Prologue Part 2: And The Story Goes On
A Year Later
_Tears were streaming down Ga Eul's face and a bitter smile crossed her lips as she thought how naive she was a year ago,how blinded by love she was,she left a good job oppotunity,abondonated her friends,droped out of her university,disapointed her parents and followed him to the other side of the world,he was her first love,the one who convinsed her that she's still young and have all her life in front of her,that she can still find a better job than the one proposed to her,that friends come and go and that she will make a lot of new friends in the future,that her parents will forgive her later... She belived in every single word he said,she thought it was her late teenage dream,the naive nineteen years old girl didn't realise that she was being dragged to the edge of a cliff
_The first months in Korea were like heaven,her hometown was as she remember it 10 years ago sunny,warm and welcoming,she was so relifed to be away from the sofocating cold misty city that was London,where she spent 10 years of her life. As expected,he was treathing her like a princess just as she was used to in her parents'house,they wake up every morning in eachother's arms,take their breakfast,dress up and take long strolls near the beach hand in hand,go shopping in the mall,take their lunch in a fancy restaurant,stroll again in Seoul,go to a night club where they made a lot of "friends" and comeback late at night drunk to their rented apartment,and the circle repeated itself everyday for the next few months
_Danger signes started to appear when they started running out of money,they both spent their savings carlessly on useless things,they had to move out of their fancy apartment to a small studio in a filthy neighbour,they started to spend less time together. Finding jobs was the toughest thing for them,he worked as a barthender in the club they used to go to,as for her,she was turned down as soon as she applied for any job,despite her good looks and polite personnality, all the posts she applies to requered experience and a school degree which she lacks... After a struggle that lasted about a month,she found a low salary job in a small restaurant: She would wake up at 6 a.m and go to her work while her boyfriend is still snoring and comeback around 7 p.m while the man she loves is still at his work,she would get goosebumps as soon as she she feels the predator looks of the men who were sometimes older than her dad throwing her... She would close her door and sight in relief than start kniting some wollen shirts that she sell to a nice halmoni who owns a suju tent across the restaurant where she works,she was physically destroyed
_The hell's doors broke open when her dear boyfriend started complaining about their lack of money,he yelled at her often for no reason,leaving her crying in her corner,she would often blame him for the crapy life she's living right now,for dragging her away from London where she was living like a princess he would shoot back that she was the one who decided to follow him and that he didn't force her,but,despite all of this things she would wake up the very next morning and make him a breakfast as a sign of apologie,she would tell herself that she won't let this small obstacles ruin their great love story and the same circle repeat itself
_And one day,everything turned to a nightmarre: She was working the extra night shifts,the rent collectors started threating to throw them in the streets if they don't pay,her boyfriend had been fired for being involved in a fight,and as a result,all the weight was on her while he spent his day strolling on the streets or drinking his ass off and demanding money from her... That night the restaurant was empty and she was supposed to end her shift in two hours,sighting,she cleaned the tables and mopped the floor,when,a pair of strong arms circled her waist. Fear took over her as she turned around to see what was it all about and she was welcomed by the mischievoulious smile of her boss's husband. She tried to free herself but he was way too strong than her,pining her to the wall he kissed her as his dirty hands were ripping her V-neck t-shirt... By a miracle and before he got any further,his wife (Her boss) entred and witnessed the whole scene,and pulled the aminal away of the young woman and slapped him then did the same to the poor victim and fired her... Zipping her jacket,she ran toward her house as she was crying and sobbering,people were starring at her but she didn't care,she felt violated,convicted of a crime that she didn't commit,how will she face her boyfriend now? how will they pay the rent?
_Arriving to the house at 11 p.m after calming down,she slid the key though the lock and the second shock was right in front of her: Her beloved boyfriend making out with a half naked woman,muffling a gasp she couldn't belive what was happening right in front of her... Few moments later,she slid to the bedroom stuffed some random clothes in a bag,took her dear accoustic blue guitar and as a thief,she opened the door and walked away not bothering to look at the two busy people who were too engrossed in their body dance that they didn't even notice her going in and out of the house
_He came into her life and wrecked havoc,she gave up everything and followed him and this is how he rewarded her,he took her for granted. Wipping her tears harshly,she tried to figure out where she was heading,it's been hours since she was wandering in Seoul streets aimlessly,luckly she found nearby sona where she spent the night shading the remaining tears on her body broken hearted
_She woke up in the morning and took a shower,dressed in a white summer dress and white sandals,she decided to take a walk around carrying her guitar with her,and so she did until she found a quiet corner under a huge cherry blossom tree in a breath taking garden,it was full of colors unlike her miserable life,the birds were signing,flowers were dancing,butterflies were flying. She really envie them,they all look happy,living their life not worrying about tomorow. If only... If only she was a flower,she would live her life in peace enjoying the paradistic view of this garden,and die by the end of the spring,only to be born the next one... A strong breeze of air crossed her... She thought he was a breeze,a sweet breeze that crossed her to take her to dream land,but in fact,he was a storm,a gale that sweeped her off her feet to the edge of a cliff and harshly pushed her... Her parents will never forgive her,her university will never take her in again,jobs will never hire a drop-out with no university degree all because of him "Unforgivable Sinner" she whispered softly as tears begun streaming silently on her pale pretty face and started playing a sweet melody on her guitar of a song that she always loved but never knew the meaning... Until today
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*There he was,not looking anymore as his glorious former self,gone were the royal well shaped wings,gone were the colors that decorated him,gone was the sound that the beat of his wings once upon a time made,he looked now more like an ugly creature,big holes were visible in his now black wings,his smell was insupportable,flying or rather being carried by the breeze because,he had no energy left... Once he entred the garden,the news flew faster than the lightning all around: Insects,birds,trees and flowers started whispering about the-one-they-should-not-mention,the one who disppeared a year ago due to a tragedy he was the cause of... They were all looking in the same direction when he steped in,a creature with no shape,a monster: The flowers gasped in awe,the bees trying to look sorry,but in fact they were happy,cause for so long,he thought that they are inferiour compared to him,birds were feeling pitty for him,wise trees were whispering something about karma...
*He smiled bitterly,all the hypocrisy has disappeared right now,to think that once the flowers loved him,the bees respected him,the birds were his friends,the trees alowed him to stand on their branches. It was all because of his looks,he looks now like a monster,and this what he really is,this is what was hidding under his mask of royal butterfly... They seem so shocked but he didn't care,their disgusted looks won't be more painfull then losing her. Wandering aimlessly on God's earth for a year,he was waiting for spring to come again,hoping that she will rebirth again under the cherry blossom tree,that he'll have a second chance with her,and that this time he'll make up for her for all the pain and misery and heartbreak he caused her a year ago
*He was closing the distance between him and the cherry blossom tree,from his place he could see something white,'Is it her?'everything around him ceased on existing,all the could see was his beloved White Flower... He finally arrived and saw her,as innoncent as always,as pretty as ever,as giant as always,as pure as a... 'GIANT?!' The shock made him fall backwards on the ground,was he seeing things? No he's not! He saw the white under the tree,what could that be other than HIS White Flower,still from the ground he stared at the enormous form and the surprise came in,it's a human being! A girl who is looking exactly like the flower he murdered a year ago,yeah he murdered her!
*The girl in white dress was staring at a black spot on the ground,right in the butterfly's eyes,her tears falling as if feeling his pain,and then,she whispered two words that opened his eyes to the reality "Unforgivable Sinner". Not moving her gaze from him,she begun playing a soft melodie on her blue guitar and an angelic voice was heard
(Kinda lose your sense of time
'Cause the days don't matter no more)
*After what happened,he was baned from the garden,he lost his sense of time,all days were the same without her
(All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside)
*Yeah that's right,during the entire spring,she was confessing to him,showing him her love,but all he did was ignoring her,he loved her back as much as she did but he hid it,he was afraid to fall,but now he's assuming the consequences of his act: He's torn up inside as well as outside
(You hope she knows you tried
Follows you around all day)
*He really hopes that she knows he did feel the same about her,that he tried,and despite all the cautions he fell for her... He used to hide and listened to her talking to the new born cherry blossooms about her dream to have legs so that she can follow him around all day,and he would smile at the idea and hope that it'll come true one of these days
(And you wake up soaking wet)
*No once,not twice,he lost counting,he wake up soaking wet,one day because he spent his night flying on the heavy rain,in an attempt to end his life so he can join her,but he would wake up the next morning soaking wet but alive... How many times he flew above the ocean and then,volontary fall into the water just to wake up the next day all drenched up and alive
('Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see)
*He even ventured himself on the ennemi's dangerous teritory just so a spider or a sauvage animal would eat him,but,to his biggest dispoint,these animals spared his life,probably disgusted by his look... He was doing the impossible just to join her where she is,in a hope to see her face once again
(You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are)
*Yes he knows,he knew all this time where he sent her,he sent her to her doom,to her destruction,to her end... Away from him
(You're trying to erase off
But you know you won't get far)
*He sleeps every night with one and only hope,to wake up and find that it was all a dream,that he'll make up for all the pain and humiliation he caused her,that he would cherish and love her forever. But then,his dream don't get any further as sun rays,rain drops or wind blows wakes him up as if mocking him,telling him that he had his chance and blew it away... That unfortunelly what happened happened and nothing can be erased
(And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words)
*There is nothing he can do,she's already up there,exactly where she belongs,where all the angels go,right above the clouds. She must be happy now,she has to! She is away from him,she even must be singing to see him being tortured,he sees her in his dreams dancing and singing or at least that's what he thinks,her lips are moving but no words can be heard... Even her voice can't reach his ears
(And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner)
*She's never coming down,she's stay there,and even if his end come,there is no way he'll meet her up there,she's an angel in heaven and he was an Unforgivable Sinner, the ones like him go straight to where they deserve... To hell
(You've been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get)
*Trees were right,karma cameback to punish him,every night during the previous spring,when he passed by her,he would find her crying her heart out for him, and now he's the one crying her loss. All his questions were left hanging,she took all the answers with her... Why had she fell for a wrecker like him?
(You won't ever be the same
Someone cries and you're to blame)
*No he'll never be the same nor physically nor mentally,but does it really matter? Does anything matter without her? He could never forget that day when the tragedy happened,when he cameback to find the whole garden crying,everybody accusing him for what happened,blaming him for hurting her... They had all the rights to ban him away
(Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you'll defeat)
*That fight started when he first realised his feelings for her,a permanant fight between his heart that yearns for her,and his mind that is reasoning out that this relation is impossible,that he deserves better than a plain flower,he then thought by not confessing,he'll prevent her sorrow,giving the fact that he was a free butterfly and she was a flower roothed to the earth... Well played karma,it is him who's struggling with eternal sorrow
(The picture you see it won't disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or her voice you hear)
*That picture hunted him the whole year,was the subject of all his nightmares,prevented him from sleeping,the first thing he see when he closes his eyes and the last thing he see before he opens them,the picture of her rooths still on the ground while her upper part was gone,her once white leaves were scattered all around,her innocent voice was no more reaching his ears... Is this her way to punish him?
(You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to erase off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner)
*He understood,he got the message,nothing is left to do here anymore. Karma sent this girl to remind him of what he lost,to deliver the message and oh,he got it... If only... If only he have a second chance,another chance to repent,if only God could hear his wish,his prayer to be a human,and he swear this time he won't mess up,he will wip away this girl's tears he will make her happy and he'll love and cherish her for the rest of his life
*He took one last look at the incarnation of his death love,she was still playing and shading tears. He used all the energy left in his body to fly away,how could he be so naive? Why would God forgive him and furthermore give him a second chance for redemption? As he neared a nearby maple tree,all energy has been expended,he settle himself on a branch,but the tree brushed him away... He knew it,he knew all along since he entred this garden,this is his doom,this is his end... While free falling,his last words were "Unforgivable Sinner"
_A sweet melodie woke him up from his slumber,it was too sweet that it actualy gave him headache,a soft voice joined the melodie and mingled in perfect harmonie with it,but all he could hear was echos,the words weren't clear enough for his ears,he opened his eye but closed it immediatly due to the blinding sun rays,he have a hangover. After some time he opened both his eyes and when they adjusted themselves to the light he took a look around him: he was in a garden 'What am I doing here'He wondered as he had no clue about how he got here,he remember the party,sex,drugs,music,alcohol and then... Nothing came into his memory... He was sitting under what seemed to be a maple tree,and he was surounded by green spaces,the wind was blowing,the birds were whistling and the... Oh wait a second! The melodie,the voice. He gazed right to the source of the song which was a huge cherry blossom tree,he could see someone under it,he tries to stand up and so he did but right away he felt dizzy so he balanced himself with his right hand by grabbing the tree trunk,when,a black shapeless creature fell on his left hand and the words were more clear
(Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground
Maybe one time lost
But now you're found
Stand right up before
You hit the ground - hit the ground)
_He gazed at the cherry blossom tree and then back at the creature in his palm,at first sight,it looks like a burned leaf,but now that he is looking closer,it is more like an insect with wings... Still contamplating at the black thing,he heard the voice again,this time loud and clear. It sang some words that woke him up from a slumber that was way deeper than the usual sleeping human beings are used to: It waked his senses as well as a memory that he belived he had forgoten a year ago
(You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to erase off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner)
_Unconciently,tears were falling down his face... A strong blew of wind blew and the insect in his hand was carried away,he watched as the lifeless thing flew to an unknown destination... How much he envies that insect,it is death,free from the responsabilities,free from mind-scolding,free from life... It is free from being called an Unforgivable Sinner
_The impact of these words got him on the ground again,his sight was blury when the melody stopped,and from under the tree,stood the source of the music who is apparently a girl... A distance separed them and as he tried to stand up,the girl turned around for a brief moment to face him,and then,any intention to stand was forgoten,the organ in his chest that he thought for so long was useless was pounding like crazy... There she is,standing only few meters away from him,a sad smile on her face while tears are runing down her cheeks,just like the last time he saw her a year ago,they made an eye contact that for him seemed like an eternity although it took only a second... She turned her angelic face from his,and she walked... He tried to stand by he felt rooted to the ground,he tried over and over again as he watched her walking futher and futher 'I didn't... I didn't catch her... I repeated the same mistake!'
_He rose his hand as if he'll be able to catch her "So Eun-ah... Comeback to me!"He wanted to scream but it actualy came out as a whisper... As he collapsed on the ground,his phone vibrated in his pocket. He answered without checking the ID of his caller
"Yi Jeong-ah? Where are you? We've been searching you for four days wherehave you been?"
"Woo Bin-ah I saw her! I saw So Eun again! she's alive!"
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*So this is what I got so far,I still don't know where this story is heading (I have an idea but it is not definitive),that's why I decided to take it slow to give you the best :D