I tried not to dwell on what was wrong with me, and the second that Adrian left the room, I locked the door; to make it harder for me to escape and risk hurting anyone. Still, I couldn't help staring at my harsh red eyes, and wished that I could still cry.

A few minutes later there was a thump on the door and I opened the door, then sank onto the bed. "Here's the contacts." Adrian said, throwing a box towards me.
"Thanks," I felt so awkward. He was staring at me now, looking for my aura probably, to see if I really did have a spark of humanity left.
"It's probably not going to help but here -" he passed me a necklace and I frowned in confusion.
"Look, Adrian, I don't think jewellery is going to help, is it? It's a bit late for that!" I snarled it, and he looked alarmed.
"I know that, but it's got spirit magic in it..." he stammered and sighing, I put the necklace on.
"I don't feel any different."

He shrugged as I put the contacts in. As we walked towards the hall for breakfast, he remained close to me, and I could tell that he still had the stake in his pocket. I didn't blame him, really.
When we reached the breakfast hall,he sat down next to me and didn't move an inch, not even to get something to eat. Lissa frowned.
"Adrian, what's wrong?" She looked from him to me, and raised an eyebrow. He laughed bitterly, and shook his head.
I looked down at my paler than normal skin and back at Adrian, trying to remain calm.
"You look strange the day, you look...." Christian, sitting next to Lissa, said and I shrugged, staring down at the table. I felt like screaming, and it was taking all of my control not to start kicking out.
"Rose." Adrian said in a low voice.I nodded in response. "I know." I muttered, knowing that he would understand what I meant.

We sat there, and nobody was eating anything much, which was just as well - it made sure I looked less out of place. The rest of the day passed in a blur of trying to stay in control; until the final lesson of the day. Guardian training.

I stood against the wall, deciding that maybe I should just run for it now. Adrian was standing next to me, refusing to go to his next lesson, deciding to watch me and make sure I didn't hurt anyone instead.
"I'm going to run now. It's probably going to be easier if I do," I whispered and he shook his head, pointing towards the teacher who was standing a few metres away.
"Adrian Ivashkov, what are you doing here? Get to your class, now!" He just smirked and shook his head.
"No thanks, you can punish me if you want though, just not right now."
The Guardian didn't feel like an argument, in fact he looked a bit ill, so just shrugged. "Detention later."
Then he turned to me. "Rose Hathaway, I thought you'd enjoy practising with stakes; after all you seem to enjoy fighting..." I shook my head.
"Feel ill today." And refused to come any closer.
Suddenly, before the Guardian could argue there was a loud siren, piercing the silence.
"Strigoi attack." He paled, and turned to me. "Pick up a stake, now! Find Moroi, and take them to the Church."
I turned to Adrian, and he was just staring at me. "You didn't do this, did you?" he whispered and I shook my head, slightly angry that he would think that.
Slowly, I reached into the box of stakes, and wincing in pain, managed to pick one up. It seemed to burn my hand, and I could see a harsh red mark forming after just a few seconds.
"That isn't a good idea, Rose," Adrian,said but I just shook my head.

I knew that the likelihood would be that I would lose myself soon, and become a heartless monster. I had to something while I was still me.

"I might be Strigoi but that doesn't mean I can't fight!"

A.N There's chapter 2 R+R :D