"Its getting late, you should probably go," Kuroo said after breaking a long kiss for air.

Bokuto inwardly sighed. He would love to stay the whole night with Kuroo, but he wanted to respect Kuroo and let him take his time in their relationship. They've been dating for about half a year and they still haven't taken their relationship to the next level. Meaning sex. They still haven't had sex.

Bokuto met Kuroo's lips again, "What if I stay tonight?" He whispered in between kisses.

"mmm, Kenma wouldn't like that Bo," Kuroo said softly, pushing Bokuto to sit up straight. He stood up and walked to open the door and motioned for Bokuto to follow.

"Kuroo" Bokuto said standing up, "why don't you... wanna do it with me?" he asked leaning against the wall in the hall way.

"I told you, Kenma will be home soon and he wouldn't want to hear us all night" Kuroo said grasping for an excuse.

"But not even just that," Bokuto said, trying his best to keep his temper down. He had been bottling everything up and he knew this would end in a fight but it had to be said, "I cant even spend the night, The most I can get from you is a couple of hours of the day." he finished

"You don't need to sleep over Bokuto," Kuroo said crossing his arms. He felt like he was about to throw up, this wasn't something he was ready to talk about.

"Why not?! Am I not important to you? I feel like I have to beg you to kiss me" Bokuto said. Just then the front door opened and Kenma and Akaashi walked in, they had just came from dinner at a friends house. Both Bokuto and Kuroo ignored them.

"That isn't true." Kuroo said gritting his teeth and looking down at his rainbow socks that he now felt very insecure wearing as he felt all eyes on him.

"Then what is it. If we cant get past this and grow together then maybe we don't belong together." Bokuto said. He immediately shut up. He didn't mean to say that. Why would he say that? He doesnt want to break up with Kuroo, he's just angry.

Kuroo felt his stomach drop. This couldn't be happening again. He swallowed hard, "What's wrong with you?" He said venomously.

"Me? That is rich coming from you, Mr. 'I have no normal clothe-" Bokuto was cut off by Akaashi.

"Bokuto stop, before you say something you don't mean," Akaashi said stern. Kenma was to shocked to move. He was nervous and had no idea where this would lead.

Bokuto looked at Akaashi and then back at Kuroo, "I'm not the problem here, I'm not scared to get close to people" Bokuto said walking out of the house and into the stormy night.

That stung. Kuroo felt his eyes well up with tears, but he refused to let them fall. He suddenly felt very self conscious as he walked to the couch. Kenma looked at Akaashi and then back at Kuroo.

"I'm going to go talk to him" Akaashi said.

Kenma nodded his head and walked to the couch sitting slightly far from Kuroo. Kuroo numbly lowered his head into Kenma's lap and Akaashi walked out of the apartment.

"I told you he'd leave me," Kuroo said as tears fell from his eyes. He tried to stay quiet, to avoid pity, but he was really hurt.

"hey Tetsu," Kenma said lacing his fingers in Kuroo's hair.

Kuroo looked up at Kenma who held an understanding expression.

"I know that what Tsuki did to you-" Kenma started but stopped as Kuroo sat up.

"This has nothing to do with him," Kuroo said shakily backing away from Kenma who had a shocked expression on his face. Kuroo never snapped at him unless something was truly wrong.

It was quiet for a moment.

"Have you told Bokuto about him," Kenma said quitly.

"No, there's no reason to say anything now, he doesn't want to be with me anymore because I cant have sex with him" Kuroo said with even ore tears falling, "Why cant this be easy? Why're my relationships so hard? I want to be like you and Akaashi," Kuroo said loudly. He could feel himself becoming more vulnerable, which he hated, and stopped talking.

"Oh Kuroo," Kenma sighed, "Every relationship has fights. I'll admit, you've been with bad, bad guys, but Bokuto isn't one of them. He just wants to be close to you. He wants to be the one that knows exactly how you feel just by looking at you. He wants to be the one that can stay with you on the nights that you feel your worst. He wants to show you his love. He wants to be let in. You have to stop pushing him away." Kenma said getting close to Kuroo and hugging him.

"But then he'll leave" Kuroo whispered grabbing Kenma's arm that was wrapped around his shoulders.

"why would he leave?" Kenma laughed.

"Because I'm ruined. I'm a mess" Kuroo said leaning his head on Kenma.

"No you're not. You, my dear friend, are an amazingly weird, funny and unique person and Bokuto see's that. Believe it or not, you are one of the greatest people I know, just because you're a little broken doesn't mean you cant be fix." Kenma said with a warm smile.

"you're a poetic dork," Kuroo laughed. Kenma laughed with him and pulled a blanket around them.

"listen Kuroo, Its scary to tell people your secrets, but once they know, they'll understand you nore. What I mean by that, is that if Bokuto really loves you, he'll stay with you even though you're going through shit" Kenma said.

Kuroo sighed. "I'm scared" he said wiping his eyes.

"well, let me just reiterate what I've been saying. Bokuto, he's madly in love with you He wont treat you badly, he'll stop if you need him to." Kenma said leaing his head onto of Kuroo's.

"My... body isn't... good" Kuroo said, blushed spreading fast.

"yes it is," Kenma said, "You're beautiful to him."

They sat in silence until Kenma turned on the tv and turned off the lights. Kuroo found himself drifting even though it was only 8 o' clock.

"All I'm saying is to talk to him Bokuto, stop being so stubborn" Akaashi said following Bokuto to the kitchen. They'd been arguing since Akaashi arrived.

"He doesn't want to. He gets scared and pushes me away. Literally. we'll be making out and then if I reach anywhere under his clothes BOOM Pushed away. And when I try again its the same shit." Bokuto said rubbing his face angrily.

"Have you asked why?" Akaashi said. Bokuto was quiet, "No? Then you're in the wrong on this one Bo, from what Kenma has old me, he's been through hell. You cant just keep trying to get him to have sex, you have to talk it out-" Akaashi yelled getting closer.

"Ive tried" Bokuto said hitting the table.

Akaashi took a step back and looked at his best friend.

"He... he doesn't want me" Bokuto said quietly.

"Dude," Akaashi said wrapping an arm around his taller friends shoulders, "He's so in love with you"

"He doesn't show it... Or say it" Bokuto said looking at his shoes that had been painted on by Kuroo.

"Then you need to talk about that. I think he wants to tell you what happened in his past, but he loves you so he doesn't want you to leave." Akaashi said pulling him tighter.

"I would never leave him." Bokuto said pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Then that's what you need to tell him. As of right now, I think Kuroo thinks you two are broken up." Akaashi said.

Bokuto's eyes widened as he recalled what he had said to his boyfriend. He rubbed his face.

"I fucked up," He sighed

"No you didn't. You were hurting." Akaashi said shaking his head.

"I made fun of his clothes. He loves his clothes. I love his clothes... I love him!" Bokuto said almost as if he was thinking out loud.

"Then lets go show him" Akaashi said holding up his keys. Bokuto smiled and ran out the door

Bokuto ran up to the door of Kuroo's apartment and rang the door bell. his heart was racing. All he could think about was Kuroo's face. He prayed Kuroo didn't cry.

"You could've at least waited for me to get out of the car." Akaashi said as he got to the door. The door opened to reveal a tired looking Kenma. He rubbed his eyes.

"I hope your not here to hurt my best friend again" Kenma said frowning.

"I'm not. Can I see him?" Bokuto said looking into the apartment to see if Kuroo was there.

Kenma looked behind Bokuto to see Akaashi who nodded his head, silently telling Kenma that Bokuto would fix it.

He sighed. "Right now, Kuroo is asleep in his room. He isn't a heavy sleeper so you can just go wake him up'" Kenma said moving aside to let Bokuto in.

Bokuto walked straight to Kuroo's star littered door and opened it quietly. He walked into Kuroo's dark room and sat on the edge of the bed next to Kuroo's sleeping body. He scoffed at how cute Kuroo looked with his giant hoody that had a picture of a skeleton on it and his lime green joggers and fluffy rainbow socks. Bokuto put his hand on his boyfriends soft bed head, causing him to stir and open his eyes.

Immediately, Kuroo sat up, pulling his legs to his chest and looking at Bokuto with wide eyes.

"hey sorry I didn't mean to wake you up," Bokuto said scooting closer to Kuroo and placing a hand on Kuroo's knee.

Kuroo looked at the hand on his knee confused. Why is he back? They never come back. "I... I um" Kuroo said but couldn't find his words.

"Tetsurou, I am so sorry," Bokuto said replacing his hand with his forehead.

"What?" Kuroo croaked, "Why're you sorry? I'm the one that's sorry"

Bokuto looked up in shock, "You didn't do anything though, I was being selfish and asking too much of you. If you don't love me yet, that's okay, i'll wai-"

"Bokuto what the fuck?" Kuroo said gripping the sleeve of Bokuto's shirt. He stood up and cupped Bokuto's face so he could look directly at him. "I love you. I love you so so much. Like too much. I love you" Kuroo said strongly.

Bokuto felt his eyes fill with tears and his face started to feel hot. "Why don't you ever tell me that" He said grabbing Kuroo's small waist and hugging it tightly.

"I'm sorry. God I'm mean! I'm so bad at remember that you're... different," Kuroo said pushing Bokuto's head to his chest. Bokuto looked up at him confused.

"What do you mean different?" Bokuto asked, genuinely confused.

Kuroo took a deep breath and let go of Bokuto. He crawled onto his big king sized bed and patted the spot next to him, urging Bokuto to sit next to him. Bokuto smiled, how cute.

"Can I tell you something. Its... not happy," Kuroo said as Bokuto sat next to him and pulled the covers onto both of their laps.

"Yes anything," Bokuto said grabbing Kuroo's hand tightly.

Kuroo took a deep breath, "I dated a man, named Tsuki, who used my body as his toy a lot." he said looking at Bokuto. Bokuto looked at him with shock but didn't say anything.

"Yeah kinda crazy right," Kuroo tried to laugh it off, "But yeah... so it started off normal, how a relationship should go, but then we stopped... Kissing, and holding hands in public. When I asked why he told me I thought too much, so I never asked. When we had sex, he would hold me down and uh hide my face with a pillow because he said he didn't want to be gay." Kuroo said. He looked up with a sad smile trying to stop tears from falling.

Bokuto gave his hand a tight squeeze to reassure him.

"One night, I told him I didn't want to have sex and he punched me in the face until I passed out. I'm not sure when Kenma came in but he took me to the hospital and I ended up having a concussion which sorta sucked. When I got home Tsuki told me he found a girl friends and that I was never allowed to speak to him again," Kuroo stopped to look at Bokuto, tears spilled as he saw Kuroo holding in all of his emotions.

"That really hurt me," Kuroo cried. He continue to talk through his tears, "So when I push you off when you reach under my shirt, its not personal" Kuroo said wiping his face with his spare hand, "I just don't want to be used again," He said.

Bokuto grabbed Kuroo's body and hugged him tightly, holding him as if he needed to be protected.

"Why didn't you tell me this Kuroo?" Bokuto asked running his hand through Kuroo's hair.

"I didn't want you to think of me as damaged goods," Kuroo said through tears. He smiled and Bokuto's heart broken even more.

"You're the greatest thing that's happened to me Tetsurou. I...I don't know what I would do without you. I don't see you any different. I think you're perfect." Bokuto said tilting Kuroo's chin up so he could see him boyfriends face.

"I love you," Kuroo said before grabbing the back of Bokuto's head and tilting it down to Kuroo so their lips would meet. It was short and sweet but good.

"Listen, we don't have to have sex now but if you ever change you're mind... I promise I'm not going to leave. I want to have sex with you because I love you and I want to show you how much I love you," Bokuto said softly.

"What if we start slow?" Bokuto suggested.

Kuroo leaned back to look at Bokuto's face for any signs of annoyance or aggravation. When he saw none he answer.

"I want that," Kuroo said with a smile.

Bokuto smiled back and grabbed Kuroo's hands pulling him closer. Wrapping his hands around Kuroo's waist he closed the distance once again with a kiss. This one however was more passionate and eager. Kuroo's hands entangled themselves in Bokuto's hair and Bokuto's stayed firm on Kuroo's waist.

Bokuto pushed Kuroo on his back and continued to kiss him hard. He moved his one of his hands to rest on Kuroo's chest.

"I love your clothes," Bokuto whispered.

Kuroo smiled, "I was hoping you'd say that," he said before continuing to kiss his boyfriend only to stop a few minutes later. He looked a Bokuto with a dazed smile.

"What?" Bokuto said, sharing the same grin. Kuroo sat up. Bokuto looked at him confused until he watched Kuroo lift hid hoody and pull it off of him. Bokuto's jaw dropped.

"Shit," He whisper with a smirk as he admired Kuroo's tan smooth skin.

"You should take yours off too," Kuroo said crawling on top of Bokuto and tugging at his shirt, which Bokuto gladly took off.

Bokuto leaned back and Kuroo straddled him, feeling every muscles on his toned stomach and starring in amazement.

"Thought we were taking this slow," Bokuto said smirking as he put his hands on Kuroo's hips.

"Should I go put my hoody back on?" Kuroo said teasingly.

"Never," Bokuto said grabbing the back of Kuroo's neck and pulling him down to kiss him again.

Kuroo broke the kiss for air, "Can we stop here for tonight?" Kuroo asked with a small blush and a hint of worry.

"Of course," Bokuto said rubbing Kuroo's back. He sat up and began to stand up, "See you tomorrow?" He asked as he turned.

Kuroo rubbed the back of his neck and looked at Bokuto pleadingly, "Um, maybe you should stay the night" Kuroo said quietly.

Bokuto smiled his biggest smile and dropped his shirt on the floor. "Fine by me," he said as he jumped onto Kuroo's bed, pulling the covers over then once again and reaching over Kuroo to turn off the lamp. Once it was off he hugged Kuroo tight and kissed his forehead. Kuroo wrapped his arms around Bokuto and leaned his head on his chest.

"This is nice," Bokuto sighed contently.

Kuroo smiled, "I love you Koutarou."

"I love you more Tetsurou."

Hellooooo! I don't own Haikyuu! Next chapter they'll have sex lol don't worry