Chapter one: Without Jacob

My heart was pounding and blood was rushing through my veins. I knew that I was dreaming. This is the sort of thing that, I thought, would only occur in dreams. In this particular dream, Jacob and I were in danger. He was holding my hand and we were running. Not from anything I had ever seen, except I was positive I may have seen vampires in their midst. The other groups of beings were aliens to me. Jacob is a werewolf, you see, and I am half vampire, seeing that my mother Bella was a mortal human when I was born, though now she is as my father, vampire.

But we were being chased. It frightened me, the hunger in the ruby red vampire eyes. My eyes, on the other hand, are brown. Most vampires that feed on animals have gold eyes, while vampires that feed on humans have red. I inherited mine, though. I could also see the desire to kill in the alien's faces. Jacob and I were running, finally gaining speed. "Nessie." He said. That's my name. Well, my name is Renesmee Carlie Cullen, but everyone (except my mother Bella) calls me Nessie, and I don't mind. My Aunt Alice, though, calls me Razz. OK, now back to my dream. "Nessie" he said, taking both my hands in his. "Nessie, if we don't get out of this, know this. I love you. I always have and I always will."

Then I woke up. I shrugged off the dream and threw on a new T shirt Aunt Rose had bought me and a pair of jeans, running outside to see my two best friends, Jacob Black and Seth Clearwater waiting for me.

"Finally, Nessie, we thought you couldn't sleep in any later!" Seth teased, throwing a baseball hard at Jacob, who caught it in one easy grab.

"Seth, man, don't say that. Last Saturday, she slept all afternoon, remember?"

I laughed again. "I did NOT, Jake!" I said, at the same time catching the ball Jacob threw at me."

Jake smiled his famous grin that I knew so well. "Well, you can sleep as long as you want for the next two weeks, because Seth and I are going out of state."

I dropped the ball.

"WHAT?" I yelled.

Seth smiled. "Yeah." Billy has this job for us to do in Montana, plus it's been ages since Jake and I went hunting. I frowned. Jacob was my best friend. And so much more. Jacob was a part of my life, a part of me that could never be the same without him. I knew I meant a lot to him, even though I had only been alive for 2 ½ years, I was as experienced as a 15 year old. I looked 13. Good thing for me, half vampires' age quickly. OK, back to reality. "Alice and Rosalie will play with you while were gone." Seth said. I groaned. Alice was awesome, but who would want to play with sourpuss evil Aunt Rosalie?

"Can't I come?" I whined. I hated being away from them. It was like a punishment! I sighed. Didn't they realize they were ALREADY hurting me? How was I going to live two whole weeks without my two best friends? At least I had Alice, Jasper, and Super Awesome Emmett. And, of course, Rosalie, who really isn't THAT bad once you REALLY get to know her. Even my parents and Grandpa Carlisle and Aunt Esme are fun to be with. But. Still. No. JACOB!!!!

Jacob put his arm around me. "I'll miss you. Be back in two weeks!" I Sighed. Two weeks. I could handle that, right? I looked through the window at Alice, who was playing with flowers. I'm betting on Alice! Her eyes lit up as she saw a vision of me and her, obviously. She nodded then went back to playing with flowers. Jacob looked at me. "Renesmee remember. I'm yours forever." I thought this over. "Forever?" I asked. "Forever and Always."

Jacob and Seth departed later that morning. Usually, I hunted with them, until last month with a disaster involving me almost eating Jessica Stanley ended that routine. Alice skipped to my side. "Don't be ridiculous, Nessie. You'll last. And he will be back." I nodded and examined the promise ring Jacob had given me on my first Christmas. This was his promise. He would be back. I smiled. Alice took my hand. "Razz, you do realize your birthday is in five days?" I gasped. "Alice! Jacob's gonna miss my birthday!" Alice shrugged. "Well yeah! But he gave me a present to give you." I shook my head. Still no Jacob on my birthday.

Alice and I went into the kitchen. Bella and Edward, my parents, were there, and I smiled sweetly at them. Edward shrugged sympathetically at me. Oh, yeah, my father can read minds.

The next few days went by slowly. With Rosalie as my only companion, it seemed shopping was my only pastime. And let's just say, shopping with Rose may be a lot different than you're used to. I mean, she always has to think through everything she has to make sure she's not buying something she already owns, and spends hours picking the perfect outfits. But, we spend a lot of money, and people follow Rose everywhere

That night I dreamed about the Volturi. All Italian eyes were on me. Jacob was trying to pull me back. "No, Nessie! Don't do it!" He screamed. But I did. I stepped into the light. "No!" Jacob screamed. His anger got the best of him and he leaped into his wolf form. The Italians gasped. We were fine. Standing out, yes, but fine. Then I spotted her. Jane. Jane's lips curled back, revealing her sharp teeth. Oh great. We were both in severe danger. All of a sudden, Jacob and I were running, the Volturi behind us. Along with the aliens in my last dream that I suddenly understood to be furrshadows. What were furrshadows? I didn't know any more than I knew what the world had in store for me in the next couple of months.

Then Jake took my hand. "Nessie." He said. Then I woke up.

Again the dream had those weird furrshadows as in the dream from 5 days ago. WAIT A MINUTE! 5 days ago? Today was my birthday! Oh no. See, its not that I don't like birthdays. I love birthdays! But not spending them with your true love/best friend can be rather exhausting. I slowly went down the stairs of our giant house one step per minute. See, when you live forever, you can do things like this, just to pass the time. Alice saw me coming through her futuristic mind and was waiting for me at the foot of the stairs. "RAZZ!" She exclaimed as I jumped in her arms. Then Bella and Edward came, each giving me a huge hug." Happy Birthday Renesmee!" Momma said. "Blood cake for breakfast!" Edward said. Okay, I know that sounds gross, but guess what vampires can do stuff like that! I licked my lips. "Yum." Rose grabbed my hand and basically dragged me to the living room where piles of presents were stacked. "Whoa." I screamed. Alice giggled. "Hon, you don't turn 3 every day!" We all laughed, which basically shook the whole house. That morning, after the cake, I opened presents. A laptop computer, a wolf bracelet, a cell phone, TV, stuffed wolf, a grand piano, a new iPod, a clarinet, a flute, a saxophone, a tuba, a trumpet, a trombone, a French horn, a drum set, colored contacts, a video camera, a camera, a dress from the mall, earrings, the hope diamond, and a hamster.

"Thank you ALL." I said, beaming with joy. But there was something missing. Jacob.