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Lyrics by Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone
C H A P T E R 2
W h e n Y o u ' r e G o n e
R O U G E + J O H N
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
"John they told us to stay here," she said standing up and following him towards the jet exit.
"You always do what you're told?" he asked looking over his shoulder.
He turned to look at her and she knew what was on his mind. He was asking her, telling her to remember that night. Her eyes never left his telling him that she remembered and that was enough for him as he made the decision and turned to walk away.
She never knew that that was the last time she would see him. She thought that he would come back with the others with a satisfied 'I told you so' smirk on his face. No there was no smirk…and there was no John.
That was the last time she saw him. And oh how much she regretted not going after him.
"Hey," a familiar male voice said, although it wasn't the voice she wanted to hear she recognized it anyways.
"Hey Bobby," she replied back.
"Is something wrong?" he asked sitting next to her on the couch. The game room wasn't exactly the place he wanted to have this conversation, but thankfully there weren't many kids around.
"No, why?" she lied glancing sideways at him.
"Nothing you just seem kind of distant lately…" he began. His eyes cold eyes showed a mix of concern and frustration.
Rogue forced what seemed like a smile as she shrugged her shoulders. Although her fake smile didn't last for long as she saw a familiar brunette come make their way towards them.
"Hey guys!" a upbeat perky voice called out to them. It was none other than Kitty Pryde.
If there was one person that Rogue didn't want to see more than her so called boyfriend Bobby would be girl that was making there way over to them. She didn't make an effort to hide the disappointment in her face as she sat down next to Bobby with her too happy smile. It seemed that she was around a lot more now that John was gone. What did she think that she had taken his place?
"Hey Kitty," Bobby greeted.
Rogue failed to acknowledge her existence although Kitty didn't seem to care. It didn't bother her that boyfriend had an obvious infatuation for the kitty cat. Actually it was somewhat of a relief. Her feelings for Bobby had begun to fade away long before Kitty had entered in on the picture. They had begun to fade when she realized that her missing John were more than platonic feelings.
Sensing the awkward silence Kitty took it up on herself to fill the void. "So hey do you guys wanna go get a bite to eat or something?" she asked both of them.
"Uh sure why not," Bobby replied for both himself and Rogue, although it didn't situate with her very well. Just because Kitty had feelings for her so-called-boyfriend didn't mean that she had to make nice with her.
"You know what you two enjoy yourself," she said as she abruptly stood up and walked away.
"Rogue wait I didn't mean-" Kitty said standing up to defend herself.
"I don't care what you meant I don't care what you guys do," she said looking back at Bobby who had a bewildered look on his face. Right now she didn't care if she was mean or seemed to hurt his feelings. She was only thinking of one person at the moment and she didn't care that he clouded her judgment.
"Because as far as I know me and Bobby aren't together anymore." She took a step around Kitty and left the two to do whatever they planned to do.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
Maybe this was a mistake. No he, John, couldn't think that way. It had only been what a week since he had walked out on Xavier's and crossed into the brotherhood. He could do anything that he wanted. Whenever he wanted to use his power he could and better yet he was encouraged to do so. So he wasn't sure what his problem was.
"John?"
He didn't answer her. In fact he hadn't said a word since the incident at the Drake's house. People had mixed reactions to his little performance. Bobby of course was pissed out of his mind. This was expected since he did almost burn his house down when he specifically was warned not to burn anything. Logan who was half dead at the time had his own typical reaction which was his usual stern look of 'Don't you dare do that again or I'll slice your head off' then shrugging the whole situation off. He was sure once everything would settle down Storm or Jean would have a serious talk about inappropriate use of his powers.
He knew what everyone thought of him some thought of him as a Rebel, out of control, young, stupid, or something along those lines. He didn't care that he was seen this way in fact he preferred it. So why was he being so quiet, upset, and antisocial that night?
"John?" Rogue repeated again. "How come you're not answering me? I know you hear me." She stood with her hands on her hips with a firm look on her face.
He let out a sign knowing very well that if he didn't respond she would never go away. "What do you want?" he asked giving her a tired annoyed look from the log that he was sitting on.
He couldn't see her that clearly since she was standing a few feet away and the dark woods obscured his vision. The only source of light was the lights from the X-jet which was remotely far. Ever since they landed he had distanced himself from the others it wasn't until now someone had come to find him. He was surprised that it had been her.
She scrunched her nose at his attitude. He never seemed to care about anyone or anyone. At the school he would be seen as bad boy never caring about the consequences of his actions. Loving all the attention he got he would never care about his punishment later. It was like he didn't care about anything or anyone only himself. It wasn't until today that she realized how wrong she and everybody were.
She shrugged not really sure what to say. "I haven't seen you since we landed…I was just…"
"Stalking me?" he joked letting out a light laugh.
His memories drifted around in her head. There were memories of his childhood and how he had run away from home or whatever he wanted to call it. They weren't that different from each other…and ever since she touched him she couldn't get him out of her head. She wasn't sure if it was because of her powers or if she was really just thinking of him.
"Ugh you're impossible here I am trying to be nice and you just have to be a jerk. You know John why can't you just be-"
"Whoa whoa," he said putting his hands up in defeat trying to contain his laughter. "Okay you win. So Rogue what do I owe the pleasure of your presence this evening?"
She rolled her eyes although his comment didn't fail to make her smile. Making her way towards him, she took a few steps. The trees made it harder for them to see each other and it didn't take her long to trip…horribly.
In a second John was up from his seat rushing over to her. With a quick 'click' he held a fist full of fire in the palm of his hand. "Rogue are you alright?" he holding her arm and helping her up.
She laughed embarrassedly as she straightened herself out and brushed off the twigs and leaves from her hair. "Yeah…thanks…" she said turning to him.
As her face turned to him he froze. The orange flame illuminated the curves of her face as he could see the fire dance in the reflection of her dark brown eyes. The breeze slowly played with her hair causing her bangs to fall across her face. He had always had an attraction to her especially the times that she had come crying to him in the middle of the night when her and Bobby would fight, but would always brush it off thinking it was just a crush. This was the first time that he realized that it was much more than that.
"John?" she asked giving him a confused look. For the second time that night he didn't answer her.
She stood there for a minute as she looked at him staring at her. There was something unusual about him in that moment. It was like he had opened up and she was seeing a different side that no or few people had seen before.
It caused her to smile because she had never been looked at like that before. "John…" she called to him softly. "Are you alright?"
This time her voice seemed to snap him out of it, as he nodded slowly. "Yeah…I'm alright.
"What's wrong?" she asked tilting her head.
He smiled not that infamous smile that he did when working his charm on girls. It was a different smile. One that showed happiness and compassion to a person they cared about. "Nothing…nothings wrong," he said extinguishing the flame.
She nodded leaving it for what it was. It would take a lot more than one night to figure him out. "You wanna head back to the camp now?" she asked looking over her shoulder. "They're probably start looking for us soon."
"Yeah sure…" he said as he took his hand in hers and began to lead the way. His sudden action surprised her, but she didn't show any signs of moving away. "Thanks Rogue"
She looked up at him as he continued to stare ahead of them. Even though he wasn't looking at her he knew that she was smiling. "How many times do I have to tell you – you can call me Marie?" she giggled.
Yes, John could do whatever he wanted and had everything he could want now except there was one thing that was missing…