Wally took a deep breath before knocking on the door. It was strange to knock on the door of the house he lived in only a week or so ago. His mother answered, her eyes puffy and red. She'd been crying. She let her son in.

"Mom…" was all Wally managed to get out. He nearly forgot why he'd come over.

"What do you want Wally?" Mary asked biting her lip.

"I just wanted to say some things and ask you some things too." Wally replied. Mary raised an eyebrow.

"Why did you leave?" Wally asked.

"Because your father was drunk all the time and I was afraid of him."

"Why did you leave me?"

"Because…damn it Wally. People were starting to talk. Everyone knew you were out with boys. I mean, I was living in a house with two men who were going against god. I love you Wally, but I can't accept that. I thought if I left…I didn't know Rudy would…I didn't know he'd hit you too." The woman began crying again.

"At least you kind of did something right. Mom…I didn't know he hit you…" Wally said.

"He only hit me once. I left as soon as it happened. I wanted to give him room to cool off."

"You know what's been going on here don't you? He didn't hit me once mom. He beat me, every night. Dad isn't a good person and for the longest time I thought he was going to just 'cool off' too. Until he started having sex with me. I mean jeez, he hit me for being an aids bag and then he would…ugh it doesn't matter. Mom I came here to tell you that I love you but I can't see you. Not now. I promise I won't abandon you…but I have some healing to do. I think you do too."

Wally waited for a reply but Mary never gave him one.

"And mom…I'm gay. It's not going to change. I'm not going to marry a woman someday and give you grandkids. Not that you deserve them. Not that I'd ever let them near you and dad. Anyways, goodbye mom. I still love you." He said finally, and turned for the door.

"Wally…" Mary's voice came out as if she'd never been crying.

"Yeah?" Wally asked, not turning around.

"Are you happy?"

"I…I am now." He walked out of the door and met his uncle Barry in the car.

"I need a mission." He said.

"Good. Batman just called. The team's having issues. Twenty of Wayne Tech employees were taken hostage by Poison Ivy. She's demanding a five million dollar ransom. So far, Kaldur hasn't been able to get the team too far into the scene. She's keeping them deep inside of a cluster of warehouses. Robin swears he can get in if he goes alone, of course we're not letting him. He's getting anxious though and the team may get desperate enough. So you think you can handle it?" Barry asked.

Wally nodded "Tell them I'm on my way." He quickly changed into his Kid Flash uniform and it didn't take him long to find the team after a couple of hours. He snuck up on Robin, planting a kiss on his cheek.

"Hey babe." He whispered in the crouch of bushes they were behind.

"I thought you didn't want me to see you? Your face is pretty bruised. I'm so sorry Kid Flash…" Robin said running a gentle finger across the boy's cheekbone.

"I'm Kid Flash dude. I'll heal soon enough. Besides, I need this. Now, what if it wasn't me that kissed you? What if it was Poison Ivy that had snuck up on you? Why are you so calm? And why are we hiding behind these bushes? Where is everyone?" Wally rambled.

"I knew it was you coming. You can't sneak up on me. I'm calm because I've had to be since I was nine years old. Artemis asked me that once. I'm turbed you're here, but we should probably try to focus on this mission. We're hiding because I have to wait for Kaldur's permission to go in and get the hostages. I'm sure Ivy's got some kind of trap in there."

"Well duh. She doesn't honestly believe Bruce Wayne is gonna pay up for his hostages does she? Of course…maybe if it was Richard Grayson she was holding hostage…" he was stopped with an elbow to the stomach. He yelped louder than he normally would. It was right where his dad had hit him.

"Oh god, I'm sorry dude. I totally didn't think." Robin said quickly.

"Don't worry about it, not your fault. Tell Miss Martian to link me in." Wally replied.

Robin nodded.

MM: You're online Kid Flash

KF: Cool. Okay Aqualad, what's our plan?

AL: Welcome back my friend. I need Robin to hack into these computerized machines that are being used for defense around this camp. Then Superboy is going to stir up a distraction. Robin says he can get to the hostages, but I won't let him go in alone. I'm sending Artemis with him. They will find Ivy and get the hostages out. You will be here with me watching their backs and taking care of the stray henchmen. But our main objective is to clear a safe path for the hostages. Miss Martian is too stay hidden and keep the link up. Keep the line of communication open in case anyone needs help.

KF: Sounds great…except for the part where Robin and Artemis go into the heart of it all.

R: Get over it KF. Those employees are important to Wayne Tech. I'm going to help them.

A: Kid Flash, remember that Robin is really good at what he does. So trust him.

KF: I know he is. I want him to be safe…you too Arty.

R: I've got it. All computers, weapons, detectors, they've all been shut down.

AL: Go Superboy.

SB: I'm already heading down.

R: Let's go Artemis.

A: Meet you there.

"Rob…be safe." Kid Flash said grabbing the boy wonder's shoulder before he could take off. Robin leaned over and chastely kissed the speedster then left of his way.

KF: Okay Aqualad. I'm ready. Let's get that path cleared.

"God damn it!" Kid Flash cursed as he was smashed into the ground by a large man. "What is this guy eating for breakfast?"

Kid Flash braced for another impact when the man looming above him was suddenly engulfed in water. Kid Flash got up to catch his breath.

"Thanks Aqualad. How many more are there?" he asked.

"The path seems to be cleared." The dark skinned boy answered.

AL: Miss Martian, are you at the bio ship?

MM: I'm here and ready Aqualad. When they get the hostages out, it's clear for them.

KF: Speaking of which, Robin where are you at?

R: In the process of cutting up a tangled mess of plants. If Ivy was here, she ditched out.

KF: That's a good thing right…?

No answer

KF: Rob!

R: I can see the hostages. They're in a cage.

A: Robin do you see that?

R: I see it. Move. Fast.

KF: What's going on?

…

A: Robin!

R: I'm fine. Get them out! Go! Now!

KF: Artemis, what's happening?

MM: Robin's hurt. I can feel it.

R: Robin's fine. I'm on my way out.

AL: I see you Artemis. Kid Flash help us get these people to the ship.

A: There are bombs going off inside.

KF: Rob's still in there! I'm going in after him.

R: No you're not. You come speeding in here and you'll set them all off. Do your job.

Kid Flash hesitantly listened. He didn't want to put Robin danger or defy orders from Aqualad. That would cause serious issues later on. He helped the team load the people onto the ship and soon they were all just waiting.

"This is dangerous. We can't sit here forever." Superboy pointed out.

"We're not leaving Robin." Artemis snapped back.

"Of course not, but perhaps we should move to a safer location." Aqualad suggested.

At that moment the entire camp of warehouses in front of them blew. It was a mess of flying metal and heat.

"Robin!" Kid Flash yelled.

"He's alive Kid Flash. I promise, but we have to move away from here." Miss Martian told him. The team got into the bio ship, all except Kid Flash.

"I'll run him back. Get to safety." He said. Before anyone could reply, he had zoomed off. He found Robin among a bunch of rubble. His uniform was shredded and his mask had come off at some point. Wally was relieved though when his lover was able to offer him a cocky grin. He helped him up.

"Dude don't scare me like that. I nearly had a heart attack. Man you got dinked up…" Kid Flash said kissing away a stream of blood from Robin's lower lip. He pulled the boy onto his back and started running.

KF: Miss M, where are you at? We need pick up

MM: We're transporting the Wayne Tech employees to a plane. We're not too far away. Stay covered and we'll be there.

KF: Gotcha.

Kid Flash stopped running and laid Robin out by a tree.

"Sorry to tell you this but dry cleaning is not going to fix that uniform." He told him as he took a seat by him.

"Batman is gonna kill me for being so slow. Those are his employees after all." Robin said between breaths.

"Well at least you're alive. Hey our ride is here." Kid Flash answered pointing up.

The bio ship landed and the team came rushing out, Miss Martian in the lead. But as soon as she reached them, she spun around and closed her eyes.

"I'm sorry!" she squeaked.

"What?" Robin asked. Kid Flash quickly slapped his hands over the boy wonder's eyes.

"Your mask is gone! Oh and you thought Batman was gonna kill you before!" the speedster exclaimed.

"I didn't mean to look Robin! I'm really sorry!" the green girl whimpered.

Robin shook Kid Flash's hands off "Well…let's just go home. It's not like you actually know who I am."

He heard a gasp from Artemis "I do! Everyone knows who you are! Holy crap! No wonder Batman wanted you on this mission. Wait Batman. Oh my god!"

"Hey! Blondie!" Kid Flash growled "Zip it."

The archer quickly shut her mouth and everyone huddled into the ship. The atmosphere was tense. Kid Flash was sure Robin's identity was blown and for some reason, he was pretty sure Batman was going to pin him for it. At least the team wasn't saying anything so far. He looked at Robin who seemed oddly at ease. Well it wasn't too odd considering he had been blown up. He should be at ease that all of his limbs were intact. The fact that most of his uniform had been blown off was a blessing. Kid Flash took it upon himself to grab the first aid kit since everyone else refused to look at their mask-less team mate. Robin looked like he was going to just fall asleep where he sat. Kid Flash grabbed some gauze and poured alcohol on it. He was surprised when the boy wonder laughed as he dabbed a large gash on his exposed shoulder.

"Why are you laughing? Are you about to do the ninja thing and disappear?" KF asked, only half joking.

"I'm sorry, it's just that you remind me of my mother." The little bird replied. Kid Flash raised a curious eyebrow.

"Okay weird, I know. But whenever I'd fall during practice at the circus, she would fix my cuts the same way you are. Gently. That's how I remember it." Robin explained. Kid Flash quickly looked around, positive everyone had been listening.

"Quit worrying about it you guys. You're killing me with the silence. So…let's try this. Hello, my name is Dick Grayson…but you knew that."

Megan was first to speak.

"You're basically a celebrity. It's kind of amazing…" she said in awe.

"Megan…" Artemis said "We're super heroes. We're all kind of celebrities…as much as I hate to say it."

Dick only smiled at this "It's just worn off to her, we go to school together."

"Yeah, he's an annoying, snobby, rich freshmen. I'm guessing now though that it's all just an act right?" Artemis asked the blue-eyed boy. Dick nodded at her.

"I have to make it look impossible for me to be a super hero, especially since I have all the means to be one. I don't have the luxury of taking off my uniform and making the cameras go away. When I'm not Robin, the boy wonder, side kick to the Batman, I'm Dick Grayson, ward to the billionaire playboy Bruce Wayne. Always watched, always having someone to live up to." He explained.

Kid Flash was sure he could hear a bit of sadness in the boy's voice. He never really thought about all the pressure the thirteen year old had on his shoulders. There was never a break for him. And he never got to be truly himself, but Kid Flash knew that Dick loved what he did. He wondered how he was always such a positive person at the end of the day.

"Wally would know." Dick said with a smirk.

"What do you mean?" Kaldur asked.

"Oh um…he means…you see, we're kind of…well…" Wally stuttered, a large blush covering his cheeks.

"We're together. Like, together. Dating. Me and Wally." Dick said, his old confidence again in his voice "But no one on the outside world can know. As super heroes, it's too dangerous for our enemies to know we're together. As Dick Grayson…it would be a disaster to date a boy."

"Have you forgotten dude? It doesn't matter…because Batman is going to wreck us when he finds out everyone knows who he is! And don't bother trying to hide it…he's the freaking Batman!" Wally hissed at his boyfriend. Robin replied by rolling his eyes (whoa) and pulling the red head into a deep kiss. This shocked the entire team into silence, including the spastic speedster.

3 days later…

Wally watched intensely as Barry talked on the phone. He hadn't heard from Dick since Bruce had taken him to the cave to get patched up. He was starting to worry and made his uncle call the mansion. He raced to the other side of the room and sat at the kitchen table when his uncle finally hung up the phone.

"Well? Is he okay? Did Bats kill him?" the boy demanded eagerly. Barry laughed lightly.

"He's fine kiddo. He just needed a lot of rest to get better. He is in trouble though, not for his identity getting out. He's in trouble for getting himself blown up. I think Bruce was really worried about him, but you'll be happy to know that Dick hasn't stopped asking for you. You can go see him this afternoon, as soon as you finish your homework." Barry answered.

Wally was so excited his jumped from his seat, knocking a glass vase off of the table and hearing it crash against the floor. He quickly got on his hands and knees to clean it up.

"I'm so sorry, it won't happen again. I'm so sorry." He repeated.

Barry bent down to help him when he suddenly stopped. His nephew had suddenly shrank away from him, closing his eyes.

"Wally?" the flash asked quietly. He sat on the floor next to him.

"I'm sorry…that was stupid." Wally sighed as he continued to clean up the shards of glass.

"You're not going to get hit in this house Wally."

"I know. It's just…habit I guess. I don't understand. When I'm Kid Flash, I never felt a need to hide or disappear. It just wasn't the same kind of fear. It bothers me. I'm an adult now. I shouldn't be like this. What if that happens on the field? I could be the reason someone gets hurt. I could get hurt." Wally said. He threw away the large pieces of glass and grabbed a wet cloth from the kitchen to wipe down the area in case of shards he couldn't see.

"If this is something that really worries you kid, then maybe we should see about restricting your mission availability until we've got a handle on this."

"But I don't want to let the team down. I would just worry about them if I wasn't there."

"You mean Robin? You don't want him to get hurt again."

"Yeah…"

"Go see him."

"What about my homework?"

His uncle only rolled his eyes.

Everyone was at the mountain washing up from a successful mission. It was early evening and the team had decided that they would meet up for a movie together.

"Dick, you're tempting me on purpose right?" Wally laughed. His boyfriend had pretty much disregarded him being in the room when he stepped in from his shower. Wally had been doing his homework at his table when He hadn't even bothered to keep the towel around his lower half. Instead he had just dried himself off and tossed it aside. He was now digging in Wally's clothes for something to wear. He peeked over his shoulder to stick his tongue out at his speedster. But then he thought for a second and walked over to the boy, laughing at the red heat that covered his face.

"Maybe I am…" he said pushing Wally over on the bed.

Wally smiled and pulled ebony locks down, and with one swift motion flipped them over. He kissed Dick passionately and let his eyes trail the teenager's fit body.

"Is that for me?" he asked quietly, his eyes on Dick's lower region. It was easy to see, feel, and know the boy was lusting for him. It had been a while since they'd been intimate. Both were still recovering from their injuries. Now though, there was hardly anything save a few scars on each of them. He started trailing a white scar on Dick's inner thigh with his fingers. He returned his eyes to the bird's face. He was glad his best friend no longer had to wear a mask, even though he'd kind of enjoyed being one of the few to see his beautiful eyes. The team still hadn't gotten used to it.

"Wally…I love you."

This brought the ginger out of his trance. He held his breath, wondering if he'd heard the boy right. Dick smiled at him.

"You…love me?" Wally asked slowly.

Dick nodded "Yes. I love you Wally West. I'm not just saying that." He answered pulling his partner down for another kiss. Before Wally had a chance to reply, his door swung open. He quickly threw his blanket over Dick and turned around to face a shocked Artemis.

"Why do you always have to do that? Can't you ever knock?" Wally moaned.

"Wow…I just wanted to ask how much pizza I should pick up." She replied recovering from what she'd walked in on. She smirked, looking at Robin who was way more calm than his lover.

"I'll just get a lot. You're obviously burning a lot of calories. Back in a flash," she said winking at the couple as she left.

Wally groaned into his hands "I don't get it. She just doesn't understand privacy…at all." He was disappointed to see his boyfriend putting his clothes on. He smiled though at the boy wearing his red turtle neck and sweats. He motioned for him to follow as they went out into the living room, only to have the whole team staring at them. Wally was tempted to run back to his room. Obviously Artemis hadn't kept her discovery to herself.

"We can't start the movie until Artemis gets back with the pizza. So sit down my friends." Kaldur offered with a warm smile. Wally took a seat on the couch and pulled Dick into his lap.

"So you two really are together huh?" Konner asked eyeing the couple. Dick nodded.

"Robin…When did you? I mean both of you were…interested in girls before…" Megan said. Wally shot up.

"Uh…I um…it's a long story." He sighed.

"But remember when you and Artemis were together? Or that time you skipped a mission to stay over at…what was her name…the dark haired girl…her house. I don't understand." Megan replied.

Wally's eyes darted between the green girl and Dick. He was sure she'd sparked his curiosity because he was staring him down with a dangerous grin on his face.

"I dated girls, yeah. I didn't want to admit I was gay," he lied. Dick elbowed him in the side. He was sure he'd have explaining to do later.

"Artemis knew I was gay." He added.

"So…you didn't sleep with her?" Dick asked. Wally wanted to slam a hand over the kid's big mouth.

"I mean, we did. Once or twice. Only because she didn't know at first. It was two years ago. I mean I was still getting my daily dose of whoop ass so I couldn't exactly shed my clothes in front of her. Besides, I came clean with her. I told her I loved her which was true. But I didn't want to sleep with her, and not even because I was gay. I couldn't do that to her. Not to Artemis. She was the first female I slept with. The guilt wore off by the sixth girl." Wally said harshly in answer to his boyfriend. Dick didn't reply. Neither did anyone else.

Recognized: Artemis

"Okay I got six large pepperoni, six large cheese, and three vegetarian. Sound good?" the archer said from behind the stack of cardboard. She started to trip just before she got to the kitchen counter when a flash of colors stopped her fall.

"Thanks Wally." She said smiling as he took half of the stack from her and sat it down. He was glaring at her and her smile dwindled.

"We need to talk. Now." He said pulling her down the nearest corridor. He ended up yelling at her for a long time. He rode her case about knocking before coming into his room and asking her why the hell she didn't understand what privacy was. He even went as far as to say that just because she's seen him naked before didn't mean she was allowed to now. He knew it wasn't her he was angry at, it was himself. He hated how he knew his past was hurting his boyfriend. He wasn't sure how to handle the situation and at the end of his rant, he ended up apologizing to Artemis. He was shocked when she pulled him into a hug, especially after all that.

"You'll get through this Wally. And…I'll knock next time. Promise." She said into his ear before leaving. Wally just sighed and joined the team back in front of the television. He went through a couple boxes of pizza before crashing on the couch with Dick on top of him.

"You're breaking up with me?"

"Of course Kid Flash! You're a whore! I didn't see it before until you opened up to me about everything!"

Wally cringed at the lack of intimacy Dick was giving him by not using his real name.

"God how could I fall for you? You slept with everyone, even your own father! You're disgusting! Used! Your mother was right to leave, it won't be long now before your aunt and uncle leave too!"

"Dick please…why are you saying this?"

"Don't use that name. I'm Robin, the boy wonder to you. I can't believe I let you touched my body. Wait I probably didn't. You must've forced me. How could you? You filthy piece of trash!"

"No! Dick I would never hurt you like that! I thought…I thought you loved me…"

"Love you? Are you mad? How could I love a gay whore like you! You deserve what your dad gave you. Go rot with him! You're off the team. You're not my best friend. And you sure as hell aren't my lover. Just look at yourself."

Wally fell to his knees and watched the masked bird walk away from him. He looked down at his body, it was unclothed and covered in blood and bruises. He felt rough hands running along his body, greedily grabbing at his flesh. When he turned he saw Rudy.

"I tried to tell you son. You can't escape me. I'm always going to be here. Maybe you don't want to escape huh? Is that it? You miss sucking me off, you miss your father-son time. Well don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. " The man cackled as he pinned his son to the floor. Wally screamed.

"Wally wake up!"

"Wake up right now!"

"Oh no, poor Wally…"

"He's gonna be fine Megan."

"Wally listen, you're safe. Wake up please."

Wally shot up from the couch. All of his teammates were looming over him. He realized then that he was drenched in his own sweat and breathing like he'd been buried alive. He wasn't sure if he'd screamed just then or not.

"What happnened?" he asked grabbing his head. Shooting up like that had given him a serious headache.

"You were having a terrible nightmare." Dick answered. His eyes flew to the green martian who was standing a few feet away. Wally didn't know why, but she was crying really hard. Instinctively, he got up and held her.

"I saw everything. I didn't mean to, but you were projecting it. I'm so sorry Wally…" she sobbed.

"Oh god Megan, you saw that? I'm sorry. I didn't know what I was doing." The speedster said rubbing the girl's shoulder.

"Wally…" a small voice cried. Wally left Megan to sit down on the couch with Dick. He kissed him on the forehead.

"I'm okay. It was just a dream." He said, half smiling.

"My friend, it was more than just a dream by the sound of it," Kaldur argued.

"Sound? I was making sound? What kind of sound?" Wally asked, not knowing if he really wanted the answer.

"You were screaming in your sleep. You were yelling at someone. Begging them not to leave, saying you weren't a whore. And then you called out your dad's name in such fear and then suddenly you were screaming for him to get off of you. It just went from there. You were so afraid." Artemis answered.

"Maybe you should lay off of the pizza…and go talk to Black Canary." It was Konner's suggestion. Wally knew the Kryptonian was trying to help as best he could. He decided he needed a shower and left the group of worried teens.

Why did I have nightmare?

Things were going so well.

I haven't had a nightmare since the start of my dad's bedtime visits.

Even then, they had gone away eventually.

This hot water feels refreshing though.

I must have really scared my friends.

Especially Megan.

Especially Dick.

Oh god. Did he know what I was dreaming about?

I have to talk to him.

After I see Black Canary.

Wally felt hands wrap gently around his bare chest. He leaned into the warm body.

"Why are you in my shower Grayson?" he asked not turning around.

"Because you need me. Don't talk." Dick replied. He grabbed a bar of soap and began massaging it into Wally's skin. When the boy's body was covered in suds, Dick used his fingers to rub Wally's neck. Then his back, then his lower back, and then reached his hands around to the front of Wally's waist. Wally let out a sigh while his partner relieved him.

"I've never seen you like this." Dick said, working slowly.

"Completely naked?" Wally half joked.

"There's that. But I meant…so afraid. So unsure of everything." Dick answered, trailing kisses along Wally's back.

"I'm sure of this," Wally mumbled closing his eyes to enjoy the touch of the skilled hands upon him.

"No…you're not. I know what your dream was about. I love you Wally West, that isn't changing. I want this. Us. In all of its forms. I want you. I wish I could put your mind at ease…" the sixteen year old said against Wally's dark skin. Wally didn't reply. Suddenly the hands in front of him stopped and he whined in reply.

"Turn around,"

He did and a pair of warm, familiar lips pressed into his. He kissed back, using his tongue to probe his lover's mouth. Soon the two tongues were tangled, which made Wally whine again when the other pulled away. He stared into the mischievous blue eyes in front of him. God those eyes would be the death of him, surrounded by dark lashes they were like drugs. They reeled him in. They were getting farther and farther away. He realized Dick was now on his knees in front of him, a cocky grin on his swollen lips.

Batman is going to wreck me.

Oh, but not before this little bird does.

Wow, who knew gentle could be so nice?

He's obviously inexperienced, but I think I love it.

How has this kid never done dirty things before?

Oh right…Batman.

Oh god.

Oh Dick.

…

…

So wrecked.

"That must have been really terrifying, having a nightmare like that. Especially after you were feeling safe from your father." Black Canary said. She leaned forward in her seat.

"I never realized how much fear he'd leave behind. I always thought that what was happening to me would stop when my mom came back. Then she didn't. So then I thought it wouldn't stop for a long time, until my dad got better somehow. Then I realized it was never going to stop. It became so normal for me. I mean, as bad as it sounds, I'd go out and buy lube knowing what it was for. My dad…he thought that was an open invitation. Not that it mattered. But at least once a week, I had a grocery cart with lube, bandages, cover up, and heavy pain killers. A few times, I even self-prescribed. But when my dad caught me snorting once, he beat me harder than I'd ever been beaten before. I couldn't leave my house for days. Even my healing took that long." Wally was running his fingers through damp hair, staring at the floor.

"Wally…Do you realize how lucky you are to be alive? To be as sound as you are right now? It's amazing, your will power. You don't see it because you think will power means being able to fight back or walk away. Those things are true, but you have so much more will power. You always give your best to the team, you always find the humor in things, and you could still love at the end of the day. I'm surprised you were able to keep such a heavy secret for as long as you did, especially from the whole Justice League."

"Yeah well, I mean, I kept Robin's identity a secret for years too." Wally chuckled.

"I have to ask you some things Wally. Are you still…are you still using? Because if you are, we can get you help for that." Black Canary questioned. Wally shook his head.

"No I'm not using. I'm not hooked to anything. I just needed the edge to be taken off every now and then. I haven't used in a long time. But…if it ever comes down to it…I'll tell you."

Black Canary nodded, trusting the boy's words. "Okay this next question is a bit touchy. You can take as long as you want to answer. Have you ever…tried to hurt yourself? Or kill yourself?" she asked softly. Wally stared into her eyes, watching them hurt the longer he stayed silent, giving her the answer she didn't want.

"I never hurt myself, my dad knew every mark he gave me. But suicide…once. Just once. One afternoon, about eight months ago, I'd gotten home from school. I spent a lot of time outside, never wanted to step in the house for as long as I could avoid it. But my dad had texted me, demanding I come home right after school. I was walking outside on the dirt path to our house. The path is surrounded by golden fields of long grass. I remember how nice it felt to be out there. Then I saw my dad stumbling in one of the fields. He was wasted. I immediately threw up at the sight of him there. He was so angry, cursing and kicking around. But what choice did I have? I had to go make sure he wasn't going to like hurt someone or himself. It felt like that walk took days to get to him. I grabbed his arm and tried to lead him away, told him we needed to get to the house. He kept asking for my mom. I kept telling him she wasn't here. It made him angrier and he pushed me onto the ground. He told me to undo his belt. I told him to wait until we were inside. He took his own belt off and slammed it across my face. Then he wrapped it around my neck. Told me I better learn some manners. He even made me wipe the blood off of my own mouth before shoving himself inside of it. At the end of that, I threw up again, next to his feet. I had tried not to. It was that belt around my throat. He made me take my clothes off, raped me, then stumbled back to the house with my clothes. He even took it upon himself to throw all of the stuff in my back pack around the field. He told me I could just sleep there. The only thing covering me now was the high grass. Luckily, being Kid Flash, I could run fast enough without clothes on for people not to see me. But I didn't for a long time. I just laid there in the grass hurting. It had to be really late at night by the time I moved. I was sure dad had passed out. I went and got my cell phone, clothes, and my Kid Flash gear.

Anyways, the team got called soon after. It was really late, but apparently it had to be done. It was a mission where a single hostage was involved. A scientist, held by the joker. A bomb was involved. I was sent in to grab her, being the fastest and all. We'd run out of options. There was plenty of time to get her out. But the whole time, I had decided I was just going to let the bomb go off. I wanted to die and I had talked myself into thinking it was okay if I took that scientist with me. When I got there of course, the woman was so afraid. She was beaten and crying. It was so terrible. The thought of dying left me right then and there. I grabbed her and left. That was the only time." Wally tried to smile at the end of his story, but there was no way for him to do it. He felt like he'd just disappointed the entire world.

To his complete surprise, Dinah was out of her seat, her arms wrapped around him tightly.

"Oh babe, what's GA gonna think about this?" Wally tried to joke. But in the end, he just ended up hugging her back.

"Can I tell you one more thing? Or ask for some advice?" he asked after a while, breaking the silence.

"Of course Wally. Anything." Black Canary answered, trying to regain her composure. She sat back down and Wally followed.

"Well…oh jeeze…um Rob and I…we're starting to get more intimate. Not sex. We haven't had sex, but we're starting to come close. What should I do? Should I say no? Should I tell my uncle? Should I tell Bats? I don't know how it works. Cause I have to tell you, Rob is putting up a serious fight that I'm not entirely opposed to losing." Wally faltered, feeling his ears and cheeks burn.

"I've never had to worry about this kind of thing before. I've never felt like I've had to ask for permission from my parents or someone else's parents to have sex. But I feel so guilty. And why does Robin have be such a virgin anyways? I mean, he's initiating everything. And I can't resist him. He's like a goddamn popsicle on a hot day." The speedster ranted, though slowly enough for Black Canary to understand. She smiled at him, which caused him to stop talking.

"Wally if you feel like you're ready for this step in your relationship with Robin, then talk to him about it. He's your partner and if you aren't ready, which I suspect that's where this is going, you need to communicate that as well. I don't think it's a bad idea to tell your uncle what you're feeling. As dorky as he is, he's got a good head on his shoulders and he loves you very much. Robin should be the one to talk to his own guardian. And hey, if that doesn't work, I'm only a phone call away. And to be honest Wally, I can see easily how much you love him. So don't worry that somewhere inside you're going to use him. You're not your father, despite what he's done to you. And yes, what he's done has molded you. It's not something to be ashamed of, just learned from. Okay?"

Wally nodded and thanked the blonde woman. He was determined to do this relationship thing with Dick the right way. He decided to make a list. First he would talk to Barry and Iris, then he'd tell Batman his intentions. If he survived, he was going to romance the hell out of his boy wonder. He was going to make their first time together as special as possible, because what he hadn't told Black Canary was that as soon as Dick had finished him off in the shower, he had told Wally he was ready for sex.

"I want it to be with you. It would be special that way." The ebony headed boy had suddenly told them on the way out of the showers.

"Dick…are you sure you want your first time to be with me? I mean, I would never want it to be with someone else, but I'm…me. I'm not…pure like you. You deserve more than that."

"I deserve you Wally. The man who's shown me nothing but love and kindness. I'm not trying to pressure you if you still have things to work out inside of yourself, but you're trying to take credit for your father's sins and I'm not going to let you. And about all those other people you've slept with…well look at it this way, when that started, I was thirteen. I barely had crushes back then. Why wouldn't you be sleeping with other people? And I don't care why you slept with them. You'd be sleeping with me because you love me. And I know you love me. And I love you too."

"Okay Dick…I promise to be your first. But not now. Not like this. I'm going to make it as special as you really deserve."