Author's Note: This chapter is Emily's POV on the kiss in episode 4.
Disclaimer: Obviously I do not own Skins and I am in no way, shape or form making a profit from this!!!
Shit. Why did I kiss you Naomi? You were high on brownies for fucks sake-I was taking advantage of you! God you're going to hate me now, I've betrayed your trust, I am such a bad person.
But you were just there and you looked so hot and your laugh was so infectious. Why did you have to stand so close to me when you asked me what I wanted to drink? Why do you have to be so god-damn sexy all the time? I couldn't help but steal that first kiss from you-and man was I surprised when you leaned in to kiss me again. When I replay it over in my head, I erase the part where you say 'It's only the drugs right?', so I can believe that you truly wanted to kiss me just as much as I wanted to kiss you.
A part of me wants to believe that the drugs revealed feelings for me that you had buried deep down inside. I know you don't like emotional attachments to people, and I hope that that is the reason why you distanced yourself from me. The last thing I want is for you to be scared of me because of my feelings for you.
You didn't distance yourself at Pandora's party though. Even before the brownies had taken affect you were responding to the glances I gave to you. It gave me hope, a hope that had died when you reacted the way you did at the underground rave where I told you that I wanted to kiss you. Everything that you do affects me in some way. When you are sad, I am sad. When you retort to Katie's snide remarks it makes me happy. When you kissed me I felt like I was about to explode. You tasted of the brownies and alcohol mixed together with an apply something that must have been the essence of you.
I am in love with you Naomi. Please tell me that it wasn't just the drugs. Please tell me that you are in love with me too. Please.