(a/n) ok first and foremost, thank you for all of your wonderful reviews… and I would like to say, that in some of the reviews they were jumping to conclusions about the direction I am taking the story in. I am going to explain a lot in this chapter and I will probably have two chapters up tonight depending on how tired I get. I mean I haven't even started writing this chapter (it will be totally short.)But it is a filler chapter and will explain what was going on in Edward's head, and why he was so spacey. Now, on to the story. :D and PS… this is Lanna-Misssunshine's genius idea! Oh and I also thought it would be a good idea to tell you that this chapter starts with Edward in his Volvo driving home. Thank you guys! Now, on with the story!

EPOV

I knew I was in desperate need of a hunt. I thought back to when I had her pinned on the couch, right before she threw herself into the most passionate kiss I ever imagined to have with her before she gets changed. I thought about how I'd almost lost control. I felt the thirst burn the back of my throat as I thought of her scent.

As I let her kiss me for a moment, I felt her stop breathing. It took me a moment to refocus.

I pulled into our make-shift garage.

'Edward, you need to leave for the hunt. You need to leave soon. I can just feel the thirst radiating off of you. I'd be surprised if everyone else couldn't feel it as well.' I heard Jasper's thoughts. Caring as they were I couldn't help but be annoyed.

"I want to go back and apologize to Bella. I was acting very rudely this afternoon and I need to make it up to her." I explained in a whisper that I knew he, along with the rest of the family, could hear.

'No, Edward, I'm leaving right now. Come with me. Emmett isn't leaving for another hour or two. You need this hunt, Edward.' He didn't understand. He could do to Alice what I could do to Bella. I couldn't help but be overly annoyed.

'I don't mean to annoy you, Edward, but I've grown to love Bella, and it's our job to keep her safe. And if you go to back through her window tonight, I can almost promise you that Bella wouldn't wake up in the morning.' Jasper's thoughts were screaming at me.

"Ok fine, Jasper, if you're so worried about her then I won't go back. But I am not leaving just yet. I want to get some things in order first. Don't worry I'll be in the in two hours, and if I'm not then you can feel free to come here and check up on things." I reasoned in my mind, it wouldn't hurt to have someone checking up on me every once in a while.

'Fine,' He thought,' I will be back in two hours if you aren't in the mountains.'

I was glad he stopped at that. I had some major thinking to do. As I walked into the house I could feel all of my family's eyes burning holes into the back of my shirt. I ignored their thoughts and went straight up to my room.

I sat down on the black leather couch, and put my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. What had I done? How could I have been so stupid? I made a vow to myself and to Bella that I was going to never let myself get so thirsty ever again. I looked down at my watch; I had about half an hour until Jasper came back. How did time always just slip by like that with me? I guess it had something to do with the fact that I had an entire century behind me.

Just about the time I actually let my mind wander I heard my door being pushed open.

"Knock, knock," I heard the soprano voice of my favorite sister, smiling as she danced into my room.

"If I hadn't heard you coming I might have been a little scared." I teased her.

"I wasn't looking to scare you; I wanted to know what the problem is, you've had me nervous all day. I saw you in her house, but I could tell you were losing control." I didn't answer, "Jasper is right, you know. About you needing to go on the hunt, you could've killed her, you know?"

"Yes, I know, Alice!" I snapped.

'I knew I wouldn't be able to help him any. He never opens up to me anyway.' She thought.

"Now, you know that's not true. I just get so frustrated that if I kissed her like I want to be able to kiss her, then I'll kill her." I surprised myself in being able to sum all of what I was feeling into one sentence.

"I knew that would make you tell me," Alice giggled, "now, would you be so kind as to enlighten me on how I can help you?"

Suddenly, I got the most insane idea. I looked at Alice, and smiled. "Alice, teach me how to put as much passion into the kiss when I kiss Bella, without actually being dangerous."

Alice looked a little unsure about the idea. I took a good look into her mind and she seemed to be thinking of Jasper and how he would feel about it. Then in her head, she pictured it and how she would teach me.

"Oh, thank you, Alice!! I'll owe you one until the day I die!!" I saw so excited that I lifted her up into a brotherly embrace and spun her around in the air! I sat her down and took a seat on my couch, and let her begin teaching me.

I let her begin. She started like a normal kiss would have. I quickly threw myself into the kiss, exerting more passion then I ever would be able to with Bella until she was changed. We kept kissing like this for a moment. Then I quickly pulled away, "Did you hear that?" I asked cautiously. She shook her head. "Ok, I thought for a minute that I heard the door open."

And just as quickly as I'd pulled away, we were kissing again. Her lips were moving slowly, but urgently against mine. The way she kissed, did display a lot of affection. I was worried this might turn into something I didn't want to. I kept kissing her though. I wanted to be my best for Bella.

Suddenly, like out of now where, I did hear the door open. I pulled away from Alice, only to see half-crouched Jasper with his lips pulled back over his teeth. At vampire speed, Jasper flew at me slamming me into my China cabinet, shattering it. I growled at him, and he growled back. I was so into keeping Alice safe, that I didn't have time to grab Jasper before he shot out of the room to the front of the house.

I heard Emmett speaking to Jasper quickly, "Here, get Bella, Take my Jeep and go to California or one of the other houses, just get out of here. Make sure you keep in touch. If you don't call by seven, then I'll call you."

I ran faster than I've ever run before, to get outside and see why the mentioned Bella. Alice followed.

We got out just in time to see Bella and Jasper driving down the driveway and in time to hear Bella say, "… Anywhere but here."

I couldn't believe it. Just this afternoon I was promising her I could never hurt her. And here I go again, hurting her with everything I do. I was trying to make things better for us, but it turned out horribly wrong.

"What have I done?" I dropped to my knees. Alice leaned over me and kissed the top of my head. I looked up at her. Her expression unfathomable. Though the hurt was clear on her face, all I noticed was the love in her eyes. She wanted to make things better for me.

"Do you see this getting better?" I whispered, so low that I was surprised her vampire hearing even picked it up.

"It's too soon to tell, they haven't decided yet." She looked at me for a moment and then crumbled into my arms. "Oh, Edward, how could they not see?"

"I don't know, Alice, I just don't know."

I took a quick look into her mind. She was thinking about our "lesson" but not in the way I had guessed she would. Had she… enjoyed it?

(a/n) ok you guys this is totally just a filler chapter, I hope it helps you understand what was going on in Edward's head, if you are confused at all, just let me know. The next chapter will be back to Bella's POV and I should have that up and ready to be read by tomorrow. Hope you enjoy!

-Mrs.McHammer