Note: yes this is the second chapter in one night. I wrote this really fast, so if there's a lot of mistakes, sorry. I have to be up to get ready for school in like five hours, I have two speeches and a test tomorrow, I should be sleeping. So be happy for his. I know this chapter sucks and is disappointing, I'm not sure where I'm going with this. But I have a few ideas how this could be important later, not sure if I'll use aforementioned ideas or not. I might post another chpater tonight, but I doubt it.

oh, and it won't let me indent. Anyone know how to fix this, tell me. Its probably really obvious but I haven't slept in thirty-five hours and about twenty minutes.

Jinx was shocked. Raven, who was famous for hiding in her room and hardly talking, had just had half a conversation with her. She'd said enough to make Jinx feel relieved, guilty, angry, hopeful, and confused. She could tell Raven was angry, although impressed she kept it under control, that Jinx didn't seem to care about Kid Flash. But the problem was, she did care. And everyday she hated herself for what she'd done to him. But she had to.

Kid Flash saw the world in black and white. There were bad guys, and good guys. He always thought she was a good guy who found being bad easier, but that wasn't the truth. While it was true she knew she wasn't like the others, she didn't enjoy the crime the same way they did, she felt bad…but she still did it. He didn't seem to see that. He looked at her and only saw her good, he couldn't see her evil. Wouldn't see her evil.

When he asked her to help them, told her what was going on with the Brotherhood of Evil, she had hesitated. Her first thought was it wasn't her responsibility. They were the heroes, she was the villain. It had all been so much easier when the roles hadn't started to blur and change. When she was Jinx the criminal, and that was it. And so when he asked her for help, she was even more surprised than anyone when she said yes. She had been planning on saying no. She still didn't know why she said yes.

And she hadn't realized the repercussions of her decision until much, much later.

The Titans couldn't trust her. Sure, they accepted her into their home, they included her in their meetings, meals, and workouts. But they didn't trust her. Only one, Starfire, and she would trust Slade if he said sorry and smiled. She had to constantly prove herself, they were all just watching and waiting for her to screw up. And whenever she went on a mission, they had extra Titans go with her. Just in case.

And when she left the Titans' Tower, she'd found her 'friends' were even worse. They didn't understand that if the Brotherhood of Evil took over, it would be bad for them, too. The Brotherhood of Evil had no interest in small fries like them. They would be treated the same as the Titans; after all, they were potential competition, due to their powers. But no one would listen; they all just repeated the same word back to her: betrayal.

And she felt guilty about it. They were the closest thing she had to a family, and they felt she'd betrayed them. She hadn't meant to. But then again, she never meant to. And somehow, in the end, that's what happened. She betrayed someone, she made things worse for everyone. But this time, she only felt guilty that they were hurt, she didn't regret what she did. Even when she tried to. And with neither side trusting her, she decided to be on her own side. But their was no way to get away from everyone.

Well, there was one way.

If she had been able to think of anything else, she would have gone with that plan instead. But she couldn't. So she left a message on Kid Flash's machine, using all her acting skills, apologizing, telling him she couldn't take it anymore, then hanging up. Over the last few weeks shed been periodically draining her own blood and keeping it in the freezer, she then dumped it all over her bathroom floor, smears leaving the house. They never found the body, there was none to be found. But they did a DNA test, the blood was hers, and she was declared dead. After all, there was so much blood, no one could be alive after losing all that, right?

She had built a new life, made new friends. She'd even dated. But now matter how many days went by, or how many new friends she had, she couldn't forget the ones she left. The ones that were waiting for her if she ever chose to go back. Because deep down, she knew he would always forgive her. No matter what. And somehow, that made it worse.

She downed the rest of her scotch, savoring the burn in her throat, wondering when she'd lost the urge to dance. When she saw Raven? Or when she saw Kid Flash's address? She grabbed the napkin and slid it into her pocket, not noticing the eyes following her out the door, curiosity evident. Even as Ellie looked once more at Jinx's back, then at Raven. Neither girl noticed the other girl's glances.

Jinx downed another shot and laughed as the guy across from her fell over, making the men around her laugh, too. She was sitting in a bar near her home, in the middle of her second drinking contest, once again winning. She could tolerate high level of alcohol, because of her metahuman DNA and simple conditioning. After all, its not like thieves went home and read the bible after a good heist. And for her size, she could take a lot without getting too bad. But right now, she was pretty bad. Her vision was off, hard to describe, but everything seemed almost to ripple.

But she wasn't sure if the ripple effect was from the drinking, or the drugs. Nothing too serious, just some marijuana and a few lines of coke, but she was on a different level right now. She could feel the sound from the speakers, and the booming laughter around her was making the room shake. She stood up, suddenly noticing she could feel the sound but couldn't hear it, although she knew what everyone was saying.

"I gotta go home." She said as people protested her exit.

"C'mon, just a few more…" Their voices were far away, and she didn't feel the hand that gently grabbed her elbow, urging her back.

"No, I gotta go." She said, then noticed she couldn't hear herself talking, but she knew she was. She could see her voice, but why couldn't she hear it? She rubbed her eyes as she stumbled to the door, waving off cries for her to stay. "See you guys another night." She said, not realizing she'd basically shouted it, none of them noticed, all were on a different plane.

She hit the street and was suddenly overwhelmed by the sounds, those that had been muted were suddenly coming back full-blast, pounding at her senses. Suffocating her. It reminded her of something. She closed her eyes and covered her ears, stumbling in the general direction of her house. She felt moisture on her face and suddenly realized she was crying, but she couldn't remember why. Something. Something she remembered.

But she gave up quickly on that, wiping the tears away and hearing music, seeing a dog wink at her. She winked back and laughed, stopping her progress. The dog looked at her and barked, he said something about the sky.

"I didn't hear you," she told the dog, feeling herself swaying and stopping herself, not knowing she had simply started swaying more in the other direction. "Say that again?"

"The sky, its bleeding," the voice came form the dog even though his mouth didn't move, and for the first time it occurred to Jinx that maybe that marijuana wasn't just marijuana. After all, the dog's mouth must have moved since he was talking. But wait, what did he say? T he sky, bleeding? Jinx looked up and noticed the sky was turning red from the sunrise.

"Yeah, its bleeding." She agreed with the dog, noticing he was snarling and trying to attack her through the fence. She was shocked and jumped away, feeling fingers touch her neck, and she spun around., but no one was there. "Hello?" She asked, it never occurring to her that it was windy and her hair had brushed her neck. When no one answered, she felt a rush of adrenaline, and she took off running towards her house. Not sure what was so scary, not wanting to know.