Haruka's words made Rin realize how invasive he had been, how their noses were slightly touching each other and how wrong it felt now to be this close to the man that once was his. How come in the past he felt so comfortable by being this close to Haruka and now… it felt like if it was forbidden?
Haruka was just like water; you can last longer without drinking water than without food but… sooner or later it will end up killing you. Rin knew it, without him… he would end up dying from this pain inside his chest.
Even if he tried to hide those sour thoughts and prevent them to reflect pain in his crimson eyes, he decided to drop his arms and take a step backwards just to give the other more space to think. Or maybe… he was the one that needed space to think and process everything inside his head.
"I used to think there was nothing to talk about us, Haru." Rin replied, eyes still on his. "But now I even started wondering that maybe you don't think of me even as friends like I thought you did all this time."
Why would Haru run away from him like that? Why would Haruka avoid him? Was he mad… because Rin started ignoring him and becoming distant years ago?
Friends? He wants to be friends? That was what this was about? Haru continued a blank stare at Rin, he was trying his damnedest to read what was in his eyes if that was possible. For a brief moment he wondered if he was hallucinating because those eyes looked like Rin was in pain, but it was brief. Perhaps they were both good at hiding it.
"Friends?" Could Haru's heart take being friends with this person, the one that got away. The one that caused such a whirlwind of mixed emotions, good and bad, Wanting to run and wanted to grab onto him.
His blue eyes scanned Rin's features intensely. What the hell is he supposed to say to this? He could breath more once the other boy gave him some space, he wanted to run away again but he hesitated.
"I just don't know—-" Just being friends is hard. Seeing your face is hard. This whole situation is just so hard to deal with. His heart raced do to being confronted like this. Rin was as hotheaded and as passionate as ever. At least he had not tried to kiss Haru or the dolphin may have wavered.
Finally he looked away and turned on his heal Once more walking away from the most important person in his heart.
"You don't know?!" But any other word pretending to be said died on his lips when Haruka started to walk away. Rin reminded speechless, entirely astonished. Was Haruka seriously trying to leave him behind? Was he really implying that Rin was not worth it even as a friend?
Rin closed his hands in tight fists. "The fuck is wrong with you, Haruka?!" he yelled. "Am I seriously not important enough for you to at least give me a god dammed explanation?!"
No, please don't lock me out. Please let me be part of your life!
His legs started moving without thinking, going once more after Haruka while his whole body felt heavier than before. "Tell me, when did we stop being friends?!"
Haru froze with every word that spilled out of Rin's lips. He turned on his heel and faced Rin was he supposed to answer such questions?
"I—-" don't know…His heart raced just being anywhere near him. It always brought the past in, like it was demanding him to confront it head on. "Friends?" After what we used to have? Is it possible to only be friends? I can't look at those lips and forget what a kiss from them used to be like. I can't look at you and not want to hold you…. It just doesn't compute that way in my head…..
"How can I tell you when I don't even know myself?" God damn it, his fucking emotions are usually in check but being chased down and confronted over and over…..
His face felt wet as a small tear came from the corner of his eye. He turned away from Rin. "What do you want from me?" He said it so softly, his voice cracking.
Rin was shocked; he had never seen Haru cry before. His mouth went completely dry; there were no words that could describe the heavy feeling inside his chest. Even if Haruka tried to hide those tears from Rin, he could still hear them on Haru's fragile voice.
What have I done?
Rin could still remember the promises they both made time ago, promises of love, promises that linked them together and how Rin have sworn he would never break Haru's heart again. It was hard not to start crying as well; he felt miserable and entire guilty. He had failed him…
"This is…" he stopped not entirely sure of what to say. "I want…"
I want you back. I want you to want me back…!
"Fuck."
He lowered his face, shoulders already shaking as he tried to keep himself from crying.
Haru wiped his tears and barely pulled himself together, Rin's tone of voice— it held something in it. He wasn't so sure now if the redhead really had moved on as he assumed when he saw him so happy before. Was he just as unhappy as Haru had become?
He didn't know if he should run away from those arms or directly into them. He longed for the past but he also wanted to run from it —- his love for Rin ran deep, to the core of who he is. "I—-" never got over you…
He turned around and faced the redhead and he could tell, Rin wasn't happy. "— can't be just your friend…" Haru's honest words slipped out before he even realized what he was doing. He sighed heavily, he had not meant to say that out loud really. However, it needed to be said because it was too hard to just be friends with him. Or so he kept telling himself.
Too many emotions were spinning around, his guilt was overwhelming and more than he could ever handle. Rin felt sick, completely dizzy not knowing anymore what he was allowed to feel or able to do.
Then, those words rung in his ears and made his whole world stop. Rin lifted his head and stared straight into those blue eyes that were looking back at him. They can't just be friends? Then, what was that supposed to mean?
He lost to his own heart; hurrying his way to Haruka, grabbing the front of his shirt roughly pulled him into a kiss like if his dear life depended on it. It had already been years since the last time their lips had met in this way and yet… Rin remembered perfectly how pleasant those lips felt against his. This felt so right.
Haru froze at first as he was grabbed and kissed, his eyes grew wide for a moment but he had missed this feeling. He had missed those lips and the precious person they belonged to. So even if his brain was telling him to stop, his heart and his body were another story. He ended up kissing those lips back just as passionately as they were to him.
He had lost his head as his mind went blank, no thoughts of the past bothered him on this moment. No tormenting, just being. His heart slammed in his chest and thumped in his ears like they were speakers. His stomach which had been tied in knots felt light as a soft tickle filled it.
He wrapped his arms around Rin and pulled him in closer, he wanted to be closer. He never realized that it was to this extent that he missed Rin. But one kiss and suddenly he was a complete mess. No one else had ever had this kind of impact on him. No one else ever would.
The lock on his heart didn't turn however, it wasn't that easy with just one kiss, however it did set him at ease and he didn't dwell on his thoughts because this guy's kisses made him downright senseless.
It took a moment for Rin's mind to stutter awake, to adjust to the moment and distinguish between what was real and what was mere fantasy.
Haruka was kissing him back.
Rin's long fingers caressed Haruka's cheeks to assure that this was real, he could barely hold himself. The kiss started as a passionate, sweet kiss full of hope and unspoken promises. Rin felt his hunger roar, as if only those lips were able to bring him back to life.
Rin broke the kiss just to breathe in but their lips met once more, and between kisses, he felt his own crimson eyes now drowning in tears. How come he was able to find peace just in those lips that weren't meant to be his?
His heart sank for a moment when Rin broke the kiss but that didn't last at all. His lips came right back for more and Haru was so caught up right now, so relieved at his agony disappearing that the physical contact was a need like some illegal drug he had to obtain.
He was panting between kisses, and his response became quite heated. It had been years since he had kissed Rin. Kissing Rin was dangerous though because he wasn't using his brain at all. Only his heart and his physical yearning for the other male. Rin's finger's on his cheek were so rugged yet so gentle - the way he touched Haru sent chills down the raven's back.
He slowly backed Rin into the fence as they kissed and cupped his face with one hand — dragging his thumb across the soft skin of the shark's cheek.. He slowed his kisses down into a soft, loving tease - nipping at Rin's lips and tracing his tongue over them. The light feeling in his stomach spread though his body and he grew so warm.
Rin getting out of breath again, yet he managed to steal some air from Haru's mouth as he locked his arms around the other's hips and pulled their bodies closer. He closed his eyes drowning himself on Haruka's scent and letting himself go. Haruka's touch made him shiver, their lips pressed against each other, kissing like if they invented it.
A surprised moan came out of his cherry lips once his back was against the fence, yet that was not enough for Rin to even consider breaking the kiss. In fact, he remembered how he had always enjoyed when Haruka showed his thrust for dominance in their encounters. Rin's eyes remained closed, scared that opening his eyes meant he would wake up from this unexpected dream.
It had happened before; his dreams had always felt this real.
Their tongues met after so long, dancing at their own rhythm. His whole body was on fire, not even the night's cold air could stop Rin from sweating. He bit Haruka's lower lip gently and wrapped his leg around the raven-head's hips in a possessive act.
Haru pressed into Rin as the redhead had pulled him closer, once he heard that moan escape Rin…he remember that familiar sound. It was like a sweet chime of a music box to his ears and he wanted to make the redhead - do that again.
His mind was completely muddled as he was consumed with Rin at the moment. He didn't even realize that a soft damn drop had landed on his face. Slowly more began to fall from the sky. It was a light sprinkle and yet Haru paid no mind to it.
Haru let out a low groan when his lip was bit and he pushed into Rin's body when the shark wrapped a leg around him. He was trying to be as close as possible but he reluctantly came up for air.
He didn't stop with Rin though, oh no — he began placing slow kisses, nips and licks over the redhead's exposed skin — from his lips to his neck. He ran his hand through Rin's hair and gently gripped it — pulling his head back so he could access the sensitive skin of his neck better.
Rin allowed those kisses on his neck, titling his head and he couldn't hold back a grunt. Both men were now soaked; the redhead's crimson bangs clung now to his cheeks, hands sliding down over his shoulders and down Haruka's sides.
Fingers trace along his hips, tempting his fate and finding it way under Haruka's wet shirt touching the forbidden skin he wanted to mark as his after so long.
Those kisses were driving him crazy, but Rin still felt unsatisfied. He had always been a man that liked things rough; bites and scratches, whatever was able to leave marks on his body as a constant reminder that he belonged to Haruka.
Rin felt on Haruka's spell, blindfolded by the pleasure he could only find in the other's lips.
Haru could feel how soaked his body was from the rain, but this only served to fuel his desire that much more. As he licked and kissed Rin's neck — he settled on a spot determined to leave a mark. He first placed soft licks over the skin, the chilled rain - against Rin's hot skin. He loved the smell of Rin mixed with the rain. It was sensual in its own way. He stopped licking and went to slowly sucking on the spot. His hand slipping from Rin's hair and running slowly down his back.
He could feel Rin's hands tracing his body and creeping under his shirt, his breath was caught in his throat as he felt the soft touch on his bare skin. It sent shivers through him in a very intimate way. He stopped his assault on Rin's neck and looked him in the eyes.
He didn't speak but he started to slowly unbutton his own shirt as he gazed intensely at Rin, his eyes half lidded and laced with longing. Please don't speak. Don't ruin this moment.
Rin could feel the raindrops running down from Haruka's nose bridge, falling directly on his neck and rolling down his chest. Those lips felt so warm against his neck, intoxicating him with their lustful licks. Rin couldn't hide how pleasurable it felt once Haru started sucking his neck, hoping he could leave a mark big enough for him to remember this sensual encounter.
Their eyes met and Rin took this chance to appreciate Haruka's red lips, swollen from the previous kissed they had shared under the rain. No words, Haruka worked on his own shirt and Rin licked his lower lip with desire. If you say a word, the spell will be broken and we will be forced to part ways once more.
His hands joined the others, taking that unnecessary wet shirt off their way unable to control the thirst flowing through his veins. Haruka's skin had always been this pale, so white and irresistible in his eyes. Rin came forward and hid his face on Haru's neck, blinding each of his senses with Haruka's sweet scent.
His hands wondered on Haruka's back, marking their way down that hot skin. He bit him; digging his teeth slowly on Haru's skin. His tongue met with the skin he trapped between his teeth, tasting like a salty sweet candy that made him want more.
As Haru was working on his shirt, his eyes took in the sight before him, because Rin's clothes were hugging his taunt muscular frame. He had never looked sexier - his rouge locks sticking to him as water dripped off of them. He savored this image, he would be sure to reflect on it later.
He wasn't surprised at all when Rin assisted him with the removal of his shirt, once it was off he could feel the cool rain hit his heated skin. Normally he may be chilled in such a situation but at the moment his body was on fire.
He could feel Rin's warm breath on his neck, there was a slight spark that ran through him just from this and this alone. The spark was now a multitude of small shocks racing over his skin as he felt Rin's hands on his bare flesh. His heartbeat rang in his ears and he gasped softly once those sharp teeth bit down. It wasn't hard enough to cause him to bleed but he did feel a slight pain mixed with pleasure. Rin had a way of pushing his buttons. He grabbed onto Rin's shirt and pulled him closer as he gently jerked it up and snuck his hands underneath, tracing over the dampened skin with his fingertips and then his nails.
The burning need to possess Haruka's body in many ways throbbed insistently inside Rin's chest. His tongue traveled over the bite marks now printed in Haruka's sweet skin, yet Rin was not even close to be satisfied. Those warm hands traveling down his body, teasing him with toxic pleasure, send Rin's last trace of sanity to sleep.
His tongue tasted Haruka's collar bone, going up to meet with his ear as he left a saliva trace behind. He wanted to call his name, assure this was real but Rin was completely aware of their silent agreement. He grabbed Haruka by his shoulders and adjudged their positions, splashing icy water from the puddles beneath them with every step taken. They switched places, Haruka now with his back against the fence and Rin staring down at him with hungry eyes.
His shirt was now gone; laying close to Haruka's on the wet floor. Their lips met once more as Rin proclaimed them as his, wrapping his arms around Haruka's waist. There was no fabric between their chests, just their damp skins one against the other. Rin thrust his hips forward and met Haruka's, moaning in their kiss. They were no boundaries, he wanted to take Haruka or be taken that night. It didn't really matter to him anymore.
His body was calling Haruka's, there was no way he could ever stop.
Haru only had one bite mark thus far and as the shark's tongue had slowly ran over his skin, a faint shiver ran through him. The next thing Haru knew, Rin had switched their positions. His skin was so sensitive to that soft warm tongue, his body literally shock with anticipation of where they were headed. The rain added to this, he could feel the cool drops slide down his skin, slow and wet. It was like the past when they used to fool around in the shower, he had never gotten the nerve to mention public sex in the rain. This was one of the reasons he was just gone in this moment. He wanted Rin, right here and right now.
Watching Rin rid himself of his shirt so fast, reminded him of when they were in high school and would have stripping contests. They were such idiots back then really but that was a memory that only brought joy and it in no way made him even ponder stopping.
Rin's lips collided with his, demanding and passionate as he ever was, all the while thrusting his hips into Haru. The raven's breath hitched as he felt such intimate contact, he pushed into Rin arching his back somewhat against the fence. He wrapped his arms around him and dug his nails into Rin's back but not enough to pierce the skin.
He had to slow Rin down at least a little, so after a long sensuous kiss — he pulled away panting. He gazed into those eyes, his blue ones filled with yearning for the idiot he had always loved. He traced the skin along Rin's chest slowly at first with his hands and then with his mouth. He kissed him starting at his chin and working his way down. He stopped at the grove of his hips and made his way back to Rin's lips. Cupping the redhead's face and kissing him firmly, his heart throbbing in his chest and his body heating up like he was in sauna.
Rin could feel Haruka's hot breath blowing over his face, the smell of mint flooding his senses. For Rin, when their eyes met that time, time stopped and he was able to wonder how he had survived this long without those blue eyes staring back at him. A moan betrayed his lips when Haruka's explored his chest. His fingers went stiff, closing themselves in a fist when Haruka's mouth met his sensitive skin. He dug his nails into the palm of his hand to keep from speaking, from asking for more. Those kisses were just… too much.
The red-head started shaking, delighted by all the sensations running through his whole body. His lips were surprised by another wet kiss; he wrapped one arms around Haruka's neck and bit his lower lip as payback. Haruka could be such a tease, leaving the shark thirsty for more.
'Don't make me beg, I need you!', those were his thoughts as his other hand slid down Haruka's chest, stopping on his belt . 'If we take any longer… I might wake up from this dream.'
He was impatient, he always had been - always tried to rush everything. Haru may need to show him, just how good it can he if he calms down a little and normally that might be his next move. But sometimes he would also bend to the redhead's will. Right now he wasn't thinking, nor did he want to be bothered with thoughts.
He wanted to just be lost with Rin, because this was a huge distraction from his tormented state of mind. He was running on a desirous adrenalin, he grinned when Rin bit his lip. One of his kinks when it came to this idiot, the teeth looked sharp but they didn't pierce skin as easy as a real shark's because Rin was a human. He nipped back at Rin's lips and deepened their kiss. He tasted like he had been drinking the rain water do to exploring Rin's skin with his mouth before.
He was very aware when Rin's hand grazed over the skin of his damped chest and when he stopped. Haru brought their kiss to an end and looked him in the eye, daring him to continue. His eyes saying 'What the hell are you waiting on?'
The cold air hits his bare back. Rin watched with hungry eyes and he knew that release would have to suffice. Rin licked his lower lip, still tasting Haruka's lips on his and feel his tongue in his mouth. 'I've been waiting all these years just for you.'
Rin reached to Haruka's zipper and shucked off his pants without taking his eyes from those deep blue ones he felt in love with.
He groaned into the kiss and relished in Rin's touch as the cool rain continued to fall over them. Those hands daring to go further and Haru just let it happen because he wanted Rin. He in a way was in just of an impassioned hurry as the one he still loves is.
His heart caught in his throat as he felt a strong pang of affection fill him. Only Rin brought such a high to his heart. He stepped out of his pants and never left that gaze, it was intense as hell and filled with want. Need. Raw desire.
He smiled at Rin and moved foreword kissing his lips teasingly as he reached for the front of his pants, awkwardly fumbling with the belt and zipper. He managed to get them undone and he slowly slide down Rin's body with his own as he slipped those pants down his muscular thighs till they were at his ankles.
He slide against him all the way back up as well, placing heated kisses over that dampened skin. The sight before his eyes was breathtaking. When he finally arrived back at Rin's subtle lips, he claimed them in a commanding kiss. His heart slammed in his chest and he panted harshly. He wanted this idiot.