The Morning After

Light's PoV

As I open my eyes, something feels wrong, I feel wrong, I try to move my hands to brush my hair out of my face, and that is when I notice the chain, binding my arms above my head, twisted and bloody, the sight of it brings last night sharply into focus. I shudder, with mixed memories of pain and pleasure, the movement shooting discomfort through parts of my body I didn't know I had. What did L do to me! I try moving my head to look around, the pain almost blinds me. I try to roll over, and my whole body is burning in protest. I make one last attempt to look around me, but the pain is too much and I fall back into unconsciousness.

When my awareness slowly returns to me, I don't open my eyes, afraid of what I might find; instead I listen, trying to work out if I am alone. I can hear muffled sounds from somewhere beneath the bed, telling me that L is still here, I open my eyes cautiously slowly turning my head to look around.

I notice that my arms are no longer bound above my head, and there are painkillers and a glass of water on the bedside table, I reach out to take them, and see that my wrists have been washed and bandaged; clearly L has been fiddling with me whist I slept. I swallow the pills and try to sit up, wincing at the pain, I think back to last night remembering the excitement I felt when the detective pinned me down, the thrill that raced through my body when he kissed me, biting at my lips; the pain as he entered me and the incredible pleasure when he thrust deeper, I definitely enjoyed last night, but was it worth this, the pain? I'm not so sure.

"L?" I call the older man's name and the noises from under the bed cease immediately, I even wonder whether he is still breathing "L?" I call again "I know you are there, please come out."

I am considering getting up and dragging the detective out, when I notice L peeking at me from the foot of the bed. The shadows beneath his bloodshot eyes even darker now and I can see the tracks tears have left on his cheeks.

"L? Are you ok?" I ask, Worried now.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" L bursts into tears again and I wonder what he is so upset about.
"L, what's wrong?" I force myself to move now, ignoring the pain as I crawl down the bed and wrap my arms around the shocked detective
"Aren't you angry Light-Kun?"
"What?" I had totally forgotten about being angry the moment L had looked at me, I probably should be angry, I wonder why I'm not. Can I really pretend I didn't enjoy last night? Looking at L now I know I can't, every second of last night was worth it, I would take as much pain as necessary to have L touch me again.
"No, L, how could I be angry?" It hurts to look into his dark pain filled eyes.
"I don't understand? I hurt you, I, I'm a monster" he insists.
"No you're not, Please don't be upset" I think I am beginning to understand why he is so distraught.
"I will hand myself in, I should be arrested" He continues.
"No! Please L, you can't, I won't let you" I don't think I could live without him now.
"But it's not safe, there is something wrong with me, I should be locked up, what if I do it again?" he insists.
"I wouldn't mind" I mumble, and I feel the heat rising in my cheeks.
"Light-Kun? What are you saying? I raped you!" L whispers the last three words, and I realise he still doesn't know how I feel.
"Is it really rape if the other person wants it?" I ask, obviously hinting at my feelings for him, his eyes widen as he gazes up at me and I pull him closer locking my arms around his delicate body and kissing him softly, "I love you L" I whisper in his ear, "I think I always have"

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