Even if it breaks my heart into pieces
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Chapter 1 – I wanted to believe that too…
Rukia ran home while wiping the tears on her cheeks using the backs of her trembling hands. Seeing Ichigo after that would be too unbearable for her. She opened the room she shared with Ichigo's twin sisters. The twins were too occupied to notice her coming. Knowing she needed a place to be alone, she left the room. Walking without knowing where to go, she found herself face to face with Ichigo's room. She opened the door and went inside his warm closet. She lied down while sobbing very hard for the first time.
But how can she blame Ichigo for breaking her heart if he even doesn't know that she loves him? She can't even blame Inoue because she's her best friend, aside from that she knew she has a thing for Ichigo. But… she couldn't stop herself from falling apart. It's like half of your heart is dying and your world suddenly stopped spinning.
"I'm so pathetic", she whispered quietly between her sobs. Tears from her violet orbs falls endlessly on her pale cheeks. Suddenly, sleeps slowly took her over.
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Ichigo opened his room and sat on his chair while facing his own desk. He was looking for Rukia for almost an hour now and he couldn't find her elsewhere. He even asked his sisters on her whereabouts, but he found the useless. He's tired and all he wanted to do now was to sleep on his comfy bed. But before that he needed to see Rukia. To ask why she didn't showed up at the park. Knowing she's not here too brought another reason for him to worry even more. What if she returned to Soul Society without telling him? It scared the shit out of him. The hell he'll ever let that happen. He swore that if she returned there without enough reason he'll follow her just to drag her home. All her struggles and objections will be rejected! It's been two years now after he persuade her to stay with him and he's still scared that she might ran away. He doesn't know why he acted that way. But one thing was for sure, he's happy whenever he knows that her reatsui was nearby. He won't let her leave as long as he likes it. He sounds selfish but he doesn't care.
'What's the matter with that midget!,' he pondered quietly.
He's now getting more worried!
As he stood to look for her, he heard some noises coming from his closet. He opened it quietly. And after an hour of searching, he found the girl that he's looking for, sleeping soundly on his closet. He sighed in relief knowing she didn't left him. He watched her closely and carefully. She looks so peaceful in her sleeps. He smiled at himself, having the luxury to watch Rukia on her sleeps which she hated so much. She looked so vulnerable and weak, the reason why he doesn't want her to leave alone for her missions without him.
He touched her pale shoulders and shook her gently.
"Rukia…"
She doesn't move. Another shook.
"Rukia…"
No response.
"RUKIA, GET YOUR LAZY ASS UP!", he shouted.
Rukia's amethyst orb flew opened and met the amber ones. He detected some disbelief on her eyes. She tried to sit on his closet properly.
"I… Ichigo?", she asked with a tired voice.
"You made me worried so much and all you could say was my name? Didn't you know that I spend an hour looking for your midget ass?", he said with some hint of irritation.
He earned a kick to the shin from Rukia.
"AHHH!... What was that for?" he screamed at her.
"That's for calling me midget, you fool!," she revealed.
'You'll pay for this midget', he thought evilly.
"Where have you been? You told me that you wanted to meet me at the park?" Ichigo was trying to ease the pain on his shin.
From those words, the scene she tried to forget played again on her exhausted mind.
"Sorry, I forgot about the park. I overslept on your closet. I have to go to my room to rest. See you later at dinner, Ichigo." Rukia tried to hide her eyes from his, scared that he might see that she's lying. He knows her like the back of his hand, and he could read her like an open book. She immediately stood up and grabs the doorknob to escape. But before she completed the act, a rough hand grabs her wrist to stop her from leaving. She gave him a questionable look.
"I won't buy that. Don't lie to me, Rukia. I knew that there's something wrong."He gave her a very serious look.
"I'm not lying, you fool! Don't be too paranoid!" She said with a hint of anger on her voice.
"STOP THIS BULLSHIT RUKIA! TELL ME THE TRUTH! YOU WON'T CALL ME IN THE FIRST PLACE IF THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG! DON'T ACT AS THOUGH YOU'RE STRONG WHEN THE TRUTH WAS YOU'RE NOT!", he shouted.
"SHUT UP! DAMN IT! I'M NOT THAT WEAK, SO WATCH YOUR MOUTH KUROSAKI ICHIGO!", She gave him a death glare that lead him to let go of her wrist.
"You don't have to hide anything from me, we're friends, aren't we?" he asked her with all the calm expression he could muster.
"Fool. Trust me I won't hide anything from you."She lied.
"Rukia, remember that no matter what happened I'll be by your side. I won't leave you."He gave her a pleasant smile.
"You don't have to say that, I already knew it even from the start", she lied again. Rukia turned around and leave the room. She wanted to cry but she couldn't. She pondered his last words and a bitter smile escaped her now trembling lips.
'I wanted to believe that too Ichigo, but it's hard… especially now,' she sadly went away from him.