High school was a jungle. Eat or be eaten. So we ate, Santana and l. We climbed the social ladder not caring too much about who or what we used as tiers. Together with Brittany we made the cheerleading team. Brittany liked it but didn't much care about what she could accomplish by being a Cheerio. Santana and I worked it for all it was worth.

Blessing or curse, we grew up pretty. Santana's fantastic facial structure topped by those dark smouldering eyes, a perfect body and shiny black hair, made most of the boys overly eager to impress her enough to get a date. Rumour also had it that she put out. She did sometimes but not half as often as her reputation implied. The boys she denied access were too embarrassed to say so at school anyway and would tell tales of what a hot little number my Latina friend was. It didn't seem to bother her in the least. On the contrary she seemed to revel in the notion of being desirable. Me, I was Santana's opposite and had a cold-bitch reputation. They wanted her because they had heard that others got to go all the way. Me they wanted because they'd heard no one had gotten to go all the way and they wanted to be first to conquer the ice-queen. That of course changed when I got pregnant. I don't know how I would have gotten through that ordeal without my friends. Giving up my child was the hardest and maybe the worst decision I've ever made. But that's another story.

Santana and Brittany had moved their relationship to the next stage even if they weren't exclusive and didn't think of it as a romantic relationship. They were almost inseparable in and out of school, always walking around linking pinkies and giving each other cute little presents. They reckoned they were best friends with benefits. But I would have had to be both blind and stupid not to know what it really was. Fortunately I'm neither. The last one to catch on was Santana and when she did, all hell broke loose.

Brittany knew. But being Brittany she mainly took it in her stride. Her mistake was calling Santana on it too early. I watched Santana panic. She lashed out randomly at people at school. She got under every boy she could find and she partied like there was no tomorrow. It all cumulated when Brittany finally got tired of waiting for Santana and found a boyfriend to go out with. Santana even challenged me at school. I'll admit, sometimes she got to me.

Eventually she decided to spell it out to Brittany, how she felt. She was hoping her feelings and her honesty about them would sway Brittany to be in an exclusive relationship with her. To her surprise and great disappointment Brittany turned her down. She claimed she couldn't leave her boyfriend just like that.

Another problem was that Santana didn't want anyone to know about them. Brittany however being the most honest person in the world was not prepared to go along with the secrecy.

That day I found Santana on my doorstep crying. Her mascara had made tracks down her face and her eyes were puffy and red. She'd waited for me for two hours. I ushered her inside and into the kitchen and made her coffee.

"I know", I said quietly, stirring the hot beverage in my cup.

"How?" she croaked.

"I've always known." I shrugged. I had always known. Ever since I gained an understanding of love, I knew that Santana loved Brittany. She had loved her since that first day in third grade.

I held my friend as she cried. I tried to find encouraging things to say but we both knew there were no short cuts. I had never seen her so distraught. And I wished I could tell her the world was an understanding place. I wished so much that I could have told her that no one would be small minded enough to mock or belittle the most beautiful parts of her person. Instead all I could do was to act as her arms bearer and help her prepare for battles that would inevitably occur. But it's hard to be a terrified sixteen year old having to face the pettiness, the ugliness and hatred in the world. I'll give her that. She cried for her Brittany and she cried for herself. She cried out of heartache and a fear that was ripping her apart. She second guessed herself for loving. That still makes my blood boil thinking about it. My beautiful, beautiful Santana.

I watched them struggle on. It was sad to see them cast longing glances at each other when the other wasn't looking. Santana couldn't hide the pain in her face when she saw Brittany together with her boyfriend. If possible, she'd leave when that happened. I know it made Brittany sad. The irony of it all was that Santana always felt she was Brittany's second choice since Brittany chose to be with Artie but in reality that was never the case. Brittany had settled for second best since she couldn't have what she really wanted. She just tried to make the best of it.

Brittany was a lot smarter than most people gave her credit for. The girl had integrity. She knew what she wanted and she wasn't afraid to stand her ground. When she and Artie eventually broke up Santana was delighted but there was still the problem of secrecy. Brittany wanted her but she just wasn't willing to be Santana's dirty little secret. Those were the rules she laid down. They'd be an official couple or not at all. Brittany was disgusted and hurt when Santana even staged a fake relationship with a gay boy just to keep up appearances. It made me a little queasy too but I was too busy running for prom-queen to pay much attention to anything else at that time. Santana had such good intentions and she wanted Brittany so badly but courage failed her again and again. She had always been so good at hiding behind her bitch-facade but this time accomplishing what she wanted meant she had to expose parts of her person that she never wanted to put on display. Brittany on the other hand kept providing openings for Santana to take the plunge and come out. But she just couldn't bring herself to do it.

I'll never forget the look on her face that time when we all had to print t-shirts exposing something about ourselves we had a hard time coming to terms with, in big black letters across our chests. Brittany gave Santana a t-shirt that said 'Lebanese'. It would have been hilarious if it wasn't for the civil war it fuelled inside Santana.

"Clearly you don't love you as much as I do or you'd put this t-shirt on and you'd dance with me", Brittany had declared when Santana hesitated to put the t-shirt on, and she stormed off. She couldn't have been any clearer. I think that is the only time I've known Brittany to completely lose patience with Santana.

Eventually Santana did wear the t-shirt but she didn't get up on stage with the rest of us in the glee club. She just sat there in the auditorium next to her gay-beard boyfriend, looking so thoroughly miserable. Still, putting the t-shirt on at all was a step in the right direction. She wanted so badly to be braver than she was. She had so much to win but she still thought she had more to lose. I tried to talk to her about it later that day but she didn't want to discuss it. I think she was too ashamed of herself.

Then New York was next. Our glee club had qualified for nationals and we were all going to the Big Apple to compete. I remember I was pining over Finn Hudson who had just dumped me. Few things can hit harder than teenage love. I blamed myself. I shouldn't have cheated on him the first time we were together. I think he never really trusted me again after that. Especially since I let him go months thinking he was the father of my unborn child. I know that was cruel but I was desperate. I wasn't in love with Puck and I thought he had nothing to offer me or the baby. It turned out he was the more mature parent out of the two of us. He was prepared to become a father. I think he would have loved to keep the baby but he was too young and insecure to argue against all the overwhelming reasons as to why it would be better to put Beth up for adoption. Me, I'll never forgive myself for what I did but that's something I'll have to learn to live with.

From day one I think all of us fell in love with New York. In the big city we saw how our dreams could come true. For some, the dream was to win Nationals and return triumphantly to school. To others, this was where they saw their whole future filled with opportunities and careers. To some the city held a promise of living a life without shame or hiding.

Oh gawd there was also that really embarrassing moment when I was crying over Finn, Brittany and Santana tried to cheer me up and I thought they were proposing a threesome. I still cringe today thinking about it and let me tell you, they are never going to let me live that one down.

We came in twelfth at the competition. Of course we were sorely disappointed but thinking about it now, being the twelfth best show choir in the country isn't too damn bad now, is it?

Shortly after we returned from New York the school year ended. It had been an exhausting year and I think many of us were grateful to get a break from each other. Sure, we hung out with our friends but we weren't forced together in those cramped school corridors.

Santana and Brittany were still working on their relationship. It had put on some kind of just-friends-disguise that enabled them to hang out together. I guess they needed time. Especially Santana.

In fact, it took them years to work it all out. They both went to New York to study after high school. Brittany studied dance and Santana went to medical school. By then I had already left America to study law in Cambridge, England. I still live in the UK and work as a solicitor in London.

They dated on and off until they finally settled down together in a small dingy apartment in Brooklyn. That's where they in earnest started a grown up relationship with dinner parties, laundry day and all that. They probably have the happiest marriage out all the people I know. Oh, yeah, they got married as soon as Santana graduated. Rachel sang at the wedding and I was Santana's bride's maid. Tina was Brittany's. They had arranged for a small service on a roof top in Manhattan and the party was held in the same building. Most of our old friends from the glee club attended, members of both the Pierce and Lopez families of course and some of their new friends from New York. Brittany and Santana both looked radiant and there wasn't a dry eye when they exchanged their vows. "…with my body I thee worship, with my heart I thee cherish..." They had chosen to use the old fashioned English marriage vows. I nearly tear up thinking about their wedding. I can see them twirling across the dance floor and the way Santana looked at Brittany with so much love and pride showing on her face. I was so happy for them!

When I first moved out here I talked to them on the phone all the time but as the years have gone by, our contact has become a little less frequent. To my shame I haven't been to see them in LA where they live now. Last time we met was at a high school reunion in Lima two years ago.

Almost a year ago the phone rang a little after midnight. I remember I was already asleep. As soon as I picked up I heard an overly excited voice almost yelling

"Guess what Q!" Startled I sat up.

"Santana! Do you know what time it is here in England?"

"She's pregnant! We're going to have a baby!" It took me a moment to process the information.

"Oh my god! Oh my god!" Was all I could manage to say but I felt my face cracking up with a huge grin.

"She's twelve weeks pregnant but she made me promise not to tell anyone until now. I've been bursting to tell you! We're going to have a baby! Can you believe it? You're going to have a little godchild Q." She laughed happily.

"I am?" I was still not quite awake and this was a lot to take in.

"Of course you are. I just emailed you a picture of the ultra sound so you know what he looks like. Well, we don't know if it's a boy or a girl yet but I think we're having a boy. He's due in September so make plans to come see us then."

We talked for another few minutes before hanging up. It was hard to go back to sleep afterwards.

They e-mailed me pictures of Brittany's growing belly every week. Santana tried to be all professional and not worry too much if Brittany got tired or had a light cold but she couldn't help fussing over her wife. I think Brittany is going to be a really cool mom and Santana is probably going to be completely neurotic. Well at least for the first few years. I can see her being a cool mom when he's a teenager though.

Three weeks ago I received a short text message. I was in court sitting next to my client when my phone buzzed. Awkwardly I fished it out of my purse. "He's here! 7lb 5oz. 8:17 this morning. We're all fine. Love ya!" and there was a picture of a small red face with piercing blue eyes. My godson!

Listen, my intention was to make a long story short but I see it didn't quite turn out that way. I won't keep you much longer and I have to go myself. I have a flight to catch. Today I'm heading for Paddington Station in a little while to travel on to Heathrow and fly out towards LAX. I can't wait to see all three of them!

The end

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