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Here comes the Finchel!

Just one damn second and all of her strength fell apart all over again, because, yes, there he was; strong and tall, like the tree, but soft and honest, like the leaves. He was staring at the same grave she had been looking for, with his hands on his pockets. The cold wind was blowing through his short hair and she just knew he had been crying his eyes out.

He looked pale and way too thin, she thought, but somehow his smell was still the same, she could feel it from the distance, flooding her nose and her whole body with memories.
She told herself to run away, but her body wouldn't answer the call. Then she became a stone when he raised his eyes and found her own. She found out, at that very moment, that it's true when people say that "the whole world just decides to stop and your whole body just decides not to react at all". There she was, not being able to move.
Everything was wrong, she felt a fucking war inside of her chest like her heart was about to explode and her lungs were about to run out of air forever. She truly wanted to run away and away and away from all this confusion and this pain but, at the same time, she wanted stay there looking into the eyes of this man that was once hers.
And the tears came, of course.
"Rachel-" He said softly. Her name in his voice sounded like a old wound crawling to the surface
"Finn" She said, almost in a whisper.
"Hi"- "Hi" They said at the same time.
"I was-"
"I know" Rachel interrupted him. "I'll-I'll leave you-" She said, turning back
"No, no! Stay." She froze. "I've been here for like an hour and I... should get going..." He said cleaning the tears off of his face. She just nodded. "You look-"
"Finn..." He nodded, with a little grin on his face.
He came closer to her slowly and looked at her straight in the eyes. Then he said the words:
"I'm so proud of you."
His voice was softer than any voice she'd ever heard (and she'd heard a lot). And, just like that, he walked away from her.
She asked her self how can you say something like that and then just leave. Then she remembered this was Finn, after all. He tends to plant that kind of bombs.

"Don't do this, don't do this Finn, please. This is not you! This is not who you are!, don't let this anger you're feeling define you!. Look at me, look at me! I'm your Rachel, Just... please."
"Go away Rachel."
"I don't want to! You're my home, remember? And I'm not gonna leave you to destroy yourself, I won't leave you!"
"Stop it, Just stop it, Rachel! Stop fighting, stop holding on, stop trying so hard! Listen to me, and listen very carefully: I don't want you in my life, I don't want you to keep trying to fix me, I don't want you to be around me so just... go away!. Live your dream, be happy and just forget about me. Forget about us. I can't be fixed."
"But I can try-"
"I don't love you anymore, Rachel."

"You...you're lying"
"Look at me, princess, do you think I'm lying to you?"

"Hi Carole, it's me... Rachel." She said, with a choppy voice and a growing pain in her chest "I know it's been a long time and... Maybe I shouldn't even be here, but, believe it or not, I miss you... and... I just saw your son, he..." But she couldn't fight it anymore. She covered her face with both hands and finally, after all this time of holding it back, allowed herself to sob as hard as she could "Oh my God, I'm so sorry, Carole, I'm just so fucking sorry! I couldn't... I ran away... I couldn't fix him!" She said between sobs "I gave up on him, I left him alone and can't forgive myself for that, I just..." She took a deep breath "How did we even get here?! Everything is sadness, everything is bullshit and guilt! You know?. After what happened to you everything went down... I have everything I want, but why do I feel so damn empty?!

"Somebody told me today... that my life was a lie and maybe it is, after all..." She said in a whisper
"I saw Finn vanish between my fingers, Carole... and I did nothing to bring him back and I'm sorry for letting you down, for letting your son... who happens to be the man of my life, disappear slowly... But he broke me too, you know?, and I didn't know how to handle him or myself. I still don't know and I... I'm so sorry, I'm so very sorry!..." She stood there crying the guilt and pain away loudly for a while. Everything was said now and it was time to go find some peace.
At some point she felt there were no more tears in her eyes, she was empty of everything.
She took a deep breath again and felt released for the first time in years "You know what?, everyday I think about you, Carole, and I think about how everything would be different if you were here. But it's a waste of time, I know it now. We are what we are. We can't be alive and be dead at the same time, I've been living like this, and I'm really tired, Carole. I'm just so tired..."

After a very nice meal with all of the old Glee clubbers and hours of talking about each other's lives, everything turned to chaos. Santana moved every piece of furniture in her apartment and turned the place into a night club faster that you'd imagine, lights went down and Santana came up with her surprise for the night: She had in her computer every single song they ever sang on Glee club, including the ones of the year after they graduated singed by Tina, Blaine, Sam, Brittany and all of the ones who were left until they were all out of school. Long story short, it was amazing.
She put the list on shuffle and they all started to dance and to remember those rehearsals with Mr. Shue. The first song that came up was "You're making my dreams come true" by Hall and Oates. Chaos.
Finn and Rachel had been avoiding each other all day without being very successful. A few times their eyes would meet and, again, everything would stop around them. What was the right thing to do? Rachel couldn't figure it out, but one thing she knew, she had to leave that house as soon as possible. That man was killing her.

At 23:30 pm her cellphone ranged. She knew it was Brody so she went outside, to the hallway to find some peace to talk to her husband.
"Hello?" She said
"Babe, why haven't you called me?"
"I've been busy with all the crying you know?" She joked "I don't even know how it happened, but I'm kinda in a party right now, a Glee club party"
"Wow, isn't that disrespectful?"
"Maybe, but it doesn't feel like it though, we are having fun and talking about the old times. We met because of Mr. Shue and now he brought us together again, so..."
"It's okay, Rachel. I want to know how are you. Was it hard all the burying thing?" But Finn was the first thing that came to her mind.
"Yes... more than you'll ever know. But I don't want to talk about it, really. I kinda miss you, you know?"
"I miss you too, this house just feels so damn empty with your singing around."
"Well, yes, it better be empty, you know?"
"Of course it is!"
"I'm just saying..." They laughed a little and then Rachel became serious again "I don't know, everything here feels like a box of memories that I left behind. I just wanna go home to you, I really do." And she wasn't lying.
"Come back soon and please call me before you get on that plane tomorrow. I'll be waiting for you."
"Oh, I know you will."
"I love you, Rachel. You know that, right?"
"I do and I... I miss you a lot. Just... take care, I'll be home early in the morning tomorrow."
"Bye, and since you're already there, just have fun. You kinda deserve it."
"Thank you, I will. Bye." And she hung up. 'I only have eyes for you' by The Flamingos was playing when she was walking inside of the apartment. As soon as she made it through the door she felt his smell again. Holy shit.
"Tell him that you love him" She felt his voice close to her ear, but couldn't find the strength to turn around and face him.
"I-I did." She didn't
"No, you didn't."
"Were you-"

"Dance with me." He whispered in her ear. There was no room for a negative answer, because it wasn't a question.
With a blink of her eyes she was already facing him, staring at him straight in the eyes without saying a word, but saying everything. Her left hand in his shoulder and the right one lying on his hand. Finn pressed her against him and she could almost feel his heart racing; she felt his smell on her nose and she knew, there was nothing she could do anymore, this battle was so lost that wasn't even gonna try to hide everything this man provoked in her. So she let him.
They slowdanced like it was the end of the world, she felt like that moment was just an excuse to hold him close without questions from anyone, so she just kept doing it.

"You are here and so am I.
Maybe millions of people go by
But they all disappear from view
And I only have eyes for you"

Finn raised his right hand and placed it on her neck softly, finding, not by coincidence, a sensitive spot in it. Rachel asked herself how can you make love without actually make it, because every inch of her body felt the pleasure of his touch, chills went down her back and her breath became heavy. He knows what he's doing, of course and she knows, deep inside, that this is very wrong, but she couldn't bring her self to stop this feeling she thought she would never feel again. She digged her fingers in his shoulder, losing her sanity for a second, and closing her eyes, just in time for 'Faithfully' to start playing.
"Dammit, Santana!" Rachel thought
He was getting closer, she could feel his nose on top of hers.
"Do you remember?" he whispered almost against her lips. She was at this point of the clouds where you can't actually feel your legs... and the song, the song was driving them insane.
All of the alerts became red in her head and for the first time, she though about Brody; she thought about all of the things that were wrong with what she was about to do but how she wasn't being able to stop it.
Finn's lips were almost there now, she could feel their noses one next to the other.
"No, no, no." She thought and with all the strength of her heart, she whispered "Please don't kiss me"
"Rachel-"
"Please don't kiss me, Finn" She said again, almost begging this time.
She didn't notice when it started, but she was crying; she felt this weight again, it was the pain of guilt, remorse. Love. Everything was wrong and saying no to Finn was just so damn hard.

There was something about her crying that he couldn't fully figure out but, all he knew is that it was breaking him, so he pulled back even when he wanted to kiss her more than anything.
"I won't kiss you if you don't want me to." He said in a sad voice. Rachel began to wonder if he was actually thinking that she didn't want to kiss him when it was pretty obvious that it was quite the opposite.
Rachel wanted to stop, like when she was on stage and she just had to make this big emotional scene, and then the scene was over and she'd just stop the tears. But this was different. Finn was this old injury she's been trying to heal with all of her strength, but kept failing. Finn was the weakness. Finn was the cause and the solution to all of her problems. Finn was... Finn was there, standing in front of her, smelling like trees after the rain, burning her skin with his hands and endless eyes. No, there was no stop for all the crying. Not this time.
She covered her face with both hands trying to hold back her sobs. An that damn song!
A few seconds went by, and Rachel could almost read the confusion in Finn's mind.
She though he was gonna leave again, she really did. And she was gonna stay there with their almost-kiss and full emptiness. And she was ready, actually, maybe losing him again would be easier this time.

But he did not leave, she knew it when she felt his arms around her.
"God, I wish this could be easier." She whispered with a trembling voice, between sobs.
"Nothing is ever easy for us, is it?" He said. She felt his voice in her ear, he was on the edge of tears too.
"No..." She said wrapping her arms around the tall man. He was so-skinny, she could even feel some of his bones now.
Finn began humming the song and moving to the sound of it.
"Oh girl, you stand by me. I'm forever yours... faithfully" He sang in a low voice "I don't know about you, but kinda love this song."
"I'm so sorry, Finn. I'm so sorry" She said, pressing him against her body
"What?" But she wouldn't stop apologizing "Rachel why would you say that? Sorry for what?"
"Everything. Everything." She said between sobs "I'm just so sorry, so sorry."
"Okay, just stop." He said taking her hands between his to pull back from the hug. "Come. Let's get you out of here."
He made his way to the door trying to avoid everyone's gaze and questions.
"Wait, where are we going?" She asked once they were out of the house, near to Finn's car.
"Are you kidding me? Look at you! Look at us. We can't avoid this conversation all night like we're still in high school, Rachel, not anymore."
"But-"
"My house is not far from here..." She knew it. "We can talk there." He said meeting her gaze. He could read the confusion in her eyes.
"You can't do this to me. You can't do this to me, Finn, I'm-"
"Married." He interrupted. She felt amazed of the feeling in her chest when he was the one saying the word. His eyes went from her face to the floor. "You think I don't know that?" He whispered. "I just... We need to talk, Rachel, you know we do, and that's all we're gonna do. I promise you you're gonna keep your clothes on the whole time if it kills me." He said as a joke, she smiled a little. "I need to know how's everything going and... and If you forgave me for what I did to you." There was such a shame and sadness in his voice that Rachel couldn't find the strenght or the reasons to say no. Instead, in a desperation moment, she said one of those things you say when every sight of reason is out of your mind.
"But- I don't have my toothbrush with me."

So, what do you think it'll happen?
Please revieeeew, it means a lot to me! This fanfic had helped me a lot with my sorry english :)
This story will like a 4 chapter thing, as i said, it was meant to be a one-shot that got really out of hand lol.
I'll update tomorrow!
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