Edward POV

It was February 8th, five months after I left my life behind in Forks. Five months since I died for the second time. Five months since I broke the heart of the love of my existence, Bella Swan.

I left her to protect her. I was going to keep her safe, even if it meant keeping us out of her life. Everything I had said in the forest about not wanting her was a lie. It was the worst thing I have ever done. Killing humans wasn't even as bad. I love her, and I always will.

I went to go get the paper for today. We lived in Spokane, so we still got any big news in small cities, including Forks. Hearing about the town always hurt. What hurt the most, though, was the article on the front page.

"Small Town Chief of Police Daughter Commits Suicide"

18 year old Isabella (Bella) Swan was found in her bedroom on February 5th, 2006. She had consumed massive amounts of drugs and alcohol. Her father, Chief of Police Charlie Swan came home from work about six o'clock that night, about five hours after the presumed time of death.

Chief Swan says there were two letters found next to her. One was addressed to him, and the other was addressed to someone whose name he hasn't released. As Isabella's last request to him, Charlie has placed the letter on her grave for the recipient, should he ever come to visit her final resting place. This is all the information that has been released.

The funeral was on February 7th, and every member of Forks had attended."

"Alice, I need you to look at Forks for Charlie's future, and Bella's. Please just do it!" I shouted once I had seen she was about to protest. She went into a vision, and it was of all of Forks population at the cemetery. The headstone was inscribed with "Isabella Marie Swan, September 13th, 1988 through February 5th 2006 Beloved Daughter and Friend."

I fell to my knees, and sobbed tearless sobs. In the background, I could faintly here Alice telling the family that Bella was dead, that she had committed suicide as she showed them the paper.

I don't know when or how I got there, but I was suddenly aware that I was in front of her grave. It hurt so much to think that. "It's really Bella, oh Bella," was all that came out of my mouth.

It was then that I saw the envelope that was mentioned in the paper. It was addressed to Edward Mason Cullen. "NO!" I shouted as I ripped it off its place. "Please don't let it be my fault, please."

"Dear Edward,

I knew I was never good enough for you. I apologize for wasting your time, when you could've been with another vampire. Somebody that is beautiful like you, and not just a plain human.

I don't want you to feel bad that I did this. It was the only way I could stop the pain. I was already dying, so I thought: Why waste time? Nobody was going to miss me. No one that mattered, that is except for Charlie. I don't want you to live with the guilt of my doing this. You never should have made that promise in the forest, the one about as though it would be you never existed.

Nothing would change that; you could take all the pictures and gifts your family has ever given me. You could lie about where your family has moved to, but that wouldn't change me.

I have never been one to forget something, or get over it. Just because you aren't human, doesn't change anything. I will miss all of you, and if you ever get this letter, tell everyone that I'll miss them. Tell Jasper that I don't blame him for anything, and I knew what I was getting myself into when I went to a coven of vampire's house. I miss Alice and her shopping trips,

Emmett and his bear hugs, Carlisle and the way he was there whenever I needed a doctor, Esme and her motherly love when I didn't have it, even Rosalie. I was always able to look past her attitude. She was trying to protect her family, and rightly so. Look what happened! I will always miss every single one of you. I love you all and I always will

I'm sorry for wasting some time, but you always said time doesn't matter.

Isabella Swan"