her. Of course, she would be upset...depressed for a while, but she would move on.

Walking through an empty house, tears in my eyes
Here is where the story ends, this is goodbye

As he left, he imagined that the first step would be the hardest, the most painful. He quickly realized, however, that they would not get any easier along the way. Every step he took was a battle. He wanted to go back to her. His heart told him to return but his brain told him differently, and Remus Lupin had always thought it wise to listen to his brain before his heart. Perhaps, this one time, he should have made an exception. No, no, he was too dangerous, not to mention there were a lot of other 'too's when it came to him. No, it was best if they go there separate ways now...it would be simpler in the end.

Knowing me, knowing you
There is nothing we can do
Knowing me, knowing you
We just have to face it, this time we're through

Breaking up is never easy, I know but I have to go

Not having any idea of what he should do or where he should go, Remus decided to look for Harry and see if he needed any assistance. Yes, that should keep his mind off of his wife and unborn child. His heart, on the other hand...was an entirely different story.

A/N: Hope you enjoy this revised chapter